#meeting up with friends is so hard bc i feel like i can‘t be myself

[feetbelowthesea]

No energy for anything

#mine #everything feels so heavy rn #and tbh i can‘t find a way put of all of this #i never got so bad #food doesn‘t taste the same #i can‘t find the energy to leave the house #meeting up with friends is so hard bc i feel like i can‘t be myself #always habe to act and that is just exhausting #but also home doesn‘t feel like home #everything feels so strange #plus i‘m not rested at all #can‘t really sleep #can‘t find a thing that just makes me feel good #at all #i just hate my life and well #life sucks i guess #and i can‘t open up to someone about it bc i feel like i have to idk justify everything i say #and i don‘t wanna be a burden #lets not talk about my trust issues lol #or how much i hate my body rn #like actually hate #never felt this way about myself #doubting everything about myself #and i know i will survive this #i‘m just tired of feeling this way #especially bc this isn‘t myself #i just feel really lonely and yeah #hate it #eventually it will get better #until then enjoy my 30tags and just me recording my life online wow wow wow