#itll be my birthday chapter. and ill want to hear birthday wishes.

[orcelito]

God, what even is my "reasons this hasn't been updated in 4 and a half months" list anymore hfkshdj

I think we're at: wrote a smut fic, got a new girlfriend, got into bg3, quit my job I had for 8 years, my dad fucking died, got Throat Bleeding Disease, got into crochet, started watching way too much anime, got into Stardew Valley again...

🤔🤔🤔🤔 things sure have been busy, huh?

#speculation nation #One of these 🎵 is not like the others 🎵 #well actually 2 of them are negative. but throat bleeding disease was just awful and sucky for like 2 weeks #ONE of these was a permanent and incredibly life changing event that left me traumatized in its abruptness! #im planning on expanding on it a little bit in my end notes. the above list is what im planning for my opening notes. #i know i dont owe anyone an explanation on why it's been so long. but. idk #i just wanna be upfront about it ykno? for people who may have been worried about me and all #also i kind of snapped at someone in the comments of the most recent chapter #after they just commented 'please update' & i was like 'my dad just fucking died so sorry if im not exactly quick rn' #& i feel a little bit bad for that lol. i mean their comment Was inconsiderate. but i doubt they meant anything bad by it. #but yea idk ITNL has just happened to be spanning the hardest year of my life. #from the end of may up until now. god i really hope the Year Of Death is over now. #and i hope this is the last abrupt hiatus due to an abrupt death/trauma in my life. #at 4 months it's the longest one. but that makes sense. given. ya kno. it's my dad. #itll be my birthday chapter. and ill want to hear birthday wishes. #but i guess i just wanna be. understood and heard. i want readers to know about my pain. #i wont go too in depth and all. but i dont want to keep it a secret. #my birthday chapter and my official 'my dad died lol' chapter. what a way to go.