#like. insomnia is for real for unemployed people and brother i am living proof

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

to be fair o haven’t given him much opportunity but alex is not helping in the falling asleep war. why is my body incapable of fucking relaxing. i physically cannot un-tense myself rn and frankly it’s making me wish i was just dead. and if i don’t sleep now then i’ll get tired at work and come home and nap at 6pm. which will only make me not tired again when actual nighttime comes around and i won’t sleep AGAIN. like ok do i just kill my self or what

#not to romanticize a time that was also shit garbage bad. #but when i was in the alex time loop and had so much going on i was always busy #i never had sleep problems. #and not to romanticize the actual horrors. but july 2022 was huge for sleeping normally #and i would like to attribute that to having a fucking job #that was my 9-5 era…. my silly little office assistant era… #it got to a point where i was so used to waking up early i distinctly remember a day that summer where i had my retail job at 10 and i woke #up early enough to read a whole chapter of chain of iron before work #like. insomnia is for real for unemployed people and brother i am living proof