#live it down' and 'she didn't answer the phone and saidnshes busy even though im not busy and i want to talk. shes being terribke to me' ??

[grandtheftpoptart]

All my efforts go unnoticed. It doesn't matter what I do, all she sees is what I don't do. And then gets mad when I say how it makes me feel bad when she ignores that I'm trying.

#i got nearly all of my things out from the livingroom doning area #the whole house #i moved it into my room #the room ive been trying to clean and organize for over a year #the only things i left were my laptop and arm brace #which she pointed out and then said 'you didnt even clean did you' #fuck you?? literally fuck rihht off #and then she makes me feel crazy when my friends are over because she's so nice to them and still makes backhanded comments at me but in a #joking and zen tone #'your grandma is so nice' yeah to everyone but her own family until those people inconvenience her slightly and then she holds a grudge #like i know i can hold a grudge #but mine are funny and reasonable #hers are 'this person is attacking my whiteness so im going to be racist now because its my right and ill never forgive them or let them #live it down' and 'she didn't answer the phone and saidnshes busy even though im not busy and i want to talk. shes being terribke to me' ?? #how the fUCK #does this make sense? #youre such a bad person sometimes with no emotional regulation and you expect rveryone else to live around you and by what you want #get over yourself! youre 60 years old it isnt a matter of 'things were different when i was young these things were ok to say and being #mean to others builds character and is funny' its hurtful and sticks with a person. you should know better. #'respect your elders' my elders have consistently demonstrated they don't respect anyone #so why should i respect them