#mufie.txt

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it's finals week can people not leave well enough alone i am trying to study not get bogged down in stupid useless friend drama that i tried to remove myself from a literal year ago

#genuinely screaming ugh ugh ugh i have better stuff to do than this!!! #friend sent a message to my partner condemning his attempt to make a safe place for himself and his friends because it was “exclusionary” #and “otherwise not fair.” he shows me this message #and i am very hurt by the things friend said about me and the person that makes me uncomfortable. friend messages me to offer to talk #and i leave her on read. friend reiterates that she is sorry and i say i'll speak to her after finals are over. #and now gf of uncomfortable guy just messaged my partner to ask to talk???? #because “i've heard that there are people that want to make things a bit messy” ?? #can you please! stop!! trying to stop people from setting boundaries! and then blaming me because the boundaries i set are ones you don't #like!!! this is so so stupid! i have exams to study for and classes to pass!!!can you not wait a damn week before you go and make my life #miserable with all your stupid questions because you don't know when to leave things be!! good god. i'm so fucking tired. #vent #mufie.txt

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nothing like knowing with 95% certainty that you’re being fucked with but that 5% do be pretty convincing

#liquidcore dice guy my beloathed/beloved <- reference only reid will get #minor vent but yeah i don't. know how to tell when i'm being fucked with or actually hit on #which is especially annoying when you actually like the person in question. anyways #mufie.txt #vent #<- not really but yk

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endlessly amusing to me that my study music of choice is metal covers of video game music

#it just. it just works #mufie.txt #shoutout to kas for indirectly introducing me to it

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fighting the urge to delete my kny analyses and theories forever and ever why are people still finding and liking them come on guys

#they're not bad they're just super reading as being written when i was 16. which they were #like. i had good thoughts and opinions that made people really mad in a really fun way. but they were also only relevant #as the manga was still coming out. which it hasnt been for a few years now. so why are you still looking at my silly lil theories huh #mufie.txt

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doing what is best for your sanity and safety can be so so hard in the face of not wanting to stir shit up with a group of people who don't care enough to take action to support you

#note that the group also does not like the person you take issue with. not that that matters enough to make them do something. #soooo so sick of some of the people i know. augh #mufie.txt

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there’s an emptiness in my bones. i forgot what this loneliness felt like, burning and relentless and crushing.

#mufie.txt #something about realising you've been holding on to one too many ghosts. #vent

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i do still miss you though. i’m no longer righteous enough to think that this is something to be proud of. i’m no longer convinced that this is a good thing, even. i just miss being able to exist with you, without all of this everything clouding everything you do, everything i do. i’ve been so selfish. i just want to be with you again.

#mufie.txt #vent #this is not about a breakup for the record

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oop it’s essay writing time *turns on metal video game covers*

#mufie.txt #it is still so silly and funny to me

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grateful for loving strongly enough to have cried and otherwise been distraught over saying goodbye to a best friend today, but also i would like to stop constantly aching with Missing People please

#there is no winning because this marks someone who is deeply important to me and also based far away from my other Most Important People #i just. missing people Hurts and i'll never regret loving people the way i do but i do wish this would stop happening #mufie.txt #today has just been kind of rough and i am whiney about it don't mind me #vent

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i miss you like an ache

#we are in fact redactedposting tonight.. #damn me for being petty about it all yet at the same time giving up my right to be. damn you for letting me do this. i miss you. #mufie.txt #vent

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punting things over getting to talk to a very pretty and very cool drummer today

#i don't do attraction to people like ever but MAN she is pretty. aughghgh #mufie.txt #been a bit since a personal posting but i'm just. akdjfskdfhsdjkf she was so nice and so cool!!!

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i want to kiss someone but i also abhor the idea of a romantic relationship but to kiss someone i’d have to feel emotionally close to them but all of my closest friends here are straight and/or taken and/or not people i want to kiss anyway so basically i am sad :( and lonely :(( 

#this whole aro/ace thing has been such a trip basically #identity crises are so fun <3 #mufie.txt

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i just think that characters who are defined by love. Not in a suffocating, constraining way, but characters who have loved so fully and completely that it defines significant aspects of who they are and who they have become

#this is about so many characters but i am personally looking intently at vax'ildan and orym critical role #and especially thinking about tethering (lilli furfaro) #but anyways. this is The character type actually #mufie.txt #critical role

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there’s something so poetic to me abt jet sikuliaq, resident aro ace, officiating the vesbud wedding. describing it not in basic romantic “love one another until parted by death” type terms but as a connection, a miracle in so many senses, that these two people could meet and exist together, as a pair, as two people with fates entwined. vespa and buddy’s relationship transcends definition in that it is not defined by bounds like romantic or platonic; they simply are, in a twist of fate that the rest of us can simply be content in being able to witness

#does this make sense? no but i will say it all anyway #something about jet being able to define all this just makes me very soft. shows that vesbud are partners #not just lovers. #jet #buddy #vespa #junoverse #tpp #mufie.txt

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sir damien fighting lord arum like hmm hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me vs me listening to sir damien fighting lord arum like hmm hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me

#i. can't further commentate on this because just making this post leaves room for so much judgement from my friends :pensive: #second citadel #lord arum #sir damien #mufie.txt #tpp

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cackling over the shorten long posts feature because now when someone  decides it’s a good idea to reblog horse plinko seven times in a row it will be to minimal effect <3

#@ reid <3 #mufie.txt