#in mind. gonna start finding places to go even if alone. yk 2024 the year hizu becomes a human person

[terroristiraqi]

idk ive been getting more sad lately about being excluded from stuff not having friends ik this is just the commuter's life or whatever but im still bummed. like i cant go to parties still i dont do any sort of drugs so the ways to connect w ppl are so limited :(

#p #my mau/al group is nice i like them. they're fun and we hang out but idk if there are lasting friendships there. and when that ends what am #i supposed to do. i keep trying to find friends and im not finding any and i am just really tired of not knowing people and not having ppl #to talk to. #bf keeps trying to comfort me abt this but like anyone living on campus doesnt get it like yall HAVE the option i straight up DO NOT. #feelings have been way more overwhelming lately like i punched a really big rock (brick?) yesterday. only reason i didnt do it again today #was bc i was fasting. idk. idk idk idk im really tired #alhamdullilah in any case. i must keep this in mind #on the bright side im trying to get my life together a bit and be more put together. gonna try working out every day before suhoor if able #im picking up crafting again slowly but surely. gonna start reading again. gonna learn some code and make a site i have something specific #in mind. gonna start finding places to go even if alone. yk 2024 the year hizu becomes a human person