#is this a trauma response? probably. but i am adept at the art of keeping things Hushed & Handled so no one even /knows/ to ask questions

[littlepetbee]

cannot relate to anyone who willingly tells authority figures things. or who just...volunteers information to them without being asked?? bitch if they want to know anything, they can come to me. this mouth stays closed unless it's forcibly pried tf open and even then the words are shoved through eight different filters before they come out, perfectly form-fitted to whichever Person With Power Over Me is fucking asking. be smart about it! grow up!

#personal #is this a trauma response? probably. but i am adept at the art of keeping things Hushed & Handled so no one even /knows/ to ask questions #which is probably called Deception lmao but hey it means i don't have to lie to get out of things bc there /are/ no things u feel me? #anyways. i have this lovely kind coworker with such an open heart that always wants to do the right thing #so she'll 'follow up' with clients abt situations and then they end up yelling at her or cussing her out #and i wanna be like babe. Babe. just bc you are kind and wonderful it doesn't mean the ppl we work for are too. #they view us like the dirt beneath their feet and they're gonna act accordingly so you gotta.......shut your mouth #'being responsible' is nothing.....let them come to /you/ #communication should be kept to a minimum and only consist of what they specifically asked for bc they have power and you don't #please. pleASE. #anyways. #one time i had a Situation at work that i needed to navigate with the best of my 'abused kid who learned to hide everything' skillz #and i'm just...going on my merry way slogging through 73 layers of shit and Angles and cooking up how to get the exact results i want #and the coworker with me at the time is watching me in a mixture of horror and awe like 'i feel like i'm witnessing the zodiac killer rn' #and i wasn't like 'hahaha no this is just years of childhood trauma :)' but it was a close thing #...oh i succeeded at the situation btw #of course. bc i'm a pro.