#me: lives under abuser's thumb and is unpacking the reality of my trauma and abuse and subsequent OSDDID and also-

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#why am i worrying about how we shouldn't be splitting a handful (like... three) alters in the span of AN ENTIRE YEAR #WHEN THIS YEAR HAS BEEN ONE OF THE WORST ONES OF MY LIFE LMAO #me: lives under abuser's thumb and is unpacking the reality of my trauma and abuse and subsequent OSDDID and also- #-has had at least three close calls w kermitting. like. bro its no wonder ur system keeps having splits #thats not even that many for how incredibly shitty this year has been #anyways we may be having... a new split. it feels like things are shifting in the brain in that way #im fucking upset lmao #am i being abnormal abt xyz character or is this a split? we just dont know! #also we havent had introjects thus far afaik so this is... new territory and idk how to like..navigate this if it is actually happening #and apparently we DO have a fragment of a different character from smth else that happened a few months ago but idk if that's true #im stressed and upset fhfjdkl i dont like any of this #delete later maybe #roundtable stuff #pippen needs 2nd breakfast