#it all sounds concerning but im stable i pwommy

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r u doing alright? how's your heart?

im doing fine! my heart is.... eeehhhhhh

i just got out of my psychiartist appointment. she perscribed me ONE MILLIGRAM of medicine because shes so worried about my heart 😭

my heart rate is notoriously fast- even when i'm asleep, its on the far end of the spectrum of "normal sleeping heart rate"

my blood pressure spikes sometimes, and when i bend down and get back up i have dizzy spells that get WAY worse in heat

i got an EKG done, a stress test, and a tilt table test (for POTS)

all came back normal!!!

i'm getting my EKG rechecked because my psych wants that to happen before she perscribes me anything, lest i like. die of Heart Explode

i got it explained to me by another doctor, that my blood vessels dont contract correctly? hence the dizziness. but im worried theres something more considering every single doctor i see is extremely concerned about my heart, so there has to be smth up with the pumper itself yk?

the funny thing is, i have a friend who works for a famous cardiologist. my man's on magazines n shit! and she said she could get me in to see him. id have to travel to new jersey but to be fair i kind of already had to do that to get all my SHIT THATS STILL UP THERE!!!

so i might do that just so i can get some answers on what the fuck is going on. also because since its a) medical and b) new joisey, my dad might pay for my plane ticket! fun!!

still reeling that i got one (1) milligram of medicine. this is a dose for children (no really, she told me so herself!)

she doesnt think i have aspd :P she thinks im autistic and adhd and have bpd. but maybe if she talked to me a bit more shed figure out why i think i have aspd! i have seen you twice and seen the therapist who diagnosed me like. a billion times

and then she took my blood pressure at the end of the session and it jumped WAY up!! so she took it a third time 😭 and then my heart rate was 96 bpm which hey! its a double digit i cannot complain!

#but dont worry i prommy i wont die of heart explode #it all sounds concerning but im stable i pwommy #wasks #i gotta go PEE in a CUP