#instantly shot me directly in the brain. i know this sounds exaggerated but im being serious

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sorry about having issues disorder

#like just in general #what was it like to have one of your mutuals suddenly start posting about one of the most infamous and embarrassing characters #in existence. #did it feel how it felt to me because . man i dont really know what happened it was literally insane. #i had no interest in anything to do with this series at all and then i saw one thing and for some reason it like #instantly shot me directly in the brain. i know this sounds exaggerated but im being serious #i was looking for artists on here as i usually do and happened to come across an artist who happened to have posted a bit of fan art #and despite having known of this character for years and having no interest at all i was suddenly possessed by an #incomprehensibly intense curiosity #and now its been probably almost exactly 2 months now and i literally feel so unwell #i looked into it a bit and immediately knew that this was going to exacerbate everything already wrong with me and cause #a bunch of paranoia and stuff and then it did. but uhmmmm its fine because at least im having fun (?) (maybe?) #so 😁👍