#meanwhile astarion speaks and even with literally 3 options for dialogue idk what to say

[devotedlystrangewizard]

i dont like saying astarion is my least favorite of the companions because it makes me feel like im such a "look at me im so special" guy but he honest to fucking god. is my least favorite. i cannot keep silent on this matter. i think hes a good character, i think neil did a fantastic job with him, but also hes committed the unforgiveable sin of annoying me and for that he gets one thousand years in brain jail

#ramblings #something about him felt so??? pretentious. to me. idk. like he was always looking down upon me #i dont personally resonate with him or his story in the slightest AND several of his conversations made me uncomfortable #and then you can say 'oh well gale is kind of pretentious too and hes your favorite' but like. it feels different? #gale could explain magic to me for hours and id quietly listen even if inalready knew it #i could probably do a whole back & forth of 'that reminds me' 'oh that reminds me' 'well THAT reminds me' with gale #meanwhile astarion speaks and even with literally 3 options for dialogue idk what to say #like theres a lot ab astarion that doesnt resonate with me but ultimately his biggest sin #is just reminding me of being sixteen finally getting a seat at the table with classmates only to constantly feel like a loser #being this already insecure teenager constantly expecting people to be putting me down in ways my autistic brain cant comprehend #i dont like not knowing whether someone is genuine or not. after nearly 400 hours i still cant read astarion #meanwhile gale looks at my sorcerer durge starts explaining some magic and my brain immediately clocks it as autistic infodumping #i did romance astarion btw. i havent completed either of those runs but ive romanced him twice #and both times i didnt feel comfortable with it AT ALL until act 3. #& the impression he left on me is in fact fully subjective. i dont give a shit if i misinterpreted it. because thats just how i felt