#like obviously i believe tomgreg is requited but i like to hurt myself by thinking about it like tom and him believing it isn’t

[gregmarriage]

god, i love tom wambsgans and his disaster of a love life.

first, he married shiv, knowing she’d cheated on him. she asks him for a open marriage on their wedding night. she can’t love him the way he wants her to. she’s so traumatised by her childhood and the roy life that she treats him like shit (i personally don’t think this is intentional. i think shiv hates herself for hurting tom, but she can’t stop. she just keeps doing it. she has a really warped view of love. she is NOT as evil as some people make her out to be) and he gets used as a doormat by her and her entire family.

then, there’s greg. who gives him attention where shiv doesn’t. who is tom’s emotional, and occasionally literal, punching bag. he’s to tom what tom is to shiv. at first. because you can see tom actually begin to care about greg pretty fast. but to his own detriment. he protects greg, even though, he doesn’t have to. even though, he should just treat him as expendable as he once said he was. but greg manages to lodge himself in tom’s heart and tom hates him for it. he’s married. greg is shiv’s cousin. they work together. it’s gonna ruin everything tom has worked to build. but the lines are way passed blurred by now. tom has fallen out of love with shiv, and into it with greg. but he doesn’t know if greg even loves him back. if he’s not just using him. will he stay? they’re supposed to be nero and sporus. the waystar two. greg made a deal with the devil, and sold his soul to tom. but is all that real? or has tom fallen for someone else who’s just gonna break his heart?

#howdy partners we’re getting depressing in this chilli’s tonight #s4 tom definitely has those thoughts of losing greg and being scared and hating himself for it #i just know he’s gonna be terrified of what’s gonna happen next #he pushed shiv down the stairs and brought greg with him but what if greg doesn’t want him after that? what if tom loses him for good? #idk just things that have been on my mind for months #no but for real i love tom and his love life #because he just had to go fall in love with two different roys imao #and he’s just constantly breaking his own heart #like obviously i believe tomgreg is requited but i like to hurt myself by thinking about it like tom and him believing it isn’t #like i said before i’m still unsure if tom even realises his feelings for greg but let’s just pretend for this post he does #just using tom as my own personal voodoo doll and sticking pins in his heart for fun x