#ingenuine here lately. and i don't know how to fix that.

[violexides]

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#not to vent on main again but #vent #personal #i feel like i've been. mm. #ingenuine here lately. and i don't know how to fix that. #i know why i am. #like i think anyone can tell by me annoyingly mentioning it all the time #that things have been the absolute antithesis of good rn #at least for my mental health and personal life #but i feel bad bc #i don't really want that to affect here yknow #so i guess i just like. i'm sorry. #i dunno. i should be saying this on my vent but #my vent affects less people #and i guess i just want people to know that i'm like. sorry. #i still care a lot #and i'm still going to like. idk. do shit. #i just kind of feel fucking awful rn #and it's pushing me away from a lot of things i enjoy #including like #writing roleplaying and talking to mutuals/friends #like i keep considering just #dropping out of shit or deleting shit and i don't think i will but #yeah. i dunno. #sorry that i've been an ass lately is my main point here #it's been a lot. not enough to justify the bitching i do about it but #i'm at my lowest right now i think. lowest since 2018 anyway #or that one time 2019 but. yeah. point is