#like uncomfortable and uncertain of if I was playing properly or annoying them and tbh I stayed that way up until I left the campaign for

[whimsyprinx]

my desire to make more dnd characters vs the fact that I’m in no campaigns and don’t know when or if I’ll be in a campaign are fighting

#whimsy whispers #I was in the one campaign that I left and like #I am particular about people in that I don’t like people so if I were to play in a campaign ideally it would be with people I know and like #because i also do not feel all that comfortable playing with strangers #I have a few irls who play or want to but they’re in too many campaigns or are people I don’t want to play with #example being: my roommate kane plays dnd but has several campaigns they’re in #their dad them their sister me and my irl have played dnd together before (very loosely calling it dnd) #I would not play with that group of people again namely their dad who dmed #the only person from that group who had any dnd experience was kane #their dad was just A Lot and went out of his way to hurt and torture out characters and I didn’t vibe with that like please we don’t have to #get hurt to the point of newr death every four minutes just kill me #all the friends I have who play dnd also have far too many campaigns they’re in rn or just don’t live where I do and don’t prefer online #campaigns and I’ve been invited to play one campaign by a mutual and I’ve been added to the server (hi if you see this 💖) #I just am ;-; about new people and playing with new people #the first legit campaign I played was with people I did not know and while I’m friends with them now (though rsd says otherwise) I was very #like uncomfortable and uncertain of if I was playing properly or annoying them and tbh I stayed that way up until I left the campaign for #realsies #uhhh anyways I like dnd a lot it’s very fun and I miss playing it and like making dnd characters #but I have too many also #and I’m not creative enough to make them normal ocs I can hardly do anything with my actual original characters and stories I can’t just #make up a whole new story for the characters and I don’t do well at repurposing characters either