#ita just funny to think about bc i remember lying and pretending thats what felt bc other people would say so

[jessiesjaded]

Honestly, when I think about it I've almost never had a crush on a fictional character, it's always two characters whose dynamic I'm obsessed with and people would assume I had a crush or whatever and half the time Id go along with the idea when I was with friends or whoever because that's what they would be feeling but I myself never like. Put myself into the scenario, it's distinctly just a love of a character dynamic.

#this isnt a bitchy thing toward anyone who does do that either btw #ita just funny to think about bc i remember lying and pretending thats what felt bc other people would say so #but i really didnt #same way id lie about having crushes on boys with my pals as a kid but i just. never actually did and was frequently confused by the notion #but i also didnt want to get left out sk id be like omg yeah josh is soooooooo cool or whatever uh huh #like the 'bella had no personality so girls could self insert with edward' shit made me laugh bc NUH #12 yr old me never ever put myself with edward it was all about the B and E dynamic #and with Logan and Veronica I never ever thought of either of them or xena and gabbie like that #bc i like them /together/ nothing to do with me #its just funny how long i lied about it