#is it obvious ive never been to a sleepover lol

[ruralbi]

okay so i did fuck my ex again :/ two nights in a row 😑

he was very nice and gentle the first night which i appreciated bc he had mightily pissed me off during the afternoon. i couldve been like actually with this behaviour you're not getting any but thankfully i am weak cause we had really good sex. i almost came untouched, which is an obsession of his to get me there. its literally never happened and I'm not sure its possible but he's really into the concept. it was really emotionally intense sex and it felt really good aaaaaand its a relapse for me. i am so fucking stupid for this man :/ he is so lame and here i am on a time loop. why :( also that first night we had sex twice, once in the evening which is the mind blowing sex i was talking abt above, bc we had a show loud in the background (devil in ohio lol). but we did it again during the night and it was really silent and i had to suck him off without making any noise cause he doesnt want my housemate hearing and i hate that :(

like its not like i want her to hear but come ON she's my best friend, ive heard her fuck countless times and i dont give a single shit, im sure she doesnt either. and he must know that she knows. in the first place : i told her. fuck this dude with his absolute secrecy shit, thats my friend im allowed to tell her things about my life. (she thinks the situation is very pathetic and judges my poor life decisions)

secondly even if i didnt tell her shes not stupid. she literally lives here, she knows there's just a double bed in my room, there's no heterosexual reason for him to sleep with me in my room rather than take the heterosexual couch. like what was i supposed to say to her? oh he sleeps here so often the couch is too uncomfortable? we're too lazy to get the guest mattress out so we're having a sleepover? of course she knows we're fucking.

so yeah completely silent blowjob in the middle of the night :/ which i dont like as much bc i cant do every move i want. however i am pretty proud of my skill level (practive makes perfect :/). at this point i think i could suck him off in a bathroom stall and you'd have to peek under the door to be able to tell what was happening. like theoretically that's a really hot idea but in practice i would never because i love being alive and unbeaten. also if i were to miraculously survive my gay dad would destroy me for bein a slut and a bad representative to the faggy queen community.

he proceeded to invite me to a dinner with his friends and family the night after. every time im like?? bro why. like oh we're not together i dont love you we're just good bros but also please come spend time with my family chosen and otherwise. like straight up showed up at MY grandma's place after i finished visiting her, with his grandma and his dad in the car like get in we're going to dinner with the bros. i spent a really nice evening with everyone, the hosting couple are having a baby and i love babies so i was really happy about it. i feel a bit bad sometimes tho in these types of situation with people who know me through him : like its really obvious that im deeply in love with him and they all look at me like :/ poor fancy and his lil gay heart, falling for a straight boy and nothing can ever happen between them.

meanwhile, we stayed over after dinner bc we dont have a car. its a huge house with five bedrooms. the host couple set me up in one and him in another cause they dont know and i felt like pure reheated shit like you REALLY arent gonna say anything when you know very well you wanna share the bed with me. like these are his best friends and they dont know we've been fucking for two years. feels bad man. i texted him like are you for real bro and he said come on get over here (his room). we slept there and he cuddled me the whole night, didnt ask for sex or anything just held my fucking hand. im like :/ bit gay bro. this bitch just wanted to platonically fall asleep with me in his arms cause we're such good friends. dont mistake me i loved it but just like the cognitive dissonance.

i did give him a completely silent morning blowjob, as if im gonna leave his morning wood unattended like some kind of monster.

i did bitch him out abt not telling his best friends like bro this always happens and they make us sleep in different rooms and i feel like shit sneaking around like you KNOW they love you and they're not homophobic, the girl is literally bi. why didnt you just tell her :( im not asking u to say we're gonna get married, just say we're fuck buddies which is supposed to be the truth. and he was like well u didnt say anything either. THE NERVE as if its me hiding it!!! i said im respecting your decision they're YOUR friends its not my place to out you!!! he tires me out really.

i think he still hasnt told them and i started this blog post in a light-hearted mood, haha how funny he still asked me to come sleep with him cause he wanted cuddles. but actually im getting depressed now. he really is keeping me on the dl for two fucking years AND A HALF NOW like i know people r homophobic but our friends one thoudand percent arent. im sad that he just doesnt love me at all :(

#my ex #rip me i wrote this out ages ago and didnt post it cause i was so sad abt the state of things

[miltalz]

For the BnHA questions: all of them?

oh fuck this is so many dude,, okay

~ B A S I C S ~

1: What part of the anime/manga piqued your interest? i started watching it a year ago actually and stopped after episode 4 for some reason... but i think what got me wanting to actually see where it was going was a scene of the sports festival i saw in gifs. specifically deku yelling at todoroki.

2: Did you think Midoriya would be a good protagonist in the first few chapters/episodes? i loved deku from the moment i saw him

3: How do you think Midoriya’s conflict with Bakugou will end? i actually have never thought about this but i feel like it’ll be both bittersweet and comforting for both of them, in a way

4: What was your first reaction to Bakugou’s treatment towards Midoriya? “whos this jackass and why is he so mean to my son ill kill him”

5: What do you think of All-Might as a hero? I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE IS THE BES T

6: Do you think that Midoriya deserved to get OFA? yes. absolutly.

7: Aside from Midoriya, which character in the series do you think has had the most character development? todoroki

8: Favorite unpopular character? there are really only 2 unpopular characters in bnha and neither of them are my favorites

9: Favorite overall character? BAKUGOU KATSUKI

10: Do you have any OC’s? Describe them! If you don’t, create one on the spot. yes i do her name is akarui fuurashu and her quirk allows her to flash bright lights from her fingers that temporally blind her enemies (and anyone looking at the flash). her hero name is Flashbang

~ S H I P S ~

Pink: What are your main/favorite ships? im a huge kacchako bakugou/uraraka stan, but coming in close second is tododeku. i also super otp kirishima/bakugou/uraraka and kirishima/deku/todoroki

Blue: Do you have any NOTPs? im not a fan of baku//deku or todo//momo at all.

Yellow: Favorite fanfiction about your OTP? Downplay It (Kacchako) and Prince & Prince (TodoDeku) both stole my heart and ruined my sleep schedule

Green: Any preferred rarepairs? kirishima/uraraka, uraraka/momo, shinsou/deku

Purple: Do you have any works centered around your OTP? ive drawn a lot of kacchako since getting into it, and im currently in the works of several kacchako/tododeku fics right now 

Orange: Fluff or Angst? why not both

Red: What do you like the most about your favorite ship? its the classic bad boy/good girl, “jerk” and “goody-two-shoes” trope that i eat up all the time, also their dynamic is so good i could talk about them for hours. also theyre just really cute together...

Turqoise: What do you hate about your favorite ship? how much hate it gets lol

Lavender: Does your ship get a lot of hate? If so, why? because it’s a “straight” ship, because people think bakugou is abusive and would be awful to her, just a lot of dumb bullshit

Grey: Realistically speaking, will your ship ever become canon? probably not since it’s pretty obvious uraraka is dekus love interest but i can fucking hope and dream all i want

~ T H E O R I E S ~

Pop: Do you think the “Dabi and Shouto are brothers” theory is true? i am so behind this theory ive screamed about this to all of my friends who would listen

Indie: Opinions on the Traitor Kaminari theory? the what

Punk: Opinions on the Traitor Kirishima theory? I HAVNT SEEN ANYTHING OF THIS BUT HOW DARE YOU SPEAK OF MY SON AS IF HES DONE SOMETHING WRONG KIRISHIMA EIJIROU IS A GOOD BOY AND I WOULD DIE FOR HIM

Rock: What do you think of the “The doctor from Midoriya’s childhood is affiliated with the League Of Villains” theory? (in reference to this post) HE WAHT?? HI I HAVNT CAUGHT UP WITH THE WHOLE MANGA YEt WHAT THE FUC

Jazz: What do you think will happen now that Eri has been saved? good but also i dont know who that is yet i havnt read the whole manga... i mean i know thats the little girl with the horn but???

~ S T U D E N T S ~

11: Dekusquad or Bakusquad? i cant decide because i love them both but i have more faves in the deku squad than i do in the bakusquad... BUT my ULTIMATE fave is the leader of the bakusquad... BUT...

12: Most underrated student? kendou!!!!!!

13: Dadmight or Dadzawa? dadmight

14: Whose quirk do you think is the most unique? shinsou’s

15: Aside from Midoriya, who do you think has the most potential to be #1 Hero? todoroki

16: Should Mineta be replaced by Shinsou in the hero class? i think shinsou should BE in the hero class but i don’t think he should take mineta’s spot, purly because i dont hate mineta. hes a 15 year old boy that looks like a grape calm down

17: Favorite student(s) outside of Class 1-A? bakugou, uraraka, kirishima, deku, todoroki, and momo

18: Any HCs for the entirety of Class 1-A? the girls have lots of sleepovers, usually at momo’s house because its huge. the first time todoroki gets a confession letter he gets so nervous he sets it on fire and the other guys freak out because they wanted to know. kirishima brings in festive treats for everyone around holidays.

19: Do you remember their seating arrangement by heart? no but i think deku sits behind bakugou

20: Which of the students do you think has the most potential to become a villain? don’t ever speak to me or any of my children ever again

~  V I L L A I N S ~

Techno: Favorite villain? shigaraki or maybe dabi

Classical: Eight Precepts of Death or League of Villains? i havnt read the manga far enough to know how to answer this

Metal: Which villain’s quirk would you want for yourself? u know how cool it’d be to kill people just by touching them w your whole hand.....shigaraki dude

Soul: Shigaraki or Chisaki? shigaraki but im biased bc i havnt officially met overhaul yet

Alternative: Most obnoxious villain? oh shigaraki without a doubt he’s a tool i love him

~  M I S C ~

Apple: Favorite popular HC? that kirishima is gay

Strawberry: Who is your favorite pro-hero? all might

Banana: Which of the pro-heroes’ quirks fascinates you the most? present mic... he just ufcking screams

Cherry: Should Endeavor die like right now yeah

Pear: What was your reaction to Todoroki’s backstory? tears... real, pained tears, and anger

Kiwi: Should the BNHA girls get more spotlight/recognition? WHAT THE HELL OF COURSE THEY SHOULD SPECIFICALLY URARAKA WHERE SHES NOT SPOTLIGHTED AS THE LOVE INTEREST

Pineapple: What do you like the most about BNHA, as a whole? how easy it is to get attached to the characters

Watermelon: Dub or Sub? sub definitely... the dub almost made me put off watching it again

Coconut: How do you think Hokiroshi is doing, in terms of the plot? incredible. teach me how to do that.

Blueberry: What makes BNHA unique from all the other shonen animes/mangas out there? i wanna say character design tbh... you think fuckin kishimoto or isayama could put a character like shouji in their series and it still be cool? no

#long post #ty... #nonny's asks #asks

[crazykendal]

This is too long

Why did you close the door the last time you closed one? so no little kids would rampage in Stripes or polka dots? stripes Do you care if people touch you when they’re talking to you? depends on who What is your gender? female Do you think that people think its obvious? i sure hope so haha

How long did your first date last? 0 seconds ;) Is your favorite color within 10 feet of you? yes Highlight of your day? my old friend came over Would you rather be on a boat or a plane? dood no boats those scare the f outta me, but ive never been on a plane Can you tell when girls (or guys) have eyeliner on? yes. Can you cook?

yikes uh.. nope How high is your ceiling? i believe 35 feet im some parts of the house Whats the worst job you can think of? honestly idk Do you swear a lot?  what the fuck are you talking about Does the last person you texted have an O in their name? HA no Is everything working in your house? i dont think so Would you rather have a pool or a trampoline? pool. Does pop give you energy? no..? TV show you love with a passion? the walking dead, and ive been watching the 100, but i love twd  a lot more Do you think you learned anything from the worst night of your life? yeah, im a fucking prick/dick head

Perfect age to get married? who the fuck knows

Is it safe to say you own over 20 pairs of shoes?  i own 3 or maybe 5.. i think Name a career path that women are known for taking. doctors?? idk Favorite type of cookie? chocolate chip, i can never make them because i always come close to burning the house down A quality you look for in choosing a significant other? if anyone can understand me im good What would I find if I looked in your pocket? no pockets What was your first word? yo wassup my homies. (I say that too much, but I have no idea) A musical instrument you wouldnt mind learning how to play? DRUMSSS Last time you went to 7-eleven? months ago A fast food restaurant that you hate with a passion? I kinda hate most of them equally Does everyone in your family have a job? yeah Going anywhere this weekend? im going to a legally blonde musical Is your room ever clean? yeah but usually never What does it mean when youre being quiet? im mad Last person you had a face to face conversation with? my cat Wheres your phone? dude idk ive been grounded for 2 weeks ahahahah Do you know the difference between your and you’re? yes i aint no dumb bitch How late did you stay up last night? 10 pm Anyone youre ready to kill? oh hell yeah Do you need to get a tan? yes What do you want? money and love Favorite TV show as a kid? dood idk

Whats a show that you absolutely refuse to watch? Strangers Things How many times have you been in love? once Go camping or go to a party? camping Do you remember how old you were when you started swearing? maybe when I was 12 How many years older than you would you date someone? I would like to date anyone in my grade, nothing over or less What was the last thing you pinky swore on? I dont swear to anything, ever, unless i care about the person usually more than my self Would you consider yourself a nice person? no. why is this even a question Are there a lot of mirrors in your house?  a lot more than I think there should be Has there ever been a serial killer in your house?  I sure hope not

Do you know anyone who looks like Adam Sandler? no True or false: Glee is annoying. true, ive never watched it but I know its annoying Last thing you cooked? grilled cheese Do you use slang often? maybe Wear glasses? yes hahahaha

About how old was the last person that hit on you? well.. no one has ever hit on me OH wait I cant say (this one girl maybe I don't her well oh god) What color are your headphones? black and red BLUETOOTH BITCHES Would you make a good teacher? Why? I would rather be some sort of leader than teacher Dont you hate those commercials that try too hard? lol some commercials are my life, like the life alert commercials. HELP IVE FALLEN AND I CANT GET UP but yeah some over them are just to much Is the fan on? I have like a ton of fans on right now Any special reason why youre taking this survey? i have nothing better to do What does the last text message you sent say?  i was telling my mom that my little sister was being a pain in the ass and that i wanted pizza hahaha

Your friend needs you to run to the store to get a pregnancy test. Do you? which friend? Friend #1, id ask her who she fucked and be really surprised. Friend #2 I wouldn't even have to ask. Friend #3 I would be shocked and possibly upset. But id get them for all of them hahahaha Do you log out on facebook when you leave the site?  i dont use my Facebook What color are your underwear? white How short are your nails? short Do you like the opposite sex to be dominant or you the one in control? funny you ask that, id rather have the opposite sex dominant and id rather be dominant with same sex.. yep Favorite holiday? Christmas If I asked you to point to Ohio on a map of the US do you think you could? yeah You're locked in a room with spiders. Do you have an issue? spiders don't really bother me, depends on size tho Do you wear your most expensive item of clothing often? uhh Do you eat a lot of food? no THERE'S NO FOOD IN OUR HOUSE

Have your parents ever tried to control your relationship? well like a relationship relationship? maybe Have you ever had to give someone directions before? yes i forget everything but I know how to give directions like a mastermind Speaking of which, are you good at understanding driving directions? ive never driven before because im too little!! in two years i can tho hahah How many people do you text daily? usually none Do you play any instruments? Which instruments do you play? nothing Is there anyone who you call by their last name? no What did you do on your last birthday? I dont remember I think I had a sleepover tho Which of the Seven Deadly Sins do you commit the most? what Has anyone ever told you that you’re incapable of whispering? no What is your least favorite subject in school?

math and science Have you ever been involved in a custody battle before? depends Do you know a couple who constantly sucks on each other’s face? what the actual fuck When was the last time you watched a YouTube video? a few days ago Have you ever babysat a newborn baby before? no

When was the last time you held someone’s hand? does my cat count How many meals have you eaten today, so far? none and it’s 1:05 pm Do you think it’s stupid for people to call others “hot?” no because they might actually be hot hahaha Do you personally think Wikipedia is a reliable source? yeahhh? depends Have you ever shopped at Wet Seal before? Did you like it? wtf is that Do you care about spending money if it’s someone else’s money? yeah What is your favorite Disney movie of all time? dude I dont really like Disney movies so none When you were a child, did you ever want to become a wizard/witch? wtf no Would you rather have hardwood floors or carpet? i have both in my house Who was the last person you yelled at? Why? my little little sister As a kid, did you ever go to camp? no Have you ever made out in a movie theater before? no Are you currently trying to learn to play any instrument? no. When was the last time you went somewhere you thought was haunted? hmm a few months ago Who was the last person to compliment you? idk that was over a month ago How old were you when you got to go on your first date? never have and I bet I never will :( Would you call your parents over-protective or under-protective? over protective helpppp Did your parents ever let you play in the pits of those multicolored balls? what Have any of your siblings ever had a crush on your significant other? chandler riggs or alycia debnam-carey? Are you the jealous type? yeah When was the last time you felt like you were high on life? when clarke and lexa had sex mwahahaha what Do you know someone who cares about themselves more than their child? yeah haha we have their kid now Do you still watch cartoons on television? no What do you usually order at Taco Bell, if you go there?  i dont like taco bell Is there anyone currently annoying you? yes Do you have freckles? no :’( How many dogs do you have, if any at all? imaginary doggos Have you ever witnessed someone being beaten up? i couldn't say I witnessed someone being beat up I usually beat up things Do you think biting is weird or sexy? well it depends on who Would you rather be called hot or beautiful? hot but im neither hahaha Have you ever had a pet turtle before? yes Do you still sleep with your parents when you’re scared sometimes? no. Have you ever met someone with two different color eyes? nope. Have you ever felt like someone was following you? yeah

What color shirt are you wearing at the moment? white Do you enjoy going school shopping? sometimes Do you think Pug dogs are adorable or just plain ugly? I LOVE PUGS my grandpa has some and I love them so much Have you ever met someone who completely resembled their pet? haha ive never thought of that but maybe What was the worst substance you’ve spilled on yourself before? bleach Have you ever made out with more than one person in one night? no Do you think there is a soulmate out there for everyone? no defiantly not me

Do you like short or long surveys the best? long Have you ever bought fake money and tried to make it pass for real? no Are your siblings nice the majority of the time? depends on who Do you freak out when a thunderstorm comes along? no i live for thunderstorms How often do you shower? every other day Have you ever had to sell something for a school fundraiser? maybe How many sodas do you usually drink in one day? sometimes one but usually never Have you ever met someone who was completely weird all-around? yes shes a good friend of mine Do you ever watch any soap operas? i have no idea what that is Have you ever met someone who was mean to everyone? yes. (me) thats not trueee though <3 Do you usually have a low tolerance for pain or high tolerance? I dont care whenever I get injured Would you rather eat or sleep? i dont care Are you one of those die hard Twilight or Harry Potter fans? no just no

Do your parents ever force you to talk to your grandparents? I have one grandpa and a step grandma and I dont really know her that much but I never really see them Do you think long surveys are boring or entertaining? it depends on the questions. Have you ever learned that someone had lied to you all along? i feel like someone has been lying to me but I dont know if its true or not Have you ever wanted to be a lawyer? no. Have you ever had to bail someone out of jail before? no. Is there anyone in your immediate family who was adopted? yeah Do you know anyone who doesn’t have any common sense? yes my same weird friend, oh and me :) When was the last time you bought something? Monday Do you think you look anything like your parents? kinda What are your plans for this weekend? i answered this What color is your significant other’s hair? Chandler Riggs and Alycia Debnam-Carey both have brown hair. Woah ive never thought about this but every single person ive ever crushed on was a brunette Have you ever applied for a job at Walmart before? no. Would you ever become a foster parent? id rather be a foster parent than give birth but I fucking hate kids (maybe that's why I hate myself) Are you ashamed of anyone in your family? yeah my cat Bub he attacks my other cats Would rather talk to someone on a landline or a cell phone? cell Has anyone ever given you a psychiatric assessment? no What is your favorite amusement park?  i dont know Did you ever have braces? I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET THEM OFF THIS MONTH BUT NOOOOOO What is cuter: kisses on the forehead of the cheek? i like both? why am I answering to this Do you believe in evolution or creation? evolution, there was never a god who created anything

Would you rather take a bath or a shower? Why or why not? shower, I dont have time for baths Does it bother you when people touch your personal items? depends. When was the last time you did something sexual? ..depends on what.. Do you collect anything? What? snapbacks Are you better at hand-drawing things or painting? I cant paint to save my life Have either of your parents ever called you a failure before? oh my god all the time! They tell me that more than compliments Have you ever suspected someone of cheating on you? no. When you get married, will you convert your last name? depends on who :) Are your parents divorced, married or separated? married Has someone ever left a relationship with you for someone else? no. What’s the most painful thing you’ve ever experienced? from december 5, 2002 all the way to today When was the last time you went shoe shopping? like 4 weeks ago Are you a part of any clubs at your school, if you still go to school? like in 7th grade CREATIVE WRITING CLUB oh man Do you know someone who wears a wig? no What is your best friend’s last name? nakamura. its my cat haru When was the last time you cried? For what reason? awhile ago because im a fucking baby, just because im going to a different school than a friend of mine who im going to tag mwahaha sucks to be you IM LOOKING BACK AT THIS ITS NOT TRUE IT WAS THE LEXA DEATH SCENE

What is your favorite shop to go to at the mall? forever 21 What time do you usually go to bed on the weekends? like 10 or 11 Have you ever considered suicide? not much? Have you ever been raped before? no. Would you ever consider becoming a marine biologist? no if i ever see those words again im going to fuck someone up. (my dad wants me to be one but im deathly afraid or the ocean) Did you carry a lunchbox as a child? yes. What is your favorite ‘sweet’ to eat? idk Are you someone who usually eats when you’re bored? no Have you ever eaten your way through a breakup? no. Who was the last person you texted? my mom Do you usually buy popcorn when you eat at the movie theater? yeah Did you sleep alone or with someone last night? alone. What kind of dressing do you eat on your salad, if any? none Are you someone who constantly likes to wear hats? no what are talking about im not wearing a hat at all Have you ever seen a Lifetime movie that relates to your life? what What is your Myspace URL? never had one Are you someone who likes to wear dresses more than pants? hahaha if i ever have to wear another dress again im going to kill myself Have you ever dated someone who was way overprotective of you? never fucking dated alright What was the last thing you touched besides your keyboard? my HAT When was the last time you witnessed a fist fight? never..? Do you know anyone who lives in the state of California? bitch I do

Are you waiting for a text right now? no Is it your summer vacation right now? yepp fucking kill me Do you like traveling? love it, more time I can listen to to musicccc What color are the walls of the room you’re in right now? dood i think grey, im looking now and its hard to tell Do you still make mix cds? no. Are you eating or drinking anything right now? no

Do you go to church regularly? no i dont believe in that stuff Who’s your best friend? haru Are you determined? yeahhh...

Are you always looking for/in a relationship, or do you like being single? id love to be in a relationship but i hate so many people and a ton of people hate me and I bet i never will Ever had your heart broken? yeah Even broken someone else’s heart? oh god yes Are you confident? not really When’s the last time you smiled? today. Are you tan? no

Any big plans for today/tonight? I want pizza What’s the background on your computer? oh I recently changed it to lexa and clarke from the 100 Do you have days where you just want to listen to sad songs? yeah Don’t you hate when your plans fall through? sometimes Ever maxed out a credit card? no How old are you? older than time itself Who’s the last person you kissed? my cat Are you hoping they will also be the next person you kiss? no Do you ever actually go on dates? no

Im going to tag @rottentulips because I finally found a really long question tag for her to do so you're welcome ;)