#man grief is jjust. im not even that directly impacted by what happened

[vanibear]

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#man grief is jjust. im not even that directly impacted by what happened #but still it’s like. I can block out and even forget about things for a little bit but i. it’s hard to do things that i used to and just no #t feel discouraged by them bc things have changed #and im realizing that I don’t really have anyone im close to talk with about how im feeling #with my friends I dont want to overwhelm bc theyr probably hurting a bit too .and im just. I feel like maybe ive distanced myself #to a point where i cant just talk one on one abt this stuff anymore #. which tbf is me and my abysmal communication skills fault #and I just don’t feel comfortable being so vulnerable in front of my family. not for fear of a bad reaction but really just idk. #idk why im like this #and I cant talk online bc I don’t want to doxx myself or give very personal details to strangers #so I guess vague vent posting like this will be it for now #gonna try to go to sleep now #vent tw #kat post