#noctis for example back in 2020.... i wna rewrite that thing i wrote . n also write that one dream i still remember

[noxtivagus]

I'M SO EXCITED FOR MORE FF

#🌙.rambles #SORRY FOR THE MOOD SWINGS ON DASHBOARD #my brainrots r returning . am i gna return to my brainrot fictional days HMMM UWAH SM OF THEM WERE LEFT UNDONE..... #while i'm still young maybe i'll indulge myself >< #noctis for example back in 2020.... i wna rewrite that thing i wrote . n also write that one dream i still remember #🥺 N FOR OTHER STUFF TOO ! i wna get back into reading n writing like that again #i've been too busy lately but i don't want to let go of all that >< cringe but free 🫶🏼 #god this is october i promised to myself i'll do a lot better #>.> it still hurts n my eyes r dry from crying but i'm gna do better. i'll do what i can #too much to do. i shouldn't have time to dwell on my regrets if i want to reach greater heights. i need my will to match my ambition #i really haven't been taking care of myself lately;;; #when i turn a year older!!!! on the day itself 7 days from now (oh my god it is already 21st here) #i'll start anew. i'm really gna make a new start. it won't all change overnight but i'll #i'll play video games again. i'll try to talk w my friends more. i'll pick up books to read. i'll write more n more. #i need more time.... but this is all i'll get for now. might as well make the most use of it #if i want to reach greater heights then i don't have time to waste on ruminating and dwelling on past mistakes. on my many regrets #YEAH THERE WE GO remember who i am. n what that entails for me. what that means for me. to love life and live and be myself #as the way i've always been. therein lies my answers. they've always been there. developing the more i learn n experience #like earlier it hurt a lot i think i've been bottling up some pain again unintentionally. n it got overwhelming w all my mistakes n the #overthinking n pressure BUT #we all get lost n confused. maybe most of the time i am but i've learned to live with it. even rn i do. i'm alive am i not? #n i think it's so easy for me to forget that. i'm really just human too. in the end more than all these constructs n obligations #there will always be things that mean more to me. for as much as i desire and aim for success. i'm happier when #i play ffxiv without comparing myself to other players. without dwelling on what i've missed out on. no pressure to catch up #when i'm writing freely about whatever i want to myself without any worry about how the rest of the world would perceive me. #no denials when it's just me. #i'm much happier when i'm with the people i love. my family n my friends. n the love i also have for the rest of the world #there. i remember. the little things matter to me more than. my mistakes. they weigh heavy but it gets much lighter when you're not alone #n i've always ever been like that. god wait i love ff so much thank you for making me remember myself #I GOT DISTRACTED.... I MEANT TO WRITE ABT THE NEW TRAILER SOB