#it becomes like. a gross concoction of internalized bigotry

[mars-ipan]

“unsatisfying endings can be good” and “i’m sick of every story i can relate to ending in tragedy” can and do coexist

#thinking abt finn’s new interest n what she’s told me abt it #n it’s sorta hit me like. why i was feeling the way i was abt the difference between the og story and the adaptation #and this is it #i love a good unsatisfying story. they hurt like hell but they stick with you #they might even teach you something if they’re done real interestingly #but often times they’re just cynical and depressing and it sucks #this is especially true bc so many mentally ill people gravitate to the unsatisfying ending #and it makes sense. like when you’re not doing well it’s hard to feel like it’s ever get better #you feel like it’s always gonna be like this and in the end you deserved it because you must have in order to go through this #and when that intersects with mental illness or queerness or blackness or anything like that #it becomes like. a gross concoction of internalized bigotry #and even these stories aren’t inherently negative! i think it’s a great coping mechanism actually- #place down all of your thoughts and deconstruct them through a story #but when Every Single Story involving people like you ends in ‘i never got happy’ or ‘i committed suicide’ or whatever #it’s just like…. you fucks are so damn cynical #and while it is okay to vent. can i get stories where people like me do get happy also. and they do recover #i think like essentially. #to say it shortly #having media with unsatisfying endings isn’t inherently bad. it can be really good actually #but when media about marginalized groups contains a disproportionately large amount of these stories #it’s just kinda. irritating and depressing