#it just sucks knowing its an uphill battle and i'll be killing my channel for months

[dovoodles]

ngl i probably would make another rtc animatic if I didn't live with the knowledge that it would only further entitle viewers to thinking they're owed more videos suited for their interests and will proceed to ignore basically anything else I make thus leaving me in a self defeating cycle where I can either cater and make content I despise or work for hours on videos that get like 300 views max.

#txt #not looking for pity because this is very much a hell of my own creation #and I'm aware that I should be putting more work into my original content to *make* people invested #it just sucks knowing its an uphill battle and i'll be killing my channel for months #when there is very much the instant gratification of posting fanart and getting views instantly #even though I understand these people do not care about me as a person #or particularly think about the labor I put into any content I make #thus thinking theres no problem in feeling upset that I didnt finish drawing for their favorite musical tm #as if it was not art specifically done in such a shitty part of my life that i had no motivation to do anything but draw for hours on end #will delete later just in my feels about recent comments ive been getting