#my brain just did a giant yawn and needed to reset targets without me noticing

[ofcowardiceandkings]

i would like to stop obsessing about the dumb thing where i was scolded a little for being distracted but its a tangible single thing my brainworms can latch onto instead of the many many other shit things in the background that are objectively way worse or scarier

#i'll admit like yeah my bad i goofed for a bit #its just ... hard to keep an eye on that sometimes when theres a lot of junk going on #and its not a strong point anyway ... i need to constantly keep an eye on my lack of an internal clock and its exhausting #like it really doesnt matter either but the brain being a turd abot it is ALSO exhausting #s i g h s #i just need a little 'reset focus' reminder every so often but its like .. #having that be a formal thing is hard without a piece of paper saying you have brainbonk #its why i chose to apply for a physically engaging job rather than office shit yknow #staring at documents all day makes me want to scream lol #its also just irking me that there was yknow ... 'lol now we'll have to find you something to do' comments #because for someone who doesnt DO data entry im pretty speedy in the zone #my brain just did a giant yawn and needed to reset targets without me noticing #idk i wanna eject it from my brain but it WONT LEAVE #rory's ramblings