#my life would be sm better

[stuckinapril]

embracing my morning gym girlie routine i think. gonna study for like 3 more hours then hit the gym in the cutest workout fit. and then im rewarding myself w my favorite veggie wrap after <3

#studying first thing at dawn just sets the day right for me and i love doing it #but i usually delegate the gym to evening hours. and yesterday i was sour as fuck after bc i just did it on empty #plus i try to get around 7-8 hours of studying in and working out earlier in the day would help me feel sm better #i need the endorphins. #and i could get some flash cards out of the way while i’m there #AND have extra time to hit my orgo lab in the evening and get in a couple hours of research #my social life has been on a major back burner but i can barely get a second to myself these days #so i’m trying not to feel guilty ab my 82727 unanswered msgs. we ball

[littlecafe]

my local kpop store got their red velvet albums shipment in today and double irene!!

irene photocard in her poster version too??! never thought i’d see this day 🤧

#wayv album not mine but since i took the pic in the car i didn’t want to place it elsewhere ajdjsjs #the package version you are guaranteed the member so that’s nice #but poster version you’re not so i’m so happy!! i really wanted her poster photocard the most that’s why i bought it over photobook #my sister and i have a mini thing we do for buying albums and it’s her picking them all for me SJDJDJ #she ‘finds’ all the photocards i want better than if i pick them 🤧 #i was gonna get seulgi’s poster ver instead but she said irene’s pc would be in the irene ver so i got that instead and hello?!! #tell me why the store owner asked who else do i like other than rv and i was like oh i mainly like sm groups #and he was like why??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 not my fault their music just hits right with me #i’m in it for life with this cursed ass company #wish i wasn’t an sm fan too cuz their albums don’t have shit in it #originator of making pcs but now i feel like their inclusions are the most basic smh #tea talks

[icedgarlic]

HOW DO I BUY BOOKS WITHOUT BEING BROKE BUT NOT CHOOSING BEZOSS

like im all for the library (my number 1!!!) and pirating (!! ) but I love owning physical copies. But it's hard to find them at my used book stores, and thriftbook.com is sooo expensiveee ngl and i hate having to buy books from amazon but idk what to do

#i wish there were more indie book stores in my area #like it would make my life sm better #theres like only 1 #booklr #books

[shivieroy]

can't believe anya taylor joy, zendaya and ella purnell are all in brazil and I'm not seeing them

#lesbophobia at its peak #my life would be sm better (it wouldn't) if i lived near são paulo #ella purnell #anya taylor joy #zendaya

[matty-bear]

can someone cook up a silly lil nick fix where the reader is trans 😞 (ftm) i need smth to make myself feel better abt my body dysphoria 😭

#n before yall say anything i would TOTALLY write smth myself but im just too upset to do so rn #my life would be sm better if i was born a male 😞 #sturniolo triplets #nick sturniolo #matt sturniolo #chris sturniolo #azul talks ✮ #side note my tummy hurts so bad #im suing burger king #i haven’t eaten your food in months and when i finally have the opportunity to indulge in your food you give me a horrible stomach ache #wtf

[roarriita]

^^ a pic i took of my dad (real)

happy father’s day !!

#yes pedro pascal is my father #i love my dad sm #couldn’t ask for a better father #but fr if i could adopt parents i would #lana del rey is my mother btw #i have the best parents ever #staying ​delulu for life 😜✌🏻💯

[callixton]

can i say i know that people i know irl are on tumblr. who would prob understand the context of everything i say on here at basically all times. and when it comes down to it my interests r pretty niche like if someone decides to go into the company tag...... anyway. finished that boy's tag.

#luckily the ones i'm thinking abt are cool i'm not close enough with them to EVER voluntarily share this #but they're graduates and they'd prob just have a little fun w gossip between them & never use it against me #scrolling back thru last year made me so so sad tbh. #i miss so much of it and also so much of it was awful. but so it goes #ted talks #🗡️ #anyway the real reason i ^ post on here so much is because i have an outlet for every other person in my life #whereas not only can i not stop thinking abt him (fairly normal for me in these situations. tbh) i cannot say a thing to the people who #- would get it bc it is far far too embarrassing #had such a long talk w a friend tonight abt the important stuff tho and i love them sm. i am struggling a little w friendships i think #but i am so grateful for the one's i'm maintaining #and i'm gonna try to do a much better job after mac closes. bc it's not my fault but also i haven't been

[roses-and-elixir]

The best thing I got out of therapy was learning the importance to immerse yourself in activities you enjoy doing, to make you feel better. Also learning to appreciate the small things and slow living. But also how to overcome your problem(s) by making a plan on how to deal with it in baby steps. That way you’re not pushing yourself too much that you become overwhelmed, but at the same time you’re pushing yourself a little to help build up the courage. It’s been a slow progress to reach the end goal but it’s worth it once you get to that point.

#alhamdulillah #im so grateful i am where i am #i was crying nearly every night in pain - both physically and emotionally 2 years ago #i used to have really bad nightmares and bruxism as a result #my sleep would be so bad and i used to wake up crying sm #its so so so nice not crying anymore #its so nice to have a daily routine i have learnt to love and appreciate #its so nice to just not experience pain #and i feel like my sleep hygienes gotten so much better - maybe its from exhaustion from trying to do a lot in a day #but im not gonna complain - at one point i wasnt sleeping at all or even scared to sleep #personal #i kind of feel like this is the best my life will probably get lol #the most peace i will feel #but its ok ive learnt good coping mechanisms and strategies to deal with issuds #issues #i will try to face whatever problems i have thrown at me InshaAllah #have Allah too to turn to

[tillxthexearthxstartsxtoxcrumble]

When the parts of sm(f)s that I know exist actually happen:

#the stars are the same as ever and i dont have the guts to keep it together???? #in another life you were my babe in another life you were the sunshine of my lifetime what would you trade the pain for??? #IM NOT SURE??? #I USED TO BE A REAL GO GETTER? I USED TO THINK ITD ALL GET BETTER??????? #I THINK IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH IT AND IVE BEEN PUTTING YOUR NAME TO IT????? #i cant with this song it kills me #fob #fall out boy #fob8 #sm(f)s #so much (for) stardust #so much for stardust #smfs #id in alt text

[1980ssunflower]

god im so deeply and truly in love

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #min and ryan make me feel things i never would have imagined id be able to feel #our love makes me feel like how elo's music makes me feel #all sorts of insane emotions from bouncing around sm and holding my breath from how excited i am that i get a headache #or feeling like im floating in space in complete awe of the universe around practically driven to tears #i want to spend the rest of my life w them and i AM going to spend the rest of my life w them #they are and will always be my true loves and priority in life #i want to lay outside w them and look at the stars #i want to spend that moment w them both and to hear the crickets in the background the sounds of wind and the chill it leaves on your skin #or even just to look over the lake of our hometown while walking home w the way the setting sun reflects off the waters surface #filled w the most beautiful glitters you can imagine #it all only gets amplified w the presence of the ones you love the most #i just... want them to hold my hand... id really like that.. #ryan can share one half of his headphones w me so i can hear the music better! or i could just listen to it from how it blares out hfdjs #i just need to be near them... to hear their lovely beautiful voices... to lay against them or hold them in my arms #to joke and laugh and sing and dance around i just want life w them

[sapphic-woes]

🙃 just a ramble;;;

#im so not good lmao #i furiously cleaned the bathroom to feek better becuase i have to fo smth to feel valuable and once i was done i was like yay :) #.... immediately breaks down crying for no goddamn reason #i feel useless and like im doing nothing but the only reason i have sm time this very last semester #is cuz i took basically all my classes already. so much so that my minor is done and i only have two more #for my major #ive done!!!!enough!!! the whole point of not pursuing my masters or anything yet is to rest and actually focus on my health #key word being rest #yet in sitting here wondering if i should take a job. feeling so bad for lying in bed. feeling gross and disgusting just becuase im... #not. working. #god i didnt realize i was this much of an overachiever or workaholic or whatever u wanna calk it #but im overthinking tf outta this #should i actually work or should i let this semester be easy?? would workibg actually help me or do i needa learn when i need to slow down? #am i even slowing down the right way?? is lyibg in bed and reading manga and occasionally doing the lil homework i have actually productive #god i don't know. i hate wasting time and not doing like. the right stuff #i feel weird i feel wrong I hate this dm #i dunno y it seems like im just in general not good and its all boilibg down to feelibg very inadequate in every part of my life. suddenly.

[deus-ex-mona]

i think that about covers the ✨entire population✨

#this started off as a complaint about inconsiderate commuters and my strange coworkers… and somehow ended with my grandparents lmao #idk why but my coworkers seem to really like physical contact for some reason?? i’m not used to it at all man… #like there could be a ton of space behind me but this coworker would walk directly up behind me and pat my back or something? lady pls #or i could be looking at my results and my other coworker would just randomly hug me and i??? lady pls???? i’m so confused #and the thing is… i really really hate being touched by any other person (except my mother. she’s fine) so i’m just (ʘ‿ʘ) throughout it all #and speaking of physical contact… those commuters. man. ಠ‿ಠ #who brings their prams out at like 7.25am anyway? it’s early as balls and the kid’s still asleep 80% of the time anyway #pls take your kids out on a family trip later in the day… yk… when people aren’t trying to squeeze onto the train to get to work??? #and they almost always choose to stand right smack in the middle of the train… right in front of the door to boot. at least move in???? #and sometimes (the worst times) the kids are obviously old enough to walk around (and are in fact running around the train at that moment)… #…but the parent keeps the pram unfolded in all its oversized glory anyway. like whyyyyyyyyy #so now not only do commuters have to squeeze together because of a lack of space… #…they now have to shuffle around to avoid bumping into the kid. like ughhhhhhhhhhhh i hate trains sm #and also! those people who purposely stand on the side of the escalator that people walk up on and refuse to walk???? hate them too #i’ve missed so many trains because of them ಠ‿ಠ especially if they stop moving right at the end of the escalator (ʘ‿ʘ) #screw trains fr >:( buses are much better!! the air conditioning is better on buses too!!!!!! #life was much better in quarantine ngl. i could shut myself out from the outside world and just ✨thrive✨ in peace… #those overly-specific things in the dni list are all based on my family members and former acquaintances lmao #shoutout to my chopper-wielding border hopping grandpa and self-hammering grandma!!! i barely knew you guys!!!! #wait come to think of it… i have never really had a single conversation with any of my grandparents. whoops. #i don’t even know their names either… double whooooooops #and so that marks the end of my pointless rant for now. i could’ve just summed this up as ‘dni if you’re human’ tbh #i’ve even done like quite a few of these things on my own list do… dni: me??? (ʘ‿ʘ) if only that was possible aha… #…well i didn’t cry while watching dear layla. lol. that’s the one thing i can definitively say i didn’t and will never do— #inedible blubbering #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂