#my first time telling someone irl I think of myself as nb rather than woman and boy did it well

[annie-thyme]

you'd think that saying "this is not a point for debate, this is me telling you how I actually feel" would like. trigger at least an understanding if not an apology but no

#I just cannot believe honestly #my first time telling someone irl I think of myself as nb rather than woman and boy did it well #not go wrong exactly but rather baffling #this is a very close friend I'm talking about and yeah in the end we settled on #you can be whatever you wanna be #but like #taking it as a point for debate and a challenge just felt really weird #- I rather think of myself as nb these days - but phYsiCalLy yOu'Re a wOmAn #sigh #- I'm definitely not a man but not a woman either - BuT yoU ARE a- #BIG FUCKING SIGH #so does it mean you're gonna change your pronouns now #no I'm not changing them but that's not the point #although that's in Russian only idc for Russian pronouns but hey I'd love to be addressed as they/she in English bc it feels right I think #anyway after I repeatedly stressed the that's how I feel now point of conversation I got a 'sure you can be whatever u want' #so we're okay now I think #still feels so fucking weird #gender #ah fuck it I'm not done here #it honestly makes me not want to talk about it to any other ppl in my life it feels so discouraging #bc this friend is the first fiend I ever came out to as bi #and all the support I got back then I just #didn't even have the slightest trepidation I just said it bc it just came up in the conversation #and that reaction was like a slap in the face and like oh #Oh #is this transphobia #even though I'm not trans??? #and I know I know I'm not doing nonbinary wrong bc there is no wrong way to be nb #yet I catch these thoughts here and there and have to shut them down #which is not something I was going for!! I'm outta tags turns out you cannot rant for more than 30 oh well