#just doing some character study for as yet untitled football au

[formulaonedirection]

Max on racing: “I don’t know, I definitely want to try and get back into it. It’s a tough thing to get the ball rolling again, if you really know motorsports well. It’s a brutal world. But yeah, I definitely want to do that again because as time goes on I’m definitely missing it more, like for sure. Like the biggest thing adjusting from the racing was having that purpose. Because it was the only thing I ever knew what to do, you know. Like since I was 9 years old, I was racing every month and I felt like that was my purpose in life you know, to race. That was what I did. So like when I stopped it was like a big shock to the system. Okay, I was really happy to not race because it was a really tough year and I was just like “I need to get out of this space for a bit” but now I miss it again.”

#don't mind me i'm just talking to myself but watch the video! #I've literally been chewing on this video for the past week #like it was sad the first time i watched this time but i just thought about it again last week and tracked it down #and it made me sad AGAIN #just thinking about losing that ONE thing you've been doing for decades and you're still young you know you're 21 #but it feels like you've already failed #and then you're 22 and then you're 23 and you're still not racing but you still haven't really found your thing and it- it has to be a lot #and you're back home with your parents and it's lovely because your parents like you SO much and you like them too #and you keep telling yourself that leaving when you did was the best choice. it was the best and bravest thing you could do for yourself #and realistically you know this is true but that's not how insecurity and doubt work #what i'm saying is that I think my boy is immensely brave for making that decision #and putting himself out there still knowing it might not work out #max is a realist but he's also a little bit of a romantic #anyway! #just doing some character study for as yet untitled football au #max fewtrell #*maxvid