#kels talks healthcare

[shameboree]

there is no diagnosis or amt of pain that justifies mistreating healthcare workers which i know is a radical take because nurses are just Mean Girls and always will Deserve It.

“im normally a nice person” see i am actually not believing you because if your frontline stress response is cruelty and trying to ruin peoples lives you might consider that you are a baseline piece of shit kinda person instead

#also every person ive known who described themselves as NICE has been one of the most vile ppl ive ever met in my life so consider that also #'im in a lot of pain right now so me being mean is how you know its REAL' buddy i had cancer and not once was i mean to anyone #not a single condition on this planet gives you license to mistreat others except maybe when youre just actively fucking dying ig #kels talks #kels talks healthcare #that probably needs to be its own tag at this point. anyway ppl are always such little cuntbabies to nurses smfh

[pansyfemme]

PLEASE talk about out your ocs . they are both so pretty

OK THANK U FOR LETTING ME LOL

Their names are Kidd (Left) and Noam (Right). This is the first drawing I ever did of them, they rlly weren't meant 2 be actual ocs lol.. I just wanted 2 design some punk dudes and ended up falling in love with them. They''re the main characters in the comic idea that lives in my head, called "Shoegaze" (after the genre of music, which if you've ever listened it, describes the vibes of the comic pretty well: sad, dreary, and dreamlike) (and of course the name also refers to the action of shoe gazing, something often done by anxious punks.. which this comic is abt lol..) and essentially its abt being gay, depressed and punk. So. Kidd is new to town. He got out of an abusive relationship the year previous, and hasn't dated anyone since. He's also recently discovered he's gay. He has a lot of struggle with his race (He's Tibetan, Indonesian, and Nepali, but has no real knowledge of his culture, as he's adopted.) but, I don't touch on that a lot bc im white and I don't think I could explain that well. He's a stealth trans man, and this is a big deal in the comic, because him staying stealth is something that is both very harmful and very liberating to him. He's a stick and poke tattoo artist, and he lives in a renovated van. He has some commitment issues, and often leaves town when he feels he's had enough. Noam, on the other hand, is very attached to his city. He moved there to attend college, and never left. He has significant identity struggles as a cis gay man who struggles a lot with body image. He's autistic, but also has significant undiagnosed mental health issues (probably a personality disorder.) Since childhood, he's had trouble fitting in, and went to special ed school for his entire childhood. He now works as a graphic designer at a healthcare company (this universe's planned parenthood, basically.) He has a close group of friends, including his two best friends: Mavis, his exboyfriend and current hookup buddy(who's actually non-binary but they don't know it yet), and Kel, a lesbian(?) who's also dating Kidd's boss, strawberrii. He also struggles a lot with mobility, having hypermobility, and his joints often causing him pain. His group of friends is usually very present in street protests, but because of his failing mobility, he's started to work as a street medic instead. This is where they meet, after Kidd gets injured, and Noam drags him to the ER, where they become very attached to each other. There's issues that come up along the way, specifically on their like, newness to the relationship. Noam's never dated a trans man, and Kidd's never dated anyone but cis lesbians. So, it's a struggle to understand identity, but essentially I love them and they're all I think abt lol..

more stuff abt them lol..

#also their city is like. based on my city (new haven CT) but its bigger.. closer to Boston sized #but with a similar arts scene to what I grew up with!

[meowmeow-motherfucker]

Let's Play...20ish questions!

I was tagged by @alleiradayne

1. Nicknames: Kels, Sister, Kitty, Pirate

2. Zodiac sign: Taurus ♉

3. Height: 5'

4. Hogwarts house: Slytherin

5. Last thing I Googled: emergency dentists in my town because one of my teeth broke and I'm in paaaaaaaain 😭😭

6. Favorite musicians: P!atD and Imagine Dragons are my top two at the moment

7. Song stuck in my head: Machine by Imagine Dragons

8. Following: 417

9. Followers: 47!

10. Do I get asks: very rarely, but I don't have a ton of followers, and I mostly reblog stuff, so I get it

11. Amount of sleep: I usually like to get about 7-8 hours of sleep, but on days I work my body decides that 5-6 is enough? 🤷

12. Lucky number: 13, because I enjoy being contrary

13. What am I wearing: t-shirt and hoodie with my college's logo and jeans and sneakers

14. Dream job: travel writer or SAH cat mom

15. Dream trip: k so this is a trip I dreamed up with an ex, but he royally fucked me up, so I'm determined to take this trip without his lame ass. It starts by flying from the States to Japan. I derp around for say...a week. Maybe two. Hop a boat to China. Repeat. Travel to Tibet. Repeat. Work odd jobs in exchange for food/lodging or money. Move on when I have enough money. Rinse and repeat across Asia and Europe and then fly home.

16. Favorite food: listen, I'm a slut for lots of things, including but not limited to: chocolate (specifically kitkats), potatoes, pasta, tacos and/or chimichangas

17. Instruments: I played the flute horribly for a couple months, then switched to the violin for 2-3 years. Now the only instruments I play are my vocal cords.

18. Languages: English, specializing in fatalist humor and sarcasm, and some German

19. Favorite song: This changes depending on what I'm into at the moment, but if I had to pick off the top of my head it would be Sweater Weather by The Neighborhood

20. Random fact: despite getting an art degree in college, I currently work in healthcare

21. Aesthetic: I talk tough, but deep down I'm all about comfort and pretty colors. I'm a very tactile person, so all my clothes are fabrics I enjoy the feel of, I have 7 pillows on my bed, I keep blankets everywhere for maximum snuggle potential, and I hoard colorful and shiny objects.

Tagging: @siren-kitten-his @wayward-winchester67 @supernatural-jackles @becaamm @luci-in-trenchcoats @kittenofdoomage @justjensenanddean @purpleskiesandcherrypies @impala-dreamer

So besides @siren-kitten-his I don't really know anyone I tagged, but I think you're all awesome and I'd like to get to know you better. I'm probably forgetting people and that stresses me out, but just know I love all my followers and the awesome people I follow ❤️

[becauseeiloveyou]

This post came three months late?? haha but better now than ever, I found this really necessary for me to round up my 2016 and hopefully continue my 2017 in a more positive light. A couple of significant events that marked the year so special:

1. First working experience, first time earning income and realizing that money really doesn't come that easily. Saw a side of the working world that I really dread and hopefully also serves as a reminder that this is not the kind of employer/employee I'll ever want to be. Hmm, I guess I gained some knowledge about working in the healthcare industry here and there too. To be super honest, I had more downs and ups here.

2. Started swimming again, started being active again. hahaha fml pretty much didn't sustain though I need to be a fitter girl ):

3. HK with houGANG and first overseas experience without the accompaniment of adults. We had our trip ups and downs but mostly ups lah HAHAHA I miss being with houGANG I miss the shit we can always talk about when we are together ): Another trip soon please T_T 

4. Rekindled my friendship with rachsim hahaha, wa this took such a long time but no regrets lah. Still amused by how we could be so comfortable with each other again within minutes but aiya I guess we know the other too well HAHA

5. medsku- I don't ever regret this decision, knowing I could have had excelled better in another field. I still struggle in here, I’m still groping my way around but I know there are people I can count on and support I can receive as long as I keep an open mind. Sometimes I get really negative about my abilities and I can't seem to find my strengths anymore, or rather see how my strengths can fit into what I'm doing. Still I'm determined to make 5 years of learning amazing. I want to know myself better, be a better thinker, better friend, someone people can count on yet respect.

6. NHS, Counsellor choice- hahah the first two best choices I made in M1, can never be more grateful for kel as a counsellor, can never be more grateful that I joined nhs, logs particularly, because this is where I found friends, seniors I could keep and count on for a long time. Recently, I feel my zest for the project decreasing, but this is something I really need to avoid. This is what I chose, what I committed to and theres no reason why I should give up on it. 

7. Sa’Bai- wa hahahah this was truly a leap of faith and possibly the best decision I made in 2016. perhaps I sacrificed a little of everything else because of sabai- time with friends, my grades, idk what else but my heart still remains full every time I think of sabai. And because of this, I'm going to motivate myself to first be a better medical student. I will remain humble, remember my goals for the future and keep striving to provide better quality work. also selfish wish for all 15 of us to remain this close for a long time to come hehe.

8. wondered where to fit you into this, I guess here it comes. In 6 months I found myself falling so deep into something I would have never expected myself to go through at the start of uni. It was really damn painful and I am still tremendously scarred by everything that has happened, my heart is still numb from every emotion that I succumbed to, let myself feel so strongly for. I could never blame you for everything you did and I shouldered all the burden myself. it got so tiring I eventually decided enough was enough, but by then the harm was already evident and visible. You made me realize what a fool I can be, and the extent I could stretch myself for someone I love and treasure. I still don't know why you did what you did to me, I think it wasn't very fair I had to experience all I went through. till today I still don't know why shitty things keep hitting and hitting and hitting me, but I know I'm learning to love myself better, I'm learning to treat myself better and I'm learning to take things more easily. 

In 2017 I really just want to be more at peace with myself, I want to let things go the way it should be. I'm taking a break fighting for things I want in my life, I'll be less demanding this year. It’s true the year hasn't gone well at all, but I'm gonna discard this negativity from today on, because I believe things will get better. 

#lifejournal

[shameboree]

Sheesh even If a lot of “mean girls” become nurses that doesn’t mean all or even most nurses are “mean girls” those doing the projection are in fact the aggressors here they are the ones being mean first some of these people can’t let other people Just do there jobs How ungrateful do u have to be to shit on someone TAKING CARENOF YOU anyway sorry you have to go through that

everyones always TRIPPING and GAGGING and DESPERATE to defend servers spittin in ppls food but if i tell someones grandma to eat piss cakes then IM the devil himself for makin an 800 year old gag??!?!? where is the justice

#ive never lost my temper at a pt/family member and likely never will but its so funny knowing how vilified id be if i DID #begging other members of the healthcare team to stop beating the messenger.. im gonna start putting everyone in a GC together on epic #fight it OUT i dont have TIME to play telephone btwn gen surg and gen med and cardio and rt!! grandpa is BEATING my ass!! #kels talks #anyway we can use emoji reactions in the EPIC secure chat now and im fucking dying to use the cry face at a doc