#lest I rip myself to shreds over every flaw

[foolishnpd]

not to be weird bc I hate talking about my body but oh my god I love nighttime so much because I can just walk around shirtless and admire myself in the mirror for an absurd amount of time, like I am literally built exactly like those ancient statues and paintings of goddesses, I am the peak human forme, I am so shaped it's incredible, I am a divine work of art

#lilyroaring #npd safe #and that's how I end up looking at myself in the mirror for over ten minutes straight on a good day #never forget the horrors of those self hatred days where I have to avoid mirrors entirely #lest I rip myself to shreds over every flaw #but today at least #I am pretty and perfect #and what a shame it is that I dress so modestly #I feel like I'm depriving the world of beauty sometimes #oh well. I am only for myself after all #I'm really hoping I get some muscle definition from all that working out eventually #I want to look as strong and powerful as I am beautiful yk #I've always hated how weak I was my entire childhood #I always had to embrace being pathetic and laugh about it to be humble in gym class and such #but wouldn't it be so satisfying to be truly strong for once? #something to be envied rather than pitied?