#like. of COURSE theyre codependent until one of them dies and then after that too

[yellowjackets-1996]

SORRY for nattravis posting but. i'm giffing and i just realized coach martinez is still alive on the tree branch and by trying to save his father travis cements his fate. he breaks the tree branch and his dad freefalls to the ground. travis with a father who isn't always good to him who dies in a way he wouldn't have if travis didn't put it in motion (except it was in motion before he got there). obviously nat is going to be obsessed with him. like. yeah that makes perfect sense

#like. of COURSE theyre codependent until one of them dies and then after that too #it is your life which is so close to my own that i would not know where to drop the knife of separation and what does this have to do w lov #except EVERYTHING! #(and also nothing) (paraphrasing mary oliver now) #like. youre stranded in the woods and your story is restarting in front of you and maybe you can change it #and maybe in changing travis-as-her's story her-as-her's story will change too #and it DOES! she gets travis and she gets javi and for a moment even in the horror its good. but of course stories dont stop #so it keeps going until it isnt and it keeps going until it doesnt #would nats dad have died if he wasnt her father and would travis's dad have died if travis loved him as little as he pretended to #would javi have died if javi didnt love natalie and would javi have loved natalie if travis didnt love natalie #if he didnt love javi would javi have stayed hidden #and if travis didnt love natalie didnt love javi didnt love his dad would travis have died. #and maybe most importantly. if travis didnt die would natalie have lived? if javi didnt die? if coach martinez didnt? if her father didnt? #im not saying anything anymore. but. it means smth to ME #cat.txt