#mfs with trauma will finally reach a sense of peace in their life and its the opposite of peace because it makes them so scared

[thelostboys87]

this post really is the blueprint for RR felix vs lover boy felix 

#literally RR felix is like an annoying piece of shit at first because he thinks hes got his life under control #and then he realises he doesnt and hes like omg everything is falling apart nothing matters let me get hedonistic and silly with it #then hes like wait no i want my life to be okay i want to be a good person :( #ASTRONIMIC crisis over that because he thinks hes gone past a line #(so much of RR thematically is feeling like you're a 'lost cause' bc of childhood trauma hehe) #and then lover boy felix is like oh i made positive progress with myself #but its just made me feel fragile because i feel like i have more to lose #mfs with trauma will finally reach a sense of peace in their life and its the opposite of peace because it makes them so scared #but its still funny because RR felix is like doing cocaine in the bathtub on a wednesday afternoon #lover boy felix works at a kindergarten and is probably well hydrated #i dont think he realises how much progress he's made and when he does that's when he gets scared #especially because now hes more intentionally unpacking his trauma which is a lot #but like instead of fucking people and fighting people and breaking into houses to cope he like gets a caramel frappe and has a cry #LMAO #because he's like one wrong move and ill go back to how i was and ruin everything (which he does almost do exactly that BUT) #he will return to being messy at some point though....gotta have him falter which will scare him so much #also has a mild gender crisis between all of this too #that's my infodump on tumblr of the day so many thoughts in my head that i cant do anything with #thats really cool dallon have you been evaluated for autism #lover boy is like the normal spongebob of my wips because its tragic and emotional #but the characters dont feel like theyre basically or literally fighting for their lives every day LOL #it's refreshing i cant lie