#nevertheless I don't still consider myself as bi

[heyheyatstarfield]

My headcanon about Sam

Basically, I prefer a lore-friendly style. So, I don't stray too far away from the original. I just add something I like in between the non-described parts, like details of his character, or his tastes in his private life.

Seems to be an animal lover As for the reaction to Atheles, he appears to love animals. Although I can't understand why I recieved some complaints after choosing Atheles instead of microbe. It seems that the reason he refuses Cora's request for pets is not because he dislikes animals, but because their lifestyle doesn't lend itself to having pets with responsibilities. I wish someone could make a mod that enables petting animals for both the spacefarer and NPCs. It would also be great if there were a mod that brings dogs and cats to Starfield. If it comes true, I will keep foxbats in my husbandry, dogs in the Lodge and watch Sam so happily pets them. (kawaii)

Seems to like keeping things neat and clean Since he tries to change the subject from Lilian to bathroom hygiene, it seems he prefers keeping things clean. His room at the Lodge isn't that messy, and the same likely goes for his room at Jacob's house. There's still a lot of the naughty boy in him, but he seems decent about it.

Seems more attentive than he looks The 3C (or 4A?) levelled curly hair that Cora has requires detangling almost every day; otherwise, her hair gets matted. So, I think Sam would comb her hair as a daily routine until she can do it on her own. Cora might still ask him to do it sometimes. As someone with very straight hair, I haven't experienced this myself, but I can imagine how much work it takes. Apart from that, just imagine Sam combing Cora's hair — it's such a heartwarming sight, isn't it?

Seems doesn't care himself much While there are dumbbells in his room, it seems like he doesn't have enough time to exercise. His body looks less toned when he wears a swimsuit. He takes good care of his beard, but otherwise, he seems to pay less attention to himself than to Cora. Though a maintenance of his beard doesn't seem to demand a significant amount of time and effort. It looks he lets his beard grow as it is and just trims it with clippers, maybe using a 3mm attachment, about twice a week or so.

Scent I remember Cora mentioning that her dad's ship was kind of smelly. However, he doesn't seem like someone who has a strong body odor. I think he wears a very classic masculine perfume, perhaps something like Aramis, with a leathery, musky, and smoky scent. In that case, my spacefarer might not prefer the scent either and could consider offering something more preferable for both of them as a gift.

My thoughts on his night life are in the next section. (It's safe for work.)

My spacefarer had no chance to know that he was bi. Sam can be flirted with regardless of the spacefarer's gender, and his voice actor mentioned that he played Sam as bisexual. So, I already knew that he was bi before I played that part of the game. But my spacefarers wouldn't know that just from his dialogue. Sam has an ex-wife and a daughter, and his confession mainly revolves around his ex. Barret is similar in this respect; he only talks about his late husband. Although Barret awkwardly tried to hit on the spacefarer on the ending of his personal quest. Since bisexuality of romantically involved NPCs is a common thing in many games, the development team may have felt that it was not necessary to mention it in the game. However, I think it would be more immersive if Sam or Barret were given the opportunities to subtly imply their bisexuality to the spacefarer, if their feelings were somewhat mutual (in game-wise, if the affinity level were enough). Nevertheless, I can assume that Sam has had various naughty experiences, including indulging in aurora, during his days of partying hard with his smuggler master. This means that the possibilities of Sam's sexual preferences are infinite.

Since he prefers cleaness (or, so I believe)... To engage in intimate relations between men requires careful preparation and aftercare to prevent any issues. You can't have it the moment you want it. As mentioned earlier, he appears attentive but less focused on self-care. Both the preparation and aftercare aspects would likely feel tiresome to him, and he wouldn't be inclined to use an unprepared space. Consequently, although he may enjoy both giving and receiving, I suspect he wouldn't engage in such activities very frequently. If there were advanced devices capable of swiftly cleaning, sanitizing, and preparing the spot and be safe to use, he would enjoy it more often, but the world of Starfield seems unlikely. Because, for instance, it has only very antiquated toilets without even electric bidet seats. Despite being a highly energetic individual, I believe Sam would find greater satisfaction in intimate connections with men through a sense of peace of mind or spiritual bonding rather than direct sexual experiences. I will explain this in the next section.

He may try to find his ideal father in his male partner With Sam taking every opportunity to speak ill of his father, Jacob's existence is of great importance to him, whether he likes it or not. Deep down, he can't hate Jacob completely and wants to make peace with him. But at the same time he knows that Jacob would never change the way he is, and neither would he, and he still suffers from flashbacks to the bitter memories of his youth. So, I believe he would be drawn to someone who listens to him, accepts him as he is, spoiles or guides him sometimes and provides comfort, which might include non-platonic forms of intimacy. Physical intimacy doesn't always have to involve penetration for him; what's most important is the emotional connection and support which Jacob never could show him.

His taste in women is unclear for me As he seems mildly possessive, and as energetic as he can easily be for 4 rounds, he is the type of person who wants to stay with his love all the time, regardless of gender. I can understand that he can't be patient with Lilian's lack of motherhood and that he wants the spacefarer to treat him and Cora well as a full package. However, I don't think he expects his beloved to be a typical mother type. If he were, he wouldn't be a partner for the woman who lives such an intense, distinguished lifestyle. Besides, he didn't have much time to know motherhood well enough to ask for it from a woman he loves, so he wouldn't expect it the way he expects fatherhood from a man. And, as far as I can tell from Lilian's looks, he likes a good-looking one. One more thing, and this is just my personal opinion, he may be obsessed with women's breasts. Not for their size, but for their touch and warmth.

About Lilian He repeatedly said that his relationship with her was an event, that it just happened. I can imagine a beauty appearing out of nowhere to rescue me when I'm in a mess, saying, 'I've seen something in you; why don't you come with me?' I'd follow her no matter what. As for Lilian, I can also picture her stumbling upon a soaked, wet puppy on a stormy night. She couldn't help but pick him up, take him home, and care for him. However, it later turned out that he was a Weimaraner, raised in poverty of love, not an obedient Labrador Retriever. Naturally, it's challenging for her to provide him with more than enough affection to be tamed. After all, she is also a fierce hound, raised and living in a very different environment. It's not surprising that they didn't get along well together.

I haven't thought much about the details of what he would be like in bed, so I'll write it down another time. I have seen some amazing articles that he plays dom. I almost agree with them, but he doesn't strike me as the theatrical type. If he tries to pretend to be a pompous master, he might burst out laughing in the middle, and the spacefarer would join in the laughter amusingly. (kawaii) I'm not sure how he manages to leave bruises during the night, and I can only assume that he plays in a kind of natural and sweet way.

#starfield sam coe #starfield headcanon

[winepresswrath]

okay ik ppl can ship whoever they want and i usually don't mind but...it kinda irks me when the fandom ships wen qing and yanli bc like. yanli is in love with zixuan!!! he loves her back!!! they're married!!! they have a kid!!! (and no im not gonna use past tense it hurts too much) what part of this is hard to understand???? like ive seen ppl get pressed when someone ships a canonically gay character with someone of the opposite sex (and i get that it's because they feel they're trying to "normalise" them by making them straight) so why do ppl do the same with straight characters?

Aw, anon, I feel you on the xuanli shipping but a) I think you’ve come to the wrong place because I’m also plenty fond of Yanli/Wen Qing (qingli? yanqing? i’m a multishipper and i can’t help myself) and b) there’s a pretty big difference between depicting or imagining characters who have canonically been in relationships with and experienced attraction to members of the opposite sex in queer relationships and portraying gay characters in relationships with people of the opposite sex. For one thing, there’s nothing in canon that tells us Yanli isn’t a bi woman who just happens to be in a relationship with a dude in canon. Shipping her with Wen Qing isn’t actually any different from shipping her with Mingjue or Xichen. People are sometimes going to look at a canon ship and be like “but what if” no matter how good that ship is.

More importantly, there’s a lot of baggage surrounding the depiction of queer people in media that is pretty directly and unpleasantly related to the fact that many straight people still think that a) we shouldn’t exist and b) they have a right to pretend we don’t that is being violated every time we hold hands in public or write ourselves into stories or their fellow straight people, looking at the world around them and then seeking to depict that world in their art, include us rather than airbrushing us out for their convenience. Writing gay characters as straight isn’t bad because it normalizes the character, it’s bad because it contributes to a homophobic culture that tells queer people, and gay and lesbian people in particular, that their existence is somewhere between evil and an imposition, and they’re abnormal or depraved or just going through a phase and one day they’ll meet the right person and settle down to live heterosexually ever after.

There is a tendency in fandom to declare that female characters who, in canon, are depicted as being in love with or attracted to men are lesbians, and I am very sympathetic to the generalized exhaustion with he was a boy/she was a girl relationships, compulsory heterosexuality, and the general lack of lesbian representation that I think underlies a lot of that impulse. I personally am basically always exhausted by comphet and want more queer women of all kinds in everything. I am nevertheless also occasionally a little frustrated with what sometimes feels less like a desire for more lesbian content and more an excuse to sideline female characters and declare shipping them with popular male characters off limits. I also get being frustrated by being told that a relationship you really like and enjoy and has lots of canon support is somehow bad or invalid. I fully support you in going forth with a xuanli OTP and refusing to consider any other options and being lowkey irritated that other people do not see the truth and the beauty and the light! But people who ship Yanli and Wen Qing are not doing anything wrong.

#in the same way if you're doing a reboot or a re-imagining of an older property #changing things up so that previously straight white male characters #are queer or women or poc #or all three! is generally considered somewhere between nice and essential #but straightwashing and whitewashing are widely considered shitty #and being like i know what would improve this story... fewer women is also considered shitty #writing gay characters as straight is shitty #and writing gay characters as bi is how shall we say #inordinately fraught and likely to be hurtful to gay people #not because being bi is bad or less queer than being gay or a lesbian #but because a lot of people have been really badly harmed by homophobic narratives about how they just have to meet to right man or woman #and rewriting a bi character to be gay is going to make bi people who have experienced biphobia and bi erasure feel like shit! #and just to further complicate everything and make me think i probably shoulda left this ask in my inbox it's actually very common irl for #people to use different labels at different times in their life and plenty of people do identify one way or the other and then go huh #and many characters do not explicitly say or exist in a time and place where our labels would not apply and they would not think of #themselves as gay or bi anyway! and then we all get to form a circular cancelling squad about it #but at no point is writing a character who has experienced opposite sex attraction or identified as straight as #something other than a kinsey 0 going to hurt straight people the way straightwashing hurts #queer people #irl obviously respect how people identify regardless that's just manners #but characters only have the feelings or opinions we give them

[cealchylle]

I'm genuinely not trying to be rude and I apologize if it comes across that way. I'm honestly just curious because I've seen a lot of talk about it lately and you mentioned it in your last post. I was just wondering why shipping two male characters together is considered a fetishization? I understand that some people do fetishize mlm relationships and that's a huge problem and definitely not okay, but I've seen two of my fav ships (Stucky and Lokius) being labelled a fetishized ship when most of us just think the characters work well together or enjoy the comfort the ship offers. I don't understand how that's fetishization? Thank you so much for your time <3

Thank you for the question and I hope I can give it the nuanced answer it deserves.

The thing is, fandom is still a largely female space. It has been that way for many decades. True, it's become more accessible than ever through social media and acceptance in the public consciousness. So here on Tumblr, I'd say there is quite a large queer community and there are certainly male, nonbinary and gender noncomforming fans. Nevertheless, it's still the assumption that the vast majority are women. I would say this goes even more for slash fandoms (do we still call it slash? I love that term). If you go on Reddit instead, where the fans are much more likely to be (straight) men, you will barely see these ships mentioned.

So that's where the issue stems from. It's not woke to ship something just because it's gay (even if you are too). Think about the idea of a large group of women obsessively writing about, romanticizing, and eroticizing two men being together. It's almost inherently fetishistic unless you yourself are a gay/bi man. Because gay men's stories don't belong to us.

I'm not saying you can't do this in a responsible way or it's wrong or anything. I'm 100% guilty myself, particular when I was much younger. I do still love many slash pairings. But I think it behooves us to tread carefully and make sure we aren't marginalizing actual non fictional gay men.

#reply #what if #loki #mcu #and i think if you ask gay men #a lot of them will express discomfort about slash fandom

[hellomynameisbisexual]

So You're Feeling a Little Bicurious. We're Here to Help!

8 expert tips for exploring your sexuality.

BY ZACHARY ZANE OCT 18, 2019

After years of wondering if I could ever be intimate with another man, I decided to hook up with a dude my freshman year of college. I figured this "bicurious" thing clearly isn't a phase, since I'd been thinking about it for a few years. The only way I could know for sure if I was actually gay or bi was if tested the waters.

So I did. Alas, I got so drunk in order to have the courage to hook up with another man that I ended up puking midway through our encounter. After the experience, I could not tell you if I was gay or bi. Overall, the experience was "meh," like any really sloppy, drunken hookup regardless of gender.

The thing is, I went about hooking up with a guy all wrong. I had expectations about what I should feel, still struggled with internalized homophobia, and didn't realize that sexuality is a spectrum. I think that's why I felt even more confused after hooking up with a guy.

Still, I'm glad I did explore, and it did eventually lead me to embracing my sexuality, though it took another five years. Nevertheless, there were definitely things I could have done to better prepare myself for exploring sexually with other men. Things I learned years after the fact. Now, with the help of two sexuality experts, I'm going to impart what I wish I knew and had done before (and after) hooking up with my first guy.

1. Start with porn.

You don’t need to jump headfirst into penetrative sex with a man. Porn is a great way to explore your desires in a manner that’s accessible and private.

“As a starting point for acting out sexual fantasies, many people turn to pornography because it offers a ‘safe’ way to explore, especially if you’re a little afraid of acting it out or don’t know how to go about it,” says Dr. Justin Lehmiller, research fellow at the Kinsey Institute and author Tell Me What You Want.

For bicurious men specifically, Lehmiller notes there are plenty of pornos out there which feature bicurious themes. “So that’s probably the easiest starting point for getting a sense of what you do and don’t like,” he says.

2. Move to apps and chat rooms.

"Apps and chat rooms using sexting and video chats are great ways to explore how you feel about engaging sexually with men before jumping into the deep end and scheduling your first hook-up," says Jor-El Caraballo, a licensed mental health professional who works largely with LGBTQ+ clients. It allows you the opportunity to engage with other men sexually without doing anything IRL. (Grindr and Scruff are two good apps to use.)

3. Have a bisexual MMF threesome.

If after watching some bi/gay porn and talking to some dudes on apps/chat rooms, you’re thinking to yourself, alright, I think I could potentially be into this, it might be time to consider having a threesome with a woman and another man. In Lehmiller’s research on sexual fantasies, he’s found that a lot of bicurious guys report fantasies about mixed-gender threesomes. “I think the appeal of this scenario is that it seems less intimidating than hooking up with just another guy,” he says. “A lot of bicurious guys worry about what it means for their sexuality if they experiment with another guy, so being able to explore that with a woman present might make it less intimidating.”

4. Work on reducing internalized shame.

Exploring bi-curiosity isn't just getting out there and doing it with another guy. “It's important for men to understand that we live in sex-phobic and homophobic culture that helps shape what we see as possible for ourselves and our desires,” says Jor-El. This means that we first have to explore how much of our reluctance might be attributed to cultural attitudes and how much of it is solely our responsibility. “Naming that societal homo- and bi-phobia first is an important step,” he says.

5. Educate yourself.

One of the biggest ways to reduce internalized shame and to better understand how your sexuality might not be binary or stagnant (meaning, specifically, that you're not always exclusively gay or straight) is to educate yourself about sexuality. Alas, sex education leaves quite a few things to be desired here in the United States (and abroad, too). Instead of discussing how we come to form our sexual identity, some sex-ed classes never get beyond condoms on cucumbers—or teach abstinence-only curriculum.

"Because we live in a culture that has [negative] perspectives on bisexuality and same-sex attraction, it's important to gain exposure to alternative perspectives," Jor-El says. There are two books in particular Jor-El tends to recommend to his clients. The first is Brene Brown's Daring Greatly, which tackles shame resilience. The second is sexologist Dr. Chris Donaghue's book Sex Outside the Lines: Authentic Sexuality in a Sexually Dysfunctional Culture.

6. Recognize you might not have a big “aha” moment.

When I got to college, I decided I was going to finally explore my same-sex attractions that had been gnawing at me for the past few years. Without going into too many details (you can read about my full experience here), I left that first encounter feeling even more unsure of my sexual identity. I thought I was going to have this big “aha” moment. I’d kiss his lips and immediately realize, “Woah… I’m gay. I’ve never felt like this when I've been with women.” Or it would become crystal clear I definitely wasn’t into men. Neither happened. In fact, I came to the conclusion after the experience that I was straight, and it took me another five years of hooking up with men to embrace the fact that I am bisexual.

7. Talk to a therapist.

As always, it can be helpful to explore this in the safe space of therapy. "With a LGBTQ+ affirming therapist, you can talk through aspects of your sexuality that seem daunting or frightening to deal with on your own," Joe-El says. "This space will give you the security of a confidential and non-judgmental space where you can make your own decisions about what works best for you without outside pressure."

Personally, seeing a therapist was the most helpful thing when it came to exploring and eventually embracing my same-sex attractions. By the end of my third session, I began calling myself bisexual.

8. You can try it, not like it, and you're still straight.

There's this notion that if you so much as kiss a man once, you must be gay or bisexual. This makes it particularly scary and seemingly "binding" when you explore. You fear that if you experiment, and don't like it, people will wrongfully assume you're closeted. You fear that rumors surrounding your sexuality will haunt you for the rest of your life, but here's the truth about experimenting: If you come to the conclusion after hooking up with a guy that you're straight, then you are just as straight as a dude who's never experimented. One sexual act does not define your entire identity. Period.

Now if you're someone like me, who comes to realize, oh yeah, I really can get down hooking up with other men, then welcome to the club, my dude. Your world is about to get a hell of a lot more fun.

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[storyofmyownlife]

End of The Decade

I started this about 9 years ago for a very simple reason-I was hooked on the tv show called Akward. Jenna, the main protagonist of the show, likes to write blogs about her life as a way to cope and express how she feels. Awe inspired, I decided to create my own anonymous blog with the hopes that cathartic venting and documenting the past can help me navigate the present. For the last couple if years, l had been given many opportunities to taste the bittersweet feelings of life. Truth to be told, I have never thought I would be here writing this blog to end the decade. The earlier entries can attest to this. Ten years a go my life was in shambles. I had a broken family, broken English, and the broken will to live.

My father, two siblings and I arrived in Canada on April of 2009 to finally live with my mom. With little regards of the past, I cherished the brand new start to live a life without prejudice. I felt very little emotion when I left the Philippines because I knew deep down I could finally escape the invalidation of others of how I suppose to love. Of course, then, I was naive to think that I wouldn't felt that way ever again- I was completely wrong. It did not take long before everything start to turn sour. Us siblings did not get a long. We did not group together and we did not know how to live with one another. My mom and dad started to fight a lot. Almost every night. My dad started drinking a lot for many reasons that I know now and understood, but not completely forgiven. He misses his old life back in his home country- the life of the party and his other family. My mom push him to work and help with bills. Just like my sister and my brother and I, My mom and dad did live apart for many years. The feeling of living with my whole family was foreign to me. A month after arrival, the incident happened. The police came and for many months the social worker came and visit us. The resentment between us siblings began to build up. For many months, my brother and I blamed my sister for telling the truth. Knowing what I knew now she did the right thing. Nevertheless, my brother and I alienated her.

I also had broken English. I did not make a lot of friends in Grade 8. I was that loner kid who would spend every day during lunch alone and would walk on the school ground by himself. My sister and my brother got their own friends. I wanted to make my own but couldnt. On the bright side, my brother became friends with the guy name Denver. He is one of the only few people in our lives who never left for the past decade. He is still with us.

I started high school. I made more friends who are Filipino. We all kind of form this group. Denver is also part of it. Within that inner group, we had more inner clique called cajibo. I'm not going to disclose who they are because I no longer associate myself with them and it does not matter. There were also four girls who called themselves kimfejeny and they became part of the inner group. Regardless of what happened in the end, they taught me a lot of things about life. For the first time, they made me feel what is like to find a family in a group of random strangers. I must admit they helped us work throughout with some of the traumas. We had crazy dreams together, we spent so many adventures together, and they taught me the life is not as simple as black and white. It all ended because I cared too much and told the truth when it was not my place to do so. Inspite of if all, there were some silver linings to it.

I worked hard to improve my english and move in advance english. My ESL teacher helped me a lot. I improved my academic performance in no time. I also began to developed new relationships. My brother and I became more close to Daniel, Alen, Kith, and Alden. I also began to listen to Taylor Swift's music. She did help me cope with unreciprocated love, broken hearts, and the unpredictability of life. I swear I had crush on couple of people at my high school. I'm just gonna name them here for memories sake- adam, alden, aiah, and andrew.

As time went by, I started thinking about my future. After taking few courses, I knew that I have a passion for literature and history. During my junior and senior years, I took classes in philosophy, history, and law. I was no good in math. Science was okay. I actually got the biology award college level and made it to the honor roll in grade 11 and 12.

In my senior year, this girl name Chelsea asked me out to go to the prom with her. I tagged a long with her friends. They were also friends kimfejeny and some members of cajibo. It was an okay time. I didnt really have an ecstatic time. Suffice to say, I got to go so it was a check for one of my bucket list. Since I'm on the subject, I also went to Red tour concert instead of going to my own school prom. Ed Sheeran performed with Taylor swift! They were both great. Another item checked off!

On my last year, I was also determined to move out. My mom was very supportive of it. We started to look for school. I got in to all of the ones that I applied to. I was torn between u of t and Mac. To be honest, I would not have considered or let alone knew about mcmaster if it wasn't for Andrew. I visited both schools. I thought that u of t provide more classes and opportunities for what I wanted to do. But, I wanted to have an experience like those in movies. Also, deep down I wanted to run away in hope that I could find myself and be. I decided to go to mac

My brother and I graduated. I said goodbye to my favorite high school teach who gave my brother and I a gift. But she did not need to because she has already given me so much and more. The summer was filled with excitement and anticipation. I held a get together before I leave for college. I said goodbye to my friends and left a note for my brother to read. There were crying involve because I felt that I did not deserve them at all. They were so good to me and I was not in return. That summer was bittersweet.

I started my university experience. I would not go in a lot of details because I pretty much documented my first year here well enough. Grace, Shane, nicole and devone made a difference in life, especially Grace. She saved me from myself.

In second year, it was interesting because it started off as bad. I was seeing this guy and wanted to be with him but couldnt. I also was very insecure about myself and my sexuality. Everyone went on dates, make out with someone at the party, etc. I risked my life a couple of times in pursuit of getting the same experience. With the help of my friend and after going to group support, I got through it all. I started joining clubs: board games society, humanities,etc.

Devon came back. Turns out he is bi. I've always liked and wanted him. I had wanted his approval but It was an impossible task. He was drunk and toxic. He liked one of my roommate to who kind of like him too, but did know it was right. She was also the only person who knew about my feelings towards him. Suffice to say my relationship with Devon was severed after the end of that year. Shane was also a drunk and feel like he would not approve of my sexuality so I cut my relationship with him slowly.

I also started dating someone name T. It was an okay relationship. He was a really good guy but I don't think we were meant for each other. I loved how he held me, but I knew I was not the one for him. I was not a good boyfriend to him. I think I tried to look for things in him that I want from my partner. Older, and hopefully wiser, know now that it was wrong. I ended it.

I had great times with my friends and old roommates. Spontaneous drives, adventures, and they gave me opportunities to experience things I never experienced before. Like going to demetris, hiking to trails and falls, random trips to McDonalds etc. Alicia also became my support on my last year at mac. I also became hers as well.

When graduated, I did not find a job immediately and was kind of down. I started to work out to motivate myself. I lost about 75 pound in a couple of months. With the help of family friends, I got hired at a law firm. I learned a lot of things from there. What it's like to practice law, experience to use office equipments, how to network, etc. The perks were great. But the coworkers and the work are not as great. Couple of coworkers come and go. 2 years and a half I still work with them. I also met Ashley, Selena, clarice, bryce, mike. Fun fact: Ashley's wedding was the first wedding that I attended that was not affiliated with my family.

A year ago, I woke up one day and decided to apply to post grad HR program. I was supposed to apply right after I graduated university but I knew I needed to take some time off. But, that day, I was determined to start a new. I got in to the program but was not able to start until last january. The program taught me so much about myself and others. I worked like I've never work in my life. In the end, I got 3.64 GPA. I've made friends and enemies.

My friends from high school that I mentioned before are still with me to this very day. We've gone through so many late night adventures together! I finished my internship last week and I now work as a full time employee at COC. I've traveled couple of times outside Canada for the past 2 years.My family and I recently went to punta Cana. I'm hoping to go to either Mexico or California next year!. I know in my last post I may have mentioned my struggle with the changing times. I know everyone in my life is starting to build their own life without me and that's okay. It is part of growing up. I'm also having short term memory lost lately but hopefully I get better. I'm hoping that my friendship with mike and Bryce would last longer. I wish my family the best in this new decade.

They say, life gets tougher as you grow older. My hope is I became tougher and more resilient still. I will ride the every changing tides of time while always looking up to the daylight.

I'll tell you the truth but never goodbye.

December 31st, 2019

Ps: pic 1 shows the books that I accumulated and read over the years. Pic 2 my favorite things the I received and owned this year.