#ive been trying to be like ''ohhggh well maybe for my sisters sakes i'll try to maintain a bit of a relationship'' but nah not anymore

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i know its the jewish bias but tbh i genuinely fucking hate xmas time so much

#kage rattles #i have an interfaith family & my dad/stepmom r xtian and so xmas is always a fucking Thing and this yr its particularly infuriating #my stepmoms always fucking insufferable but xmas eve & xmas is NO exception. these r the days shes the absolute worst #between the fact that shes acting like everythings normal and she didnt fuckin throw me out #and the fact shes being. Her. i just want this shit over with i want to go HOME #the most guaranteed way to get me to be mad at you is to get mad at me for doing something that You Are Also Doing. #it happens SO fucking often i am SO tired of people doing this shit and its sometimes with people i otherwise like too which is the WORST #bc i dont WANT to be mad at them when it happens but i fucking AM #my stepmom does this fucking Thing where she WONT listen to me and then get mad because shes not listening and then fucking get mad at ME #and claim that IM not listening #it makes me so Fucking mad. i cannot wait for the day i can cut her off and never see her again #ive been trying to be like ''ohhggh well maybe for my sisters sakes i'll try to maintain a bit of a relationship'' but nah not anymore #not after throwing me out like she did #im so fucking angry #this time of year fucking sucks i fucking hate xmas and i hate my stepmother so much. i miss my real mom #and i want my REAL dad. my STEPdad. because hes actually my father i dont care. not biologically but hes a far better father to me tha #n mine ever was