#not like. i dunno. the healthy reasonable necessary amount for an active teenager.

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i always assumed that i had a slow metabolism since i could go a rather long time eating very little and only realize once i was Suddenly Very Fucking Hungry that i'd missed a meal, but recently i have realized that i may, in fact, actually just have adhd and a fast metabolism, and that chronically just-slightly-under-eating may, in fact, explain quite a few Weird Things my body and brain have, in fact, been up to.

#food #i can pinpoint the exact time at the end of high school when i decided i was probably overeating (despite being in a weights class) #(and despite being relatively on board with body positivity/fat neutrality) #(and despite being a *teenager*) #and to everyone's fucking surprise #that is also around the time that i suddenly stopped having the energy/will to work out and started getting minor brain fog #also i suddenly needed different sized clothes (annoying) (no money) (but also probably caused by like yknow)(going from teens to twenties) #i never thought i was *restricting* my food because certainly when i had been eating tons and working out tons i had been eating too much #not like. i dunno. the healthy reasonable necessary amount for an active teenager. #i #am so stupid #(im not)(i just made an assumption about my body that has probably been uhhhhhhh doing minor harm to it for years now lol)(woopsies!) #on that note i am going to go make some damn food and i am going to get fucking full