#n im like. um........... NDJDJDJDJD

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#personal #saw 2 of my friends from school tonight #they asked how its goin with you know who and i was like hhhhhh #and they were like. you should just ask him out #n im like. um........... NDJDJDJDJD #bc literally EVERYONE is saying this to me. #why cant HE ask ME????? god its so #but i am older... by just 2 years. maybe thats intimidating???? he doesnt seem intimidated by me tho. god idk #i think im gonna message him tomorrow #its been like 2 weeks idk JDJXXXKXKKX #i did have a bad cold tho.... JDJJDNDD #god... why is this so hard. and like why is he SO?????? difficult???? #ok not difficult. i think actually hes quite simple but Andjkfkfkdkdk #idk how to explain this man. i really dont. hes like me if you removed the overthinking and my filter #but idk im also scared to start something im not ready for #but then..... feel like it kind of already started #god idk #and with more time passing im like. OH GOD WHAT IF HE FINDS SOMEONE ELSE #???? #but then if thats the case then ok fine it wasnt meant to be #i also am just like.... i feel like. the possibility of anyone liking me back is just... way too foreign #like. idk sometimes im like. what if this is all a joke JDKJDKDKDKDKDM #god idk idk #im also like maybe i should pretend to friendzone him in my mind so that its Less Scary to talk to him #bc like. once i do talk to him its literally fine NDJDJDJKDMD #hhhhhhhh