#novemberwithhan

[0225pm]

it is currently 8:34am!!

just wanted to update on today’s events before i sleep.

so earlier this morning, i accompanied my mom to akmal’s madrasah graduation but rayhan managed to book out earlier than expected so he was able to come see the grad. but in the letter they said that they only allowed max of 2 people into the hall so i decided to just let my mom and rayhan go since tbh, i wasn’t wearing the proper attire to go in the masjid anyway. at first, i was kinda upset with my mom cus i didn’t see the point of me going if rayhan was going since only 2 people are allowed per child but then thinking of my mom going there on her own makes me worry a little since she’s rather frail so i decided to go with her and sent her to the masjid, waited for rayhan to come before making my way to bedok interchange.

it has been a rather long while since i’ve been to the interchange, or anyway really, on my own. i’m the kind of person that prefers having company than doing things alone. some may say that i lack independency but whatever it is, it’s always nice to have company. as i was walking around aimlessly in the mall, i thought of going to mcdonald’s to just lepak until my mom calls but it was too damn crowded and i missed the breakfast timing by a minute, so that was a bummer. but yeah, can you actually imagine me eating alone??? the last time i had to do that was back when i was working for YG at OG and taka, for my lunch break since i was working alone lol. but anyway, as i made my rounds at each levels, i finally decided to buy something to eat at old chang kee and then as i went back up the escalator, i thought of going to heartbeat but then again the thought of having to walk all the way there while i was socially sweating seems like a major no at that point so i decided not to and went to starbucks instead. alas, what a poor decision i’ve made. like literally, poor LOL cus i was $8.80 poorer after buying one of their christmas frappe lol and i didn’t even add whipped cream!! i should have said yes to whipped cream bc those are free unless you want extras, then you’ll have to pay. but anyway, the good thing is there was a lot of empty seats at starbucks which was quite weird considering that it’s a saturday but i was thankful cus it means that i didn’t have to stand awkwardly waiting for my mom to call.

so after i collected my drink, i sat down and i watched a couple episodes of chilling adventures of sabrina on netflix. luckily i downloaded a few so i managed to save on data haha but i didn’t think to bring my portable charger and my battery was getting pretty low after awhile. also i noticed that the person spelled my name as “hady” instead of “heidy” lol but wtvr doesn’t bother me. and then i think around 1+ almost 2, my mom called saying that they’re done with the ceremony and then asking me to go meet her and my cousins at this shop called new rezki and at first i was kinda lost and then well, my mom has this habit of like screeching her voice into the phone so it sounds like she’s shouting and/or raising her voice intensely like as though she’s mad and pissed at you but really, she’s not. i guess it’s a bad habit she picked up after countless “huh hello” whenever she called someone. but yeah, so i got a little bit upset cus the feeling’s not good when someone is raising their voice at you and i was wearing my earpiece for goodness sake so i kinda raised my voice a little too and then like i said, i was lost so she tried to direct me but LOL i ended up just googling and apparently it’s just right across the interchange, roughly about 4 mins walk as stated on map.

after seeing me, we all started ordering the food we wanted. akmal got fried noodles, rayhan had to watch what he eat cus he’s in NS and he’ll be punished if he gains weight instead of losing so he got a bowl of beef salad. my mom got bee hoon kuah and i got their mutton chop. it was ok but very oily for my taste so i don’t think i’ll ever buy that again unless i’m craving for it and if i’m nearby. it’s a dollar cheaper than the ones selling at thohirah though. oh and the shop is 24/7 too! i guess most, if not all, mamak eateries are 24/7. after we had our lunch, my mom bought some lauk back for my dad and for dinner and then we all headed back to the interchange. from there we split ways with my cousins cus they were taking the bus at the entrance of the mall, whereas we were taking the one at the interchange.

the moment i reached home, i quickly took a shower again and shampooed my hair cus i perspired earlier on and as i was changing i heard knocking on my window. i was so shook wtf cus i wasn’t expecting anyone but turns out it was farhan. like seriously what the heck.... LOL i was happy la but i was also very shock cus i thought he was gonna take the train but he actually took a grab all the way to my place instead. damn bobo la hahahaha and i wasn’t even fully ready yet even. so i rushed and did my usual face makeup and then let him in so he didn’t have to wait so long for me outside and then i did my usual going out routine. drying my hair, straightening a little, picking outfits and putting them together in my head. for some reason i was super duper indecisive about my outfit today. like idk why i couldn’t just grab and go like i usually do. and i also always will look through look books or style accounts and then visualize it in my head and i’m set but idk why the hell was i so damn frikin indecisive and fickle minded about my outfit today i kept changing and changing and then wearing different pieces together and shit and lol i finally ended up wearing the first outfit i tried which was just a black dress with a denim jacket. the sad thing is, the dress was kinda short and when i walk it gets even shorter so every now and then i had to pull it down but it’s really a cute dress though i think it’ll be nicer on someone shorter haha.

we walked to the bus stop and then went to tampines cus i had to get the brooch that my mom wants at isetan and while on the way there we were thinking of what to eat and looking through links that i’ve saved on facebook on different places we can go and eat at but most of them were either too far or too expensive and we don’t have that kind of money to throw on food yet, especially not when we still have 2 more weeks left till end of the month. after awhile, we decided to stop at tamp hub and eat at the thai shop, the one where we ate before. but lol the queue was so long and it seems like a long wait + majority of the tables were filled so we settled for tenderfresh. i felt like having fish so i got their grilled fish with aglio olio and farhan got the chicken chop one. i like their aglio olio!! it has this mild spice taste and farhan says that it’s kinda like mee goreng. overall, it was nice. their buffalo wings could be a little bit spicy though but it was still good! 😋

after our late lunch early dinner, we went to isetan to see the brooches but sadly there wasn’t anymore sale price and it was going at $19 per pin so i called my mom and ask if she still wants it and she said no cus it’s too expensive and if it was $9 like before it’ll still be ok. so we ended up not getting anything there. though now thinking about i felt like i should have just splurge my money to get her one brooch at least since she has been wanting it when she first noticed it last saturday.

afterwards, i casually mentioned genki before to farhan and he thought i was joking but lol we ended up taking the train and going to genki cus i said that i wanna satisfy my cravings. we went to the bugis outlet and surprisingly the queue was moving really fast. i got the ones i wanted and we spent less than 20 bucks there which was really unexpected but also good i guess. i’m so thankful that farhan was ok with splitting the bill even though he didn’t even eat a lot. then after that we walked from bugis to dhoby as usual and i wanted to walk even further down towards plaza sing bus stop but we saw another 65 coming so we decided to walk back towards the sota bus stop and take it there instead hehe.

i really enjoyed my day today with him. it has been a wonderful day and i hope that we will have more good happy days like these. i like how we shared our music interest while on the bus ride home, and then i was so in awe when i heard him rapping!!! he really look so cool at that moment hahaha like im not kidding. maybe i’m the only one who sees him and think that he’s cool la but hahaha wtvr 😂 i also like how we joked a lot and just sorta teased each other lol or maybe that was me bc i kacau him on the train ride towards bugis hahaha and his reactions are all so cute wth i just wanna squish him 🥰😍 and then i get to lay in his arms!!!! that’s always my fav part at the end of the day tbh. just being in his embrace hais.... oh and he went home really late (or should i say early lol) around 7am cus we had a hard time booking a grab!!! but also bc we were busy playing ml hahaah we were on a roll but had to stop since he hasn’t been home for the whole day and me too but like my house is just here ya know whereas he lives all the way at the other side hahaha so yeah i gotta get him back home and to sleep also since we didn’t get much sleep that night. one day i wanna try sneaking him into the house and letting him just sleep in my brother’s room or something after my dad’s asleep. but idk if i have the guts haha or maybe should do like that time when he stayed in my brother’s room till really late and we played games together and watched movies on netflix. that was fun too 😁

#adaywithhan #novemberwithhan #personal #171118 #181118

[0225pm]

time check: it’s currently 2:45AM and i just thought i should write something before i head to bed hahaha!

i’m not sure if i have to go to akmal’s graduation later cus idk if rayhan has already booked out or not but we will see later. hopefully i can finish typing before 330AM at least!

so today was a rather happy day!!!

i honestly felt really happy haha idk why but han was being so clingy and affectionate today i absolutely love it!! 🥰

around 3+, he texted me asking if i wanted to come over to his place and i actually had some grocery shopping planned but i decided to push it to another day so i can spend this day with him since this doesn’t happen everyday. then around 4+ he messaged me asking me if i know that he’s gonna be fetching me and i was like whaaaatttt??? ofc i didn’t know that la since he didn’t mention it beforehand but thank goodness i already showered, just had to prepare. i initially thought of going to his workplace to fetch him then go to his place together after that but since he said he was fetching me i took my own sweet time to prep hahahaha and then this bobo asked me if i can fry food for him lol 🙄 lucky for him the fridge has some frozen spicy nuggets and then my dad asked me to fry all the samosas since there were only 6 left so i did!

i didn’t know how many nuggets i should fry so i just went with the standard 6 and then added in 1 of the samosa to make lucky number 7 HAHAHA LOLLLLL. by the time he came, the food were already cold hahah but he still ended up eating it anyway cus he was really hungry and hadn’t had anything to eat for the whole day. his excuse? no time 🙄 seriously.... nak kene debik??? no time then must make time even if it’s 15 minutes, still have to eat something!!! cannot go back to your bad irregular eating habits of eating one meal per day!!! but ya so anyway, he drove on for quite a while to go back to the company and we managed to catch the sunset together. it was very beautiful i love watching the sunset and sunrise but if i have to pick one, i’ll pick sunsets cus the atmosphere is not as humid at night hehe 😛

han was being very affectionate in the van and lol i know mentioning this will probably make him do it less just to spite me 🙄 but i seriously love it when he’s all clingy and shooting all these cupid arrows directly to my heart hahahahah like i just instantly go all melty and warm i love itttttt 😍 and then when we reached the company, i really badly had to pee so he let me in and i felt so fucking relieved sia hahah cus i’ve actually been holding it ever since i left the house. i know i know.... why didn’t i go and pee before leaving the house??? well i wanted to but then i didn’t feel like it until after getting into the van and i didn’t want to make him wait so i just tahan all the way hahahahaha oh and did i mentioned that be cracked one super lame joke lol..... he asked what’s the diff between air and wind and i thought he was asking for real??? i didn’t know it was a nonsense quiz 🙄 but apparently the answer was - air is from the mouth, wind is from the butt. or something like that LOL lame la hahaha take the L bb!!!!

then after that we walked to the bus stop, and then took the bus to admiralty. i have to say, i really like it when han puts his hand around my waist. granted, i don’t have the nicest or smallest waist cus i have fats all around it but it still felt really nice to be held there. tbh, i used to not like that feeling cus i felt like it’s so weird?? sometimes i see couples doing it and i thought, how the hell are they walking with the hand around the waist???? but it actually felt really comfortable for some reason hahaha so ya i rly like it pls do it more often bb hehe 😚

then we had like some debatacle about the human organs and then he asked me which is the largest/longest organ of the human body. and i know what’s the largest cus it’s the skin. i watched this science video before and they mentioned it but he said no, it’s the brain. so i was like ????? what???? then i googled and turns out it’s the skin LOOOOLLLL and as for longest, i think it’s the liver. HAHAHAHA BOBO SIA THIS HAN but i still love you ok haha i love all your silliness and lameness 😘❤️ then we went to chateraise hehe and i got mochi as per usual and i decided to try one of their waffle looking ice cream yogurt. it tasted like coconut to me, han said it’s not bad. but he doesn’t rly like ice cream cus of the coldness to his sensitive teeth. so in general, eating ice cream is something rather rare since it hurts his teeth.

after that, we took the train and went to his area. i bought happy meal!!! cus i want to collect all the toys hehe and for the first one i decided to get the pikachu just in case it get sold out since pikachu seems to be one of the more popular pokémon. then i felt like the happy meal wasn’t gonna be enough cus well it’s basically just a kids meal - 4 nuggets and fries so i thought of getting something else to eat from kfc. but i felt like so muak liddat cus i can literally always get kfc anytime since there’s one at my area. so i told han that i’ll be getting some carrot cake maybe at encik tan but when i go there idk why but the picture looks kinda unappetitizing suddenly so i walked around the basement and finally settled for bread hahaah yaaaa i didn’t wanna eat carbs but i still got carbs in the end lol but guess what i didn’t even touched it and it’s now sitting in my room. i’ll prolly eat it tomorrow for breakfast hahaha! ok then after all that, we walked back to his place!!! i greeted his dad and then we sat in the living room. initially i wanted to go to his room and sit there but i saw his bro watching fortnite so i decided to stay and watched too and then watched both of them played a couple games of warfare and fortnite and fifa while simultaneously watching the series i’m currently watching on netflix - sabrina’s chilling adventures. i downloaded a few eps before meeting han just in case.

then han played a round of csgo i think on his pc and then i told him i was gonna go home hahahaha like i just wanted to see his reaction la tbh and he’s just so cute wtheck then after his game was over he came back and sat at the living room area and then we decided to watch the kissing booth which was on netflix hahaha and this bobo ah rly. i asked him if he watched before then he hesitated to answer but i knew he watched before cus he did sorta mentioned it once?? so i asked him why u watch again? then he said, cus u haven’t watch. then he smiled 😁 what a bobo!!!!! but ya we ended up watching till the end, somewhat. cus my driver came already and i had to leave. yeahhhh i had no choice but to book before 1am cus grab takes away hitch from 1-5am and hitch is rly the much cheaper option!!! and all those while i could tell han was alr rly tired and worn out but he kept fighting sleep. his eyes were red and he kept rubbing them lol all those are signs of sleepiness but he still kept fighting them off hahahaha silly bb. and he still managed to send me off all the way downstairs and kissed and hugged my goodbye in the lift before we go. also i think it was the first time(?) he actually said, see u tomorrow to me cus yeah haha we’re actually gonna meet again tomorrow it’s our weekly dating day hehe. i can’t wait to see his stinking cute face later and spend the whole sat and morning of sun with him laterz hehe.

ok time check: 3:27AM!! i managed to stay before my deadline timing for this post. goodnight world!

#adaywithhan #novemberwithhan #161118

[0225pm]

another staycay with my hanbb!

this concludes the 4th? staycay we’ve had i think. or 3rd, cus i won’t really count the first one since we didn’t overnight at all but it was still a nice experience haha. i used to be so shy at the hotel counter cus they’ll ask for personal details like your name and ic and well staycations or just some hotels in sg, in general, doesn’t really have flowery reputations hahaha i think you get what i mean. also, i’ll always get farhan to do the counter details thing but this time round i decided to just face this weakness of mine and i got through it without any hitch but i think it’s mainly cus farhan was there. if he wasn’t there i don’t think i’ll have the courage haha. i’m not being cheesy but it’s true there are plenty of things that i feel like i did cus of the courage he gave me. like the things he said sometimes get me thinking. yeah i overthink stuff a lot but some of the things he said do make me feel a lot more confident about myself and i try to step out of my comfort zone more often for the sake of him. i dunno if it’s a good thing or if i’m changing too much to try and fit his likes especially appearance wise, but i like to see him happy. of course there are some things that i think will take months or years for me to truly be comfortable with myself like my skin for example but i’m trying. i used to not be able to go barefaced in front of him but he kept saying so many positive things even though my skin is really full of shit i started being comfortable enough to show him my skin without makeup but i’m still self conscious about it obviously. i think the only time i truly let myself go in public without any makeup at all was at the hospital. i didn’t even have the feel to dress up much less put on any makeup cus i was grieving really badly. ok enough about that again, i’m rambling off topic.

anyway, so after we checked in and got to our room the first thing he did was eat hahaha oh ya did i mentioned that we bought some food beforehand at then economic shop and i think that was one of the best rice with side dishes i’ve ever had at such a cheap price. 10/10 will go again to buy! like it was only $3.10 for sweet and sour fish, fried egg and white rice??? like wtf so worth it cus they weren’t selfish with the meat portions too. and then we went to 7-11 to get some drinks and i got chips as well!

i was sweating like crazy before so i took off my top and i wanted to change since my tee was wet with sweat and even my pits stank lol i really wanted to shower at that point of time but i decided against it and just waited till the aircon dries me off. and then we fooled around for a bit HAHAHAHA ok and then we watched this chinese historical movie on the tv. i think it was called sword something. it was pretty good!!! idk how they edit the cgi so nicely like u can tell it’s fake but like good fake???? i dunno how to explain or describe it but yaaa hahahaha.

we got hungry after awhile so we decided to head out and he told me that he has no cash on hand so i said i have and then before we left i asked him to bring his wallet and he was like for what then i said bring his card so he can just tap and go since we were going to 7-11 hahahaha and HONESTLY I WAS JUST JOKING LOL i swear i really was joking about him bringing his card cus before we checked in i actually withdrew 20 bucks and i had some coins. but he still went ahead and brought his card out and said “you’re lucky i love you” and i really think i am lucky 😍 he literally let me pick out whatever i wanted to eat like all the nonsense wtf..... there were some things i wanted to put back like the custard cream puff cus that wasn’t a need it was a want and i could do without it but he got upset when i wanted to put it back and i was afraid that he will create a commotion lol so i just took it and placed it along with the other stuff we picked out like instant noodles, and candies and more drinks. i think the total amounted to 17 bucks and i felt damn wtf cus like tbh we could have saved a lot if i didn’t pick out so many nonsensical things...... but thank you bb for the treat 😫 you keep agreeing that i’m fat but still continue to feed me hahaha i love you!!! and then we went to the indian shop and farhan ate prata plaster??? and i paid for that since they only accepted cash hahahaha.

and then when we got back, we watched dracula untold!!!!!!! i love love love movies like draculas and vampires and just supernatural stuff but not the horror kind. more of like superpowers, or mythological creatures and stuff. i’ve always had an interest in mythological topics. initially, farhan wanted to watch soccer since it was playing live but he gave in (thank you baby!!!) and watched dracula untold with me hehe. and then we ended the night with some mma and fell asleep around 2+.

farhan was snoring like crazy ok i mean on normal days i wouldn’t mind but it feels like he was snoring on purpose????? but i don’t think so la??? but then again his snores wasn’t constant so that made me feel like it was being done on purpose lololol. i finally fell asleep but got woken up every now and then cus i felt so warm under the sheets hahaha i think this is one super obvious difference we have. i super love the cold and i’m willing to freeze to death but farhan doesn’t like the cold at all 😂

i set the alarm at 1030 and 11 but i woke up around 9+ i think and then i think that’s when farhan got woken up too and then well, you know what happened hahaha. after awhile i went to wash up and showered and started preparing the hot water for our instant noodles. he doesn’t believe me when i said that fork wasn’t included in the cup noodles lmaoooo but thankfully i still had the utensils from the rice i had the day before and i went to wash off the debris and gave him the spoon whereas i used the fork hehe. and then we watched a bit of tv while eating and i continued watching while he went to take a shower and then after that we started packing up our stuff so that we can check out.

then we went to tampines cus i needed to go to daiso and this man had the guts to purpose make me upset??? i was genuinely upset to the point that i even gave him the silent treatment wtf.... and it’s over something so small but it still made me feel like crap la. cus he reset his phone so my fingerprint wasn’t inside and i couldn’t unlock his phone cus idk his password either and he kept on not wanting it let me put my fingerprint again and naturally i got mad since his fingerprint is encrypted in mine???? and i even went to the point of deleting his print in mine and changed the password of my phone lol and then i got mad at both him and myself but mainly at myself for being so affected lol and then i kept walking ahead leaving him behind and then when i didn’t see him following me i panicked but ofc i didn’t show it. i was sad that he didn’t follow me behind but i was still upset over the whole print thing. i eneded up calling him anyway and he told me that he went to tampines mall instead and i was like can you come to t1 cus i’m here and daiso is here. and he was like okay. we walked in silence until i mentioned about the print again and then he was like here take my phone??!?!!!! you know the password what!! and i was like i don’t know???? i seriously don’t know wth and if i know i wouldn’t be so upset also cus i can just unlock what. thennnn after i got my stuff i asked him if he wanted to get anything else and he shook his head no so it was just walking in silence after that to the bus interchange. i asked him if he was going home via train and then he checked the price of grab and said that he’ll take a grab from my place and i was like????? but deep down i feel relieved la cus i wanted to talk to him and then i think he tried to make amends by buying the hershey ice cream for me?? at first when he asked me i shook my head no la cus like ya still upset what how can i just accept the ice cream liddat right but in the end i caved in and ate a spoonful or two of it. then we rushed for the bus cus it was there already and went to sit at the upper deck as usual on a double decker bus. and then he took a nap on the way back and kept hitting the back of his head on the chair handle wtf and i felt so bad cus the sound was so loud and he seem so surprised since it woke him up. it happened again for the second time and i just looked at him like 😒 but i ended up using my hand as protection cus i didn’t want him to hurt his head again and again. and then he rested on my shoulder and i wasn’t angry anymore. the moment we reached my place i was still a bit upset cus um hello i still dunno the password neither is my fingerprint inside lol so after what seem like a long time i brought up the matter and he was like nah la amek la my phone and told me the password angrily and then asked me to save it in my notes so i remember. then i added my print inside and i was happy again loooollolooololll. then i asked him to add his print again too. at first he declined but after asking again he added it in anyway. then i ask him he like ah to see me upset all and still got the cheek to say which bf don’t like to purposely make the gf angry????? so taik!!! but i did ask my bro that question - whether guys purposely like to make their gf angry and he was like ya cus very satisfying to see them get annoyed and fed up and i was just like 😱🙄 abeh nanti terlalu upset lelaki malas nak pujuk lol 🤷🏻‍♀️ then after some time his ride came and then we said our goodbyes.

side note: sadly i don’t have any pictures of us together but hello bb we really should start taking more photos together my camera roll is full of your face but not a lot of us together haha

#adaywithhan #031118 #041118 #novemberwithhan

[0225pm]

(to be continued) - 271117

yo ok so this is a continuation for the post on 271117 as promised! ok la not really promised cus i didn’t promise anything but like i did say i will continue the post so here is the continuation!!!

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we also decided to watch justice league! this movie was on my list ever since they showed the trailer in the theatres the last time we went to catch a movie and i get to check this movie off my list already yay yay! \^^/ i wanted to buy the tickets using the machine but lol stubborn han strikes again >_> cus he said we should just try buying at the counter who knows still got student price! (even though it was already beyond 6pm) but he don’t want to listen to me and wanted to still purchase tickets at the counter so i said okkkkkkk and then when han asked the person if there’s still student price i pointed to the poster thingy (what is that thing called i can’t remember its like looking thru a laminated menu list) cus there’s ticket price info written on it and it clearly said till 6pm for student price lol loser hahaah then i asked the person if can pay by card but the person was like it would be better to use the machine instead cus here no nets thingy idk la what then i was like see see seeeeeeeee to han but he just looked at me like lol ok wtvr. i ended up just paying in cash anyway lols and then we walked around the mall for a bit cus the movie starts around 7+ and we still had a little bit of time. 

when it was about time, i asked him if he wanted anything to eat but he shook his head no and i was like are you sureeeee do you wanna share a hotdog and he just like eh ok but then when it was our turn at the counter he decided to order another set for himself LOL LOSER la hahahhahaha. so we got a set each and then went to look for our seats in the dark. 

and ok u know what’s the most shitty thing or not!!!! ok let me tell you when we were purchasing the tickets, the seats in front of us were taken, meaning it was unavailable so we decided to just ok you know what let’s just get these seats at the back which was beside two other people. then during the advertisements han was saying, eh if got no one sit in front we go sit ah but i was like are you sure what if the people are late? then he’s like ok ya could be also but then end up throughout the whole movie NO ONE FUCKING SAT AT THE WHOLE ROW IN FRONT OF US WTF LOR but like we couldn’t move over also cus we were kinda stuck to our seats since we were inside meaning if we were to move out, we would have to profusely say sorry excuse me to the two people beside us and it would be an inconvenience la basically. but wtf lor the whole damn row in front of us were frikin empty sia like we could have sat there instead dafug.

#adaywithhan #novemberwithhan #271117

[0225pm]

currently listening to: nothing without you / 10cm please click on the link and give it a listen while reading the english translations of the lyrics because it speaks for me.

yo haha

han is probably not gonna like that i posted that first photo of him and his bird’s nest hair because he thinks it’s ugly but he’ll always sparkle in my eyes hehe.

anyway on this day i decided to run away from responsibilities (i need to find a shorter word or phrase for skipping work other than just “skipping work”) and went to see the doctor at bedok polyclinic.

did you know? bedok polyclinic has moved! after god knows how many years but ya they’ve moved to a new location situated in a building right beside fairprice. i forgot what’s the name of the building. i think heart@bedok or something idk LOL but yay to new facilities and the hospital-like interior! i actually really dig the new place.

ok so the night before i asked han if he can accompany me and he was like sure what time? and i said idk maybe around 2? and he’s like okkkkkk but then he came late anyway but haha forgivable cus i’m forever late also besides, even if he came early we would still have to end up waiting anyway cus even after he arrived, i was still waiting for my number to be called e_____e 

me: so long sia the person at the registration counter say maybe must wait 2-3 hours and told me probably around 4:20pm my number will be called han: ya la everyone today monday blues then want to see doctor cus all never go work me: >____> 

and then he went to the vending machine and bought some drinks and a snack. we decided to sit at the area near the vending machine for awhile before moving over closer to the tv screen thingy where your number will be shown when it’s being called. we sat there for like idk i think 15-20 mins just talking shit and me touching han’s face and neck LOLLLL because his body’s so warm and i was cold af even though i was wearing a pullover, until this lady asked us to move and sit inside.

lady: hi are you still waiting? if waiting you can wait inside. me: oh but my room isn’t in hub A, mine’s hub B.  lady: then you cannot sit here because here only for hub A. me: ?????????? han: ????????  me: oh really ah....... han: duduk sini bayar lain pe (i can’t rly rmbr what he said but i know he sounded annoyed hahahaha damn funny and he even said it loudly wtf gile boi want to carik pasal) me: *stands up* hahahaha let’s go bb there got seats *points to hub B area* (which is fucking just beside hub A LOOLLLLL) han: *moves along with me while still muttering the duduk lain bayar lain thingy*

and then!!!!!

me: bb come sit beside me la *there were two empty seats and i already sat in one) han: *moves his butt* random lady: *sits beside me* me: LOLLLLLLLLL  han:  me: you so slow LOL han:  han: *continued sitting on the arm rest of the sofa couch* me: are you comfortable haha do you want to move? *points to another area of empty chairs* han: i’m ok baby i’m sitting also what here me: um okkkkkk

but lol tbh i wasn’t even complaining bc him sitting on the arm rest thingy actually made me feel so fluffy bc i can grab his arm and smell his old man perfume jacket. idk why la but just holding his arm makes me feel so safe and warm and nice wtf idk how to like describe the feeling but i love it la ok. and then he pat my head hahahaha and i was being so passive aggressive about cus i said smth like it’s r00d but actually i like it wtf bodo sia me *facepalm* then he talked about how it doesn’t matter cus he’ll be paying for my head anyway and i was so confused at this point cus like uh what do you mean paying for my head??? then he explained about the zakat thing and how the man in the fam must pay all. quite interesting bc my parents did talked about zakat thingy before but i don’t really know much about it.

also!!! i’m not tryna like stir beef w old men out there but like i described the perfume as old man bc it smells exactly like the perfume my nose sometimes decide to take a whiff of when i walk past old yalam men going to the mosque. also!!! apparently the perfume is from a small bottle that his grandad gave him/used to use or smth i can’t rmbr clearly sorry this post is like 2 days old my memory is shit i need to learn the mind palace thing!!!

i also saw mustakim and his boyfriend!! at first i was like ooooh who is that familiar person and then i realised it was him but we didn’t acknowledge each other hahhahaha 

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ok ya so i went to see the doctor and decided to ask for doxycycline again to help with my acne and bumps. she also prescribed some 2.5% benzoyl peroxide for me though i’m currently tryna steer clear of any acne treatment products at the time being cus my skin is already super dry after washing my face and all those products i dumped on my face to help soothe and relief the pain when my face had a crazy ass breakout party the other time. also apparently you’re supposed to religiously take doxy for like 6 months before you can really see the difference wtf. i’ve been taking them for only a month and then i stopped cus i thought it wasn’t helping at all and the doctor before this that prescribed me doxy the 1st and 2nd time didn’t even tell me such basic info. but ya you’re supposed to take it for about 6 months but some people can see some changes in the period of 3-4 months. then she told me to just come back for monthly visitations and see if there’s any improvement. i should have probably also set an appointment for next month so i don’t have to wait so long for my turn but i didn’t ahhahahahaha

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then after more waiting for the collection of the meds, payment and official stamp for my mc, we finally went to eat!!! yayerz

han told me that there was fish n chicks at the coffee shop beside princess and i was like ?????? really???????? omg wow i didn’t know they have an outlet here in the east wah damn near leh!!!!!! so we decided to eat there! i would have taken better photos but nvm la hungry already also hahaha! i got chargrilled chicken with cheese pasta and fries for the sides, and han got black pepper chicken with the same sides. i’m gonna try their popular hawaiian chicken next time cus i saw a photo of it on the internet and it looks frikin delish!!! kinda wish i had ordered that one instead but it’s ok there’s always a next time!

and then we sat there for a really long time, the sun even set and the evening skies started taking over the day. we talked about so many things, mainly about what happened the other time at the hotel (will be in another post!), how cheated he felt when i didn’t wear matching outfits with him on the day we went to afa, how disappointed he was when he knew i wasn’t able to come on the day his mom got married after telling his cousins about me and styling his hair, grooming himself just to see my reaction when he pick me up, and then about NS stuff.

i felt so sorry.  and felt even shittier after he told me that he doesn’t wanna wear or try to initiate wanting to wear anything matchy anymore. but i guess, i understand. he doesn’t really like matching things (kinda sux bc i like it) and when he tried to do it, i ended up just brushing his efforts aside. 

sigh.

i was even more sorry about the day of the marriage. cus it was also our 9th month, an even special day for us. yet everything was ruined when all he wanted was to see me. i wanted to see him too, but circumstances wouldn’t let us. 

but i learnt something through this talk we had.  i’m also glad that he tells me things now without me having to force it out of him. i’m not sure if he realised that he tells me things but i really like that raw and vulnerable side of him when he talk about how he feels. not because it makes me feel like i have authority or whatever, but more so because he trusts me enough to confide and have a h2h talk about whatever he feels displeased with rather than just keep it to himself and letting his true thoughts and feelings consume him from the inside.

also by knowing our mistakes, and the hurt we caused each other because of our actions, we can learn from the mistakes and work things out together to try and prevent the same or similar things from happening again in the future. 

communication is really the key and i’m happy to know that han feels the same because he wants the relationship to go far. damn i’m starting to sound old. or maybe this is part of me adulting in a relationship. 

(to be continued)

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