#life is a fucking farce and i'm being forced to star in it

[jordblod]

needing lots of alone time to recover (but also geniunely enjoying hanging out by yourself) vs having a vast history of isolating urself as a form of self-destruction is like. the final boss of irony. slapstick from hell. the graceful angel of mercy and the vicious demon of doom on ur shoulders have the exact same shape and there u are with ur absolute fucked sense of perception like hmmm so will this alone time save me or make me worse than ever. there's no way to know? oh ok cheers to that and then u chug down the big jug labeled ANTIDOTE knowing full well it might be gasoline and hope for the best

#life is a fucking farce and i'm being forced to star in it #i am in full dramatic mode and fully aware of it but i can't be arsed. also this makes zero sense but if u know u know i guess #i say shit #personal #mental health issues