#its mostly involuntary i have a very overactive imagination

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#i should really get into online dating again but i feel this deep sense of unease because they're all so appearance based #The App presents me with a man and asks is he attractive yes or no #and my answer is generally incoherent screaming because i never know the answer until i've known them for some time #do i even want a man or do i want a baby and a houseload of cash ugggggggggggggh #i fuckin need friends is what i need #like in general it gives me anxiety because i don't really want to reject men for superficial reasons #but my first instinct is to reject them no matter what #which is funny because whenever i meet someone in person #at least historically anyways i think the light has faded from my eyes #i start fantasizing about our fairy tale life together or whatever #its mostly involuntary i have a very overactive imagination