#my grades are good no worries of failing classes anymore atm (altough i will still worry 😂)

[adore-gregor]

I feel so lucky

#even though i often rant to complain here #i never imagined my life to be this good as it is now 🥹 #i have almost everything i ever wished for #i sometimes switch between this and feeling alone like no one gets me 😅 #like sometimes i feel like i should be so grateful but also that doesn't mean everything is awesome #often i feel like no one sees my struggles from the people i'm close to #because everyone always thinks things are easy for me like when it comes to university or because i appear so happy #it feels lonely sometimes but anyways #like they don't know the expectations people especially my family have for me even tho they don't say it normally sometimes it comes through #anyways i do have a lot to be grateful #i never had such a good relationship with my parents 🥺 it's not perfect but it feels so much more normal like it should be #and i have so many friends and people i get on at uni and my sports it's amazing 🥹 #i never thought that would be me it's like a dream :))) i struggled so much with anxiety #i was so scared to even speak to someone a few years ago 😅 #it makes the experience so pleasant i also enjoy uni <3 #(altough i still think of adding something to my major to give me more options but also i think i would like it) #my grades are good no worries of failing classes anymore atm (altough i will still worry 😂) #i even get great grades with minimal effort (though this one is only partly good as it encourages laziness haha) #and i found something i'm passionate about again i love tennis sm 🫶 #when i play i'm so happy and it gives me drive to become rly good at it even though it's not like i wanna become pro or sth. haha #it would be too late for that anyway lol tho ofc it'd be great but i just enjoy the challenge and seeing progress it's so rewarding 😁 #and tennis with friends >> #i also like football :) and it feels like the void ski jumping left behind is finally getting filled :') #like when gregor retired i kind of lost my love for the sport and yeah it's sad but i'm glad i have sth again 🥹 #also the freedom i have i could never have imagined #i could just go on a little trip with friends if i wanted to and i talked about this with a friend and i got so excited abt it 🥺😍😍 #to have the possibility to just travel when i want to :)) #i earned some money from (mostly summer) jobs these last years and it's great #and i can just get myself whatever i want mostly (i don't want crazy things) #and my family is much better off i guess that doesn't hurt either