#my baby boy was diagnosed with FLV (feline leukemia) and it was. too late to even try and guarantee survival.

[ceytal]

the past 48 hours have been shit. it’s bad when i don’t even feel like continuing orv or playing anything that requires actual effort (meaning i’m auto-clicking cookie clicker while dissociating)

#tw animal death #cw animal death #my baby boy was diagnosed with FLV (feline leukemia) and it was. too late to even try and guarantee survival. #not to mention the funds required to even try #he was only two #i keep hearing his meow #his chirps too #the way he purred when i gave even a smidge of attention to him #he was only two and now he’s gone #it doesnt feel real #i dont WANT it to be real #i want to wake up from this nightmare #and to make the FLV situation of it worse #he already had a strange mass in his upper abdomen #i hate this #i want my baby back #i love the rest of mine and my husband’s animals but #the rest of them prefer him and kinda see me as a spare sometimes #the baby i lost was the one that chose me #i had him since he was a few weeks old absolute tops #and now? #he’s gone #i miss my leafy greens #i want him back #i miss you leaf #i miss you so much baby boy #sorry for the tag rambling