#like fml its not even 11am yet and im already here

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#. #i spent all day yesterday laying in bed in the dark #nobody calls nobody texts #everyone has lives #even today i tried calling folks and i get nothing #i wish holidays were only when i had something to do with someone #like fml its not even 11am yet and im already here #and i barely even want to post this because oh no my mutuals are gonna see it #this post should be one big censor bar #im just so fucking ****** all the time #and i sound like a desperate idiot talking to a void #and it isnt anyones fault and im not mad at anyone #i just wish i had more friends #hey google how do i tell my friends im lonely as shit without sounding like a desperate piece of shit #i would ignore me too #i become the very thing i get annoyed by and i hate venting i fucking hate it so much but god #i hope praying still works for me #vent #mutuals dont read this im just posting it 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i wish someone in my life that's around me gave a shit without ulterior motives and showed it #and i feel like this almost every day #i hope 2024 ...