#minus one really elaborate limited run actual play project I've been mulling over for like three years now which I would still love to do

[fuckitfireeverything]

re: my last post, I’ve been thinking and talking a lot about how my creativity works and the forms it takes, and I’m so bad at having ideas but I’m so good at building on ideas — it’s why I really thrive in collaborative storytelling like ttrpg/actual play but could never write a novel, for instance

and I know that it’s just as valuable a skillset but there are so many fewer opportunities to make things in that form, because even if I wanted to put together a creative team to work on something like an audio drama, I don’t know how to approach people I want to collaborate with without being like “but I don’t have any ideas, that’s where you come in” because it feels like putting the hard work onto them/like a really big ask

#at all times I have like #4/5ths of an ideal creative team for a project like this at my fingertips and a little bit of money set aside to pay them and to do it but #I don't have THE IDEA and I feel like I never will #minus one really elaborate limited run actual play project I've been mulling over for like three years now which I would still love to do #like.... eventually #but like: the best play I ever wrote was a concept my brother had and he said 'i'll never have time to do anything with this so why don't #you try it' and it RULED it was so good and I loved getting to play in that space #it was some of the best writing I've ever done #I love to be a workhorse I love to get shit done and I love to play around with ideas in that way #but I'm not the one to *have the idea* ever that's just not the space my brain operates in #and like maybe I should just be a producer instead and lend my support structure and connections to the people who do have the ideas but #that's not really what I want either