#it didn't happen to me recently but I just saw somebody saying their birthday is next week and a bunch of people in the comments were like

[liebelesbe]

The most german thing about me is that I feel SO insulted when somebody wishes me a "happy early birthday". like. how dare you. how DARE you!!!

#it didn't happen to me recently but I just saw somebody saying their birthday is next week and a bunch of people in the comments were like #'happy early birthday' and I felt so insulted for them lol. even tho they thanked everyone. I was still like '>:( why would you be so rude' #doddie redet #german stuff

[majaloveschris]

Answering to that anon:

Today has been crazy.

So we started off with Alba's sister. Yeah, I also received an ask with this information on Friday, April 7th.

I didn't post this ask because, after talking to a few friends of mine here, we decided it's probably not true. Ana only has 457 followers, so I don't think she lets random people follow her, but even if she does or did in the past, how on earth would she know who that one person was from the 457 people who've sent her story to a Tumblr page? And Ana wouldn't have gotten a notification of the screenshot. Even if there was a story, how would we know if it was taken recently? This wouldn't be the first time her side uses older pictures.

This is specifically a thing we can't check for ourselves because I personally don't know anybody who follows Ana, and I doubt that if any of us made a request to follow her, she would accept it. I don't really believe these types of things, especially when people don't provide us with proof.

Then we continued with Alba following a person who was at Jamie's birthday party and is followed by Chris, Scott, and Steve, and she follow them too. What a surprise! Not some random person who was also at the party, but a person who has a public account and has some type of connection to Chris and his family. She was clearly trolling.

I also saw people talking about Chris being at Jamie's party. I don't think they are that close or that he would fly to LA because of this party, especially around Easter. I think after Comic Con and a few interviews for Ghosted, he just wants to spend some time with his family.

And also, this man is clearly not Chris.

And then we had this amazing sighting of Chris and Alba having dinner with ScarJo, Colin, and Robert P.

If this was the sighting she was talking about in her podcast, it's ridiculous. I get that Chris and Scarlett have known each other for decades, and he also "knows" Robert, but it's still a strange couple of people for me. I would rather believe they had dinner with RDJ or Mackie, for example, but I guess Scarlett and Colin were a safe choice, just as Robert P.

We are also talking about a private room, so how on earth did this anon see everyone who was in there? Or did they see them going in or going out? Why didn't you take a picture of them then? Or was she the only one who saw them there? Nobody else? Or nobody live tweeted about this? We are talking about LA, and I'm pretty sure if this anon recognized them, somebody else also did. And the date is also missing. When did this dinner happen? Why wasn't a date included? 

I can't believe anything DM says. She lost all of her credibility a long time ago.

#majaloveschris #chris and alba pr #chris la #jamie’s bp #cevans-love

[spontaneouskoopalingblog]

Hey ludwig, what was it like when you first met lemmy and the rest of your siblings?

Ludwig: "Oh, good question!! Since I was the first child Bowser adopted, I was in charge of showing the new "recruits" around the castle, and generally showing them what their future lives as a son of Bowser would be like!"

"Roy was the first. Originally, I was just supposed to be like his mentor, but after a while, being the only two kids at the time, we formed a really close bond and were not only brothers, but best friends! He was so happy and excited to be here... He had sudden outbursts of anger from time to time, but for the most part, was a cheerful and loving young boy. Of course, things have changed in recent times..."

"Iggy was interesting... It was IMPOSSIBLE to communicate with him. I think Morton has said it before, but Iggy's mom was deaf and never spoke to him, nor did she teach him sign language of any kind. That was also before we figured out he needs glasses, so he was practically blind... Nowadays he knows over fifty languages, but back then, he didn't understand a word we said to him. And he didn't say a word to us for several years. Iggy was like... A puppy. He followed us around, but never actually did or said anything."

"Wendy and Morton were adopted as toddlers. Wendy was super wild and hyper and rambunctious and just... Couldn't sit still. Ever. I honestly struggled to watch over her... Luckily, she and Roy kinda clicked. She clung to him for a while. Wherever he went, she was there with him. Even now, they're really close! When I first saw Wendy, I didn't have any opinions about her. But I already knew she'd be trouble... Really, if anything Roy was her mentor. Not me. And it shows-"

"Morton, even as such a young kid was incredibly shy and anxious... He had a bad habit of hiding or curling up in a ball whenever someone wanted to talk to him. I couldn't really "mentor" him if he wouldn't let me speak... After a while, he became somewhat attached to Iggy. I guess he liked that Iggy was always calm and never spoke. Iggy and Morton spent a ton of time together, doing... Whatever, ignoring everybody else, and are still like that, to this day!"

"We adopted Larry as an egg, so my job was to just babysit the egg. At first, I was annoyed... I wanted an older person that I could actually talk to, like Roy! I didn't want to sit around all day with some dumb egg! But... After some time, I felt close to the egg. I was seriously worried something would happen to it... I spend every single minute watching and guarding it with my life! Until one day, it hatched! Since Larry was a new born, it was no longer my responsibility to watch him. Actual adults took care of him for the first four years, and I didn't see him much. Then, the day of his 4th birthday, he was allowed to be with the rest of us kids! And I was so fucking excited... Nobody really cared about him, but I was glued to him!! To this day, I still treat him like my own kid."

"Lemmy was the last child to be adopted, right around when Larry turned five. Lemmy was about ten years old at that time? But because of how his breed ages, he was more like... A two year old. I fell in love the second I saw him... Such a cute little baby!! I swore, just like the egg, I would never allow anything to hurt him!! I had an obsession with the little fluff ball... Today, I see him and Larry like my own children, kind of."

"Oh yeah, and Jr... He wasn't adopted. As soon as he was born, he lived with us, being cared for by proper adults like Larry was. Oh yeah--Born. He didn't come from an egg. Humans don't lay eggs. Anywho... When he was five, we were allowed to supervise him instead of the guards. I still remember it... He, like Roy, was so cheerful and full of light. Always so happy... And then... Somebody found out about him being half-human. They went after him, and... I killed the person. Right in front of him. Nowadays, we do this all the time, but... The first time he saw it, he was traumatized. I watched the child-like innocence leave his eyes... He became cold and neglectful of others as a way to cope... And now, he's the little cynic you know him as today who has long accepted the cruel reality of his life..."

[nightcall99]

Dreams from 2.11.23

Dream 1: CA posted a link to a video about women on their periods. It was a podcast about it.

Dream 2: We were all meeting up at CA's house in Italy. At the time, I was 'nearby' in an Asian country and so the flight was only a few hours. I knew these people. I can't make out anybody's faces but there was this feeling like some people were here and others were not. We were all just chilling at her house since she wasn't at home yet, probably at work or something, but her husband was there looking after us. So we just waited. I didn't really talk to anyone, I mostly kept to myself. Then she got home and greeted everybody. It felt weird, for obvious reasons. In that moment I thought, didn't the 25th say we would never meet each other? And now this is happening. What the hell? It felt like this should be impossible.

Then the group of us participated in a ceremony on the lawn of the backyard. It was a strange kind of chaos, everybody was dancing around crazily but at the same time it made sense. It suddenly started to rain but we didn't stop, it seemed to only add to the significance of what we were doing, like it was supposed to happen. Then CA and I grabbed on to each other and we started spinning around really fast in a circle. Our surroundings became a blur except for the rain drops falling from the sky. I don't know why we were doing it, but it felt like a 'normal' part of whatever it was we were doing. And then as fast as it had began, the ceremony was over.

Then we hung out sitting on couches in the living room. Somebody brought out a cake and everyone starting singing the happy birthday song in unison. Then I suddenly realised today was my birthday and somehow everyone had found out. All eyes were on me and I hated it. I hate attention. For awhile, I just frowned at everyone's smiling faces. Why did I have to go through the emotions of being happy about this? I didn't ask for it. I decided to save face and play my role of acting excited and grateful that these people were doing something nice for me. It was too late though, they had all seen me go through these emotions, plain as day on my face. I felt the emotional rift deepen. Right after, I tried to leave. I felt really uncomfortable and alone. I tried to sneak out the back door while everyone was talking, hoping they wouldn't notice my absence.

I decided not to actually leave and instead found myself in another room in the house. I think this room had just been recently renovated since I could see a fresh coat of paint and exposed door-hinges. There was a general sense of 'unfinished'. In this room, there were little sleeping puppies scattered everywhere. Probably a dozen of them. They were absolutely adorable and they had captured my attention entirely. I petted them and just watched them in their peaceful stillness. Some of the puppies were really young, too young in fact, to be away from their mothers. I saw that one of the puppies sleeping in it's bed had a little make-shift paper chart beside it. There were codes scratched on it, indicating what needed to be done next to ensure the puppy was cared for properly, presumably things like feeding it, changing it etc. I didn't see any mother dog around.

I was grateful for the short flight home, since I was situated only a few hours away in that Asian country. I felt glad knowing I could come back easily if need be.

[strongismyvibe]

There are many good people in my life that I am so grateful for. One of them is my very good friend Jessica. She and I are not high school besties, we didn't meet in college...actually, our friendship happened randomly.

We met in 2018.

At the time, I was a student at FIU working towards my Masters in Disaster Management. It was one of the best experiences of my life and I would recommend anyone interested in Disasters to pursue a degree in it.

Back to Jessica...

I was attending a "cohort dinner" that a few of the cohort members from the Disaster Academy at FIU put together last minute. A colleague of mine from the cohort invited me. I honestly didn't really care to go (going out with the cohort after school hours wasn't my scene in particular. I'm not into bar hopping unless I'm celebrating somebody's birthday), but my childhood friend Diana had recently suffered a horrible divorce and I wanted her to get out of her house and see something different.

We all met at the Chili's restaurant by Dadeland Mall (That location is indefinitely closed) around 9 PM and it was about 10 of us who showed up (mostly people I hadn't met or interacted with before). About half an hour after we all sat, Pedro and Jessica, walked into the restaurant and joined us.

I had never met either of them and from the way that they walked in, I could've sworn they were a couple.

Jessica sat next to me and Pedro sat adjacent to her in the same table. I don't remember who started speaking first but I spent the entire night speaking to both Pedro and Jessica. They were so easy to talk to and they had so much knowledge to share about the disaster field. I was soaking in everything I was learning from them and their experiences.

I felt terrible about Diana because I left her hanging most of the night with the rest of the members in the table. But, John (my colleague) made sure she was taken care of properly at the table. He was such a gentleman with her.

After that dinner, Pedro left to Nicaragua with his wife (I found out later on the Jessica was not Pedro's wife/girlfriend) and it wasn't until months later, at an event that I went to for the American Red Cross that I saw Jessica again.

It was in that moment, that Jessica and I connected. It was like we were meant to be friends. We didn't just talk about disasters, we spoke about anything that came to our minds. We were super compatible and we had so many similar experiences that we kept saying "OMG!" every time we were able to relate with a story. I don't know how to describe what happened that day but it was like I trusted her from that moment on and to this day she remains like a sister to me.

These photos though, have nothing to do with Jessica ironically enough. As one of my rocks, Jessica has seen the good, the bad and the ugly. She knows what triggers me, what I am passionate about and what to push me to talk about. She is unlike any friend I've ever had.

She has helped me get through two very emotional and mentally difficult moments in my life and she knows that the best way to keep me looking forward is by doing what I love most. Helping people.

I owe her alot.

#endhunger #relief #disaster #frienship

[cannyouuhearmenoww]

I Will Choose You Every Day

Making choices has never been my strong suit

Past events, friends, fights, attitudes, grades, weight can all testify to that

The problem is I'm always making choices for someone else

I'm always considering how what I do will effect those around me

And often I'm striving to please the wrong people

In recent years I've been better at looking out for me and my health, mentally and physically

When making changes one of two things can happen, either you fall right back into old habits or you tip the scale too far in the other direction

I fell back into the habit of being with someone who I needed to take care of

Then when I decided to let go and move on I jumped off the deep end of the other extreme

I became selfish

And I'm sorry you had to meet me that way

But loving you has brought me back to balance

For the first time I'm in love and being loved back by someone who can take care of themselves

As much as we joke and kid you could never get by without me, in reality we both know you'd thrive no matter what

And it's the most liberating feeling in the world to know you'd be fine without me but you still choose to be with me

I don't feel guilty for taking care of myself anymore because you support me unconditionally and you're not afraid to tell me if I've gone too far

You've shown me more patience than anyone else in your life and that's how I know loving me is not a fleeting romance for you

It's something real that you choose to work at every day

If I could go back and change the things I've said and done out of selfishness I would

I wouldn't have made you hear about him, I would've trashed all those pictures, I would have told my friends about you, I would have declared my love for you proudly, I would have heard you out instead of saying no just to say no

I would've never made you doubt this was as real for me as it is for you

I can't change the past but I can tell you the truth

The truth I thought would make me vulnerable, needy, and pathetic

The truth you've never been afraid to share with me

I'm choosing to share it with you now

Bryan, I started falling in love with you from our first encounter

(Well actually even before that)

From the minute I saw you enter orientation I thought you were so handsome

You had a smile that lit up the whole room

And a laugh that was absolutely intoxicating to hear

I don't know if you even realize it, but you have a magnetism about you that draws people in with your charm and charisma and I felt it right away

You were the first non administrator to greet me in the lunchroom

You came right up without any hesitation

Knowing you as well as I know you now I know you'll laugh when I tell you how nervous you made me

I tried to keep a cool and calm composer but I'm sure my blushed face and shaky words were a dead give away

I wanted to take your invitation, I really did, but I couldn't get up the courage to

I was so scared I'd go with you and I'd make a bad first impression on you and everyone else because I was so shy and nervous

So I went with the safe bet and stuck with the people who were just as scared and nervous as I was

It was the cowardly thing to do and I beat myself up over it for weeks after that

But you gave me hope I hadn't completely messed up because in the computer lab you included me in conversation and even offered a tour for the new people

I admired (and envied) your confidence and for the first time in that new and scary place I felt safe and it was with you

Our following encounters were meaningless in the most meaningful ways

You would help out in our class to do puzzles, projects, and games and bring excitement to otherwise monotonous days

I found myself eagerly looking towards the door at the sound of the handle turning hoping it would be you

And feeling disappointment in the pit of my stomach when I didn't see your face

Based on our personalities it is no surprise you were the first one to suggest activities that involved spending more time together like going to pick up lunch

When you asked if I'd be interested in dressing up together for Halloween you made me feel like somebody for the first time in a while

I felt special, you had friends who wanted you to dress up with them and of all those people you wanted to do something with me

A girl you barely knew (who often gave you a lot of attitude because she didn't know how to flirt with you to save her life)

For the first time since I had started that job 2 months earlier I was excited on my way in that morning

I knew it was going to be a fun day, and not because of any activities, but because I knew I had a reason to spend more time with you

I had no idea how hard that day was going to be for you

I knew you received failing test results the night before but it was not until later on that I would find out the magnitude of what that truly meant to you

I was impressed by how you kept a brave face on through everyone asking and offering condolences and suggesting you'd have better luck next time

I remember wanting to say more about it but knowing it wasn't my place

When you asked me to go out with you after work I don't think I could have said yes fast enough

Which was surprising to me because normally the thought of going out alone with someone I barely knew would leave me riddled with anxiety

But instead I found myself smiling at the thought of having all of your attention on me

Sitting there at the bar with you I knew that was it for me

The conversation flowed so naturally, my face hurt from laughing and smiling so much

Everything about it felt natural; confiding in you, sitting close to you, letting time pass with you

On the night after your birthday, a night that was supposed to be celebrating you, you chose to take me out for drinks and then to the haunted house I wanted to go to so bad

When we arrived I was admittedly more scared than I thought I would be but being with you kept me calm

I trusted you so much even as acquaintances

Here I was at a haunted house, with a guy I barely knew (but was very interested in), dreading going home to a boyfriend who loved me but even at our best never made me feel this alive

The chemistry I felt when I grabbed your arm was undeniable, I didn't want to let go but I knew I had to

I hated saying goodbye to you that night

I hated the uncertainty of what that night meant to you

I was left pleasantly surprised when you messaged me on Instagram that night (we still hadn't even exchanged numbers yet)

I remember my face lighting up when I get your message and being so excited to tell my family about the time I had spent with you

And they called it right away, they could tell my heart was beating for you a mile a minute, and they feared what my next choice would be

Just 2 nights later we went out again, this time you wanted to introduce me to your best friend

As a girl, meeting a guy's female best friend, is probably one of the most nerve racking experiences because girls can be brutal

But once again you proved I was safe with you and you never left my side the whole evening

We were at a table with a group of other people in an overcrowded bar and yet somehow it felt like we were the only 2 people in the world

From there came the nonstop messages, the never ending conversation

I would struggle to stay awake at night to talk to you and wake up excited to see what message I would have waiting for me in the morning

I was absolutely addicted to conversing with you, we could talk about anything

TV, movies, music, friends, family, school, philosophies, anything

You were my best friend

Weekends became the hardest part, during the week work was an excuse to see you and get together after but I wanted reasons for to see you more

I remember buying our Silverstein convert tickets and counting down days on my calendar to Brittany's engagement party

I remember it became harder with every passing day to keep lying to the people in my life about you

I chose to keep you a secret, I chose to try to continue my life's status quo and in doing that I chose to hurt you

I was selfish, I didn't want anything to ruin what we already had going and I didn't want to fully commit to what we were so clearly becoming

My poor choices caught up to me the first day I went to your house

On the drive to your house (from North Plainfield) I remember thinking about how much I had missed you over the past couple days and how much I would miss you for the week you'd be away

Now at this point I knew I liked you, and I wanted you, but I had no idea I was going to leave that night in love with you

You greeted me at the door with my favorite wine, you showed me to your room and put on your favorite movie

You told me why it was your favorite and I let your every word pull me closer and closer to you until we were merely inches away

You ordered us food, we did our normal amount of bantering and laughing and I knew I could do this with you every day for the rest of my life

You took me out for dessert and showed me all the places in Montclair you'd like to take me one day

We saa at the bar with question cards in hand, making light of the cheesy blind date game on the counter

As questions passed our answers became more involved and you said something I'll never forget

We were talking about why you went into physical therapy, you told me stories of how you've seen physical therapy change people's lives

You said "all I want to do is make a difference, I want to help people in any way I can, so I chose a career that would allow me to help people physically and mentally"

Those words stood out to me because that's all I had ever wanted since I got into psychology and nutrition and fitness

I wanted to help people feel as good as they can, and if I can have a positive influence on even one person in my life I will have succeeded in that goal

Having the same hopes, goals, values, and dreams as someone is rare

I knew you were something special, you could never be just a friend

When we got back to your house I could have chosen to go home

You could have chosen to ask me to leave

But instead to invited me in and I said yes

We repositioned ourselves on your bed but this time I couldn't bear to waste anymore time away from you

I took a chance you felt the same way and would be okay with my resting my head on your shoulder

I felt discouraged when you didn't immediately wrap me up in your arms, but I knew you were being respectful of my situation

Eventually I wore you down and for the first time we laid together, body to body, breathing in unison

You were excited to tell me about your favorite show and I was excited to see you so happy

It took almost 2 hours but you finally got up the courage to tilt my chin up towards you and bring our lips together

I felt catatonic shock, like there was an electric charge running through my veins

I felt all the hair on my body stand up and tensed up muscles begin to melt and relax

I wanted to keep going but I chose to stop because that moment validated everything I felt towards you was real

I drove home that night with my head spinning determined to use your time away to as a chance to clear my head

All my thoughts revolved around you, and even after our conversation about how you felt towards me, I once again made the cowardly decision to put off making a choice between you and him

I started cluing in my friends and family about what had happened and they were not happy with me

I had once again made a choice that disappointed everyone so I decided in that moment to be selfish

I kept doing what I was doing because it was making me happy without considering what I was doing to you

When you got back I knew things were different between us

You took me to dinner and museum in the city, by an standards a romantic date, and I was cold and distant

I felt guilty over my difficulty to make a choice

But you never faultered, you stayed positive, and continued to work to win me over

Then came the engagement party, an event I had so been looking forward to since you had invited me

I got my hair done the way you suggested and agonized over what to wear to impress you

As the alcohol continued to flow we got more and more comfortable putting our hands on one another and I was overly excited to go home with you

You held my hand for the first time in the car and once we got in bed you grabbed my face, with more force than before

You kissed me without stopping

I kissed you back and in that moment I had never wanted someone so bad in my life

But even with my head clouded with desire the little voice of guilt returned and I knew I couldn't go through with it, not like this

I made the choice to say no and I knew that made you feel unwanted and I'm sorry

I knew I would not be able to say no forever, not even for a week

The following week you planned a special date for us, because once again you were not ready to give up on me

You took me to medeveal times, another place I wanted to go, and showed me a real date could be like with someone you click with

I knew that would be our night

I knew this time if you made a move I wouldn't say no

I knew you'd make a move

I felt the same electric charge of desire and excitement as the first time we kissed

With you body pressed against mine I knew you had been lusting over the thought of this encounter

You made me feel pleasure I had never felt before and with our bodies together as one for the first time I fell deeper in love with you

I didn't want that night to end, I didn't want to return to my reality of still having to choose

My choice was clear but I was still so scared to take the jump with you

I knew as time passed I had to act soon or I'd lose you forever

With that thought in my head I officially chose you the day I said goodbye to him

I said I wanted time to myself but that was a lie, I wanted you, but I didn't want you to doubt my feelings

I didn't want to scare you away with the notion that you were only a rebound

I wanted you, I chose you, I was committed to making it work with you

I think we were both in a state of euphoria when we were finally free to be together

I spent every night with you over winter break

But reality hit us as hard as my back hit the mountain on our snowboarding trip

I couldn't put a label on us because I was scared of what people would think and I was choosing to please them over you

I was still talking to you as only a friend when you deserved my respect as a partner

I made a lot of my mistakes that first month that I wish I could take back

Happiness was finally back in our lives when we chose our special day and that high carried us to Valentine's day

I took you for granted that day and I'm sorry

Even though we smiled through most of the evening I'll never forget the fight that ensued upon arriving home

For the first time I was scared of really losing and there was nothing I could say because all your complaints were true

I wasn't treating how I'd treated others and you deserved better because you were the best thing that had ever happened to me

I promised to be better but the lingering resentment only led to more fights

There was one week in March I was convinced that would be it

You were upset with how I ignored your friends in the halls, shared secrets that were meant to stay between us and made you question if I was truly in this with you

I was being selfish

That was a rock bottom for me

I knew I had to change

I knew everything you were telling me was for my own good, not for selfish motives

I know I'm not perfect now but I hope you see how far I've been trying to come for you

I hope you know I'm here for better and for worse

I hope you know any future involving you would make you happy

I'm done being selfish

I'm choosing you always

I know making these choices was what was best for us because this time spent with you since then has been the happiest of my life and I mean that sincerely

And all I could think of at the wedding cerey the other night was the vows I would write to you

I would vow to support you no matter what, with work, with your test, with you furthering your coaching and education, I'd be here for it

I would vow to always be loyal to you above everyone else because you are the most important person in my life

I would vow to be honest with you, no matter how hard that may be or how scared I may be to do so

I would vow to always be the best person I can be because you deserve no less, and even if I suck at taking criticism I'd do my best to hear you out always

I would vow to respect you always, I would give you space when you ask for it and always speak to you as my equal and never question your feelings

I would vow to love you, whether it be through words or actions

Most importantly I would vow to choose you, to wake up every day and never be afraid to let the world know that I am yours and you are mine because you have given me the courage I have always lacked

And even though marriage is a long way away, I vow these to you now

I love you more than anything Bryan

I choose you as I always have and I always will ❤️