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blood-bound · 1 year

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(gehenna-calling) MARKSONGSMARKSONGSMARKSONGS. theme… one related to his clan or his relationship with his clan? ALSO do you have any songs for mark + sampson?

YES MARKSONGS i LOVE ty @gehenna-calling okay okay lets see most of them relate to his sire specifically but hm the most general one...

other than the aforementioned To Modern Science which is the more positive one... but 2 explain why i think it relates to his relationship w his clan i would say that its because he does have some pride in tremere being the ones that seem to be researching and improving rather than just being hedonists or money grabbers LMFAO even if he realizes most of em are selfish about it and that some of the older ones do seem to stagnate and only care about prestige, theres still something there and thats the part he likes.

Spellbound is a CLASSIC Tremere song but it fits how the elders in the tremere really throw their weight around to the poor younger apprencties (we play in 2000 so the pyramid is v intact)

as for the second question... it got long but i promise if u care its a v good song

Uh I Might have a whole playlist just for just mark and sampson (FEEL FREE 2 ASK ABOUT THAT...) :v the ones on mark's personal playlist are abt how he feels abt sampson and not like mutual relationship sooooo actually let me get one from the mark x sampson playlist:

these lyrics are just too good literally almost all of them are perfect. if you know abt mark and sampson read the lyrics first b4 u read mine and just see how perfect it is. anyway let me explain now. let me go insane for a bit. ready?

Every time you get a drink/ And every time you go to sleep/ Are those dreams inside your head?/ Is that sunlight on your bed?

ok FIRST OFF Theres a whole THING about how Mark can't remember his dreams anymore, and also with Sampson being SUPER CAGEY about if Kyle shows up in his dreams. And then obviously the dual meaning with drinking with sampson getting drunk and/or mark drinking blood. and then with the sunlight - idk theres something but i cant articulate it.

moving on

Every time you're driving home/ Way outside your safety zone/ Wherever you will ever be/ You're never getting rid of me.

Mark has gone sooo much out of his comfort zone into really dangerous spots but he always came home or let sampson know he was and one time he didnt and he got really nervous :( anyway now we are getting to the main crux of the song which is owning/being owned and being stuck. So with the blood bond and the ghoul, sampsons kinda stuck. you cant forget about kindred society once ya know it, and he isnt about to leave mark for another kindred domintor LOL. So. Never getting rid of him. But ALSO Mark isn't about to let him go either...

You own me/ There's nothing you can do/ You own me

Mark LITERALLY by Camarilla law owns sampson basically :( very fucked. and he has to to keep him safe. rogue ghouls get killed in detroit.

You could've made a safer bet/ But what you break is what you get/ You wake up in the bed you make/ I think you made a big mistake

few diff ways to interpret it, but Mark does worry he has made mistakes in the way he's handled everything. But he's stuck where he is now! And even if Mark isn't the one who broke sampson, sampson is a broken person.

Skipping the second chorus.. only new thing is "Lucky you"... THEN THE FUCKING BRIDGE.

You clean yourself to meet/ A man who isn't me/ You're putting on a shirt/ A shirt I'll never see/ The letter's in your coat/ And no one's in your head/ 'Cause you're too smart to remember/ You're too smart/

Lucky you/ Lucky you/ Lucky you

Besties the LAYERS here.

I interpret this is Mark cleaning himself up/putting on a persona for Julius who mark wants to make sure sampson never meets. but mark cares a lot about julius due to blood bond. anyway. Then the SECOND part starting with And No One's in your head is about SAMPSOn cause MARK has Julius in his head, but sampson doesnt have anyone afaik, AND Sampson has memory problems....

and they're both stuck w each other and. Mark would definitely be sarcastic and be like "well i guess you're stuck with me, lucky you" but really sampson IS lucky that mark is still trying to be a decent guy - sampson def deserves even better but just statistically many kindred become awful and ksadjflksajf this song is so perf thanks if u read sm

#mark vtm oc

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noonereallycaresaboutit · 5 years

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2019

humans in this generation don’t understand where i’m coming from, tbh i don’t really understand myself anymore, but i understand myself enough to KNOW i need to start writing down my thoughts and stop thinking there are rules and filters to what i think, my mind is free to think what it wants, there are no rules, i don’t want to adapt to the system, i don’t want to think like everyone else, i don’t want to be a copy of a copy of a copy, i’m tired of keeping my feelings inside and thinking i have to shut up just to please other people, i talk so much about being free but i feel so trapped in this world, where nothing really matters anymore, nobody really cares and life is all about making people feel better than you.. (we are taught to keep feelings in, to not be ‘’dramatic’’ we are trained to IGNORE who we adore and IGNORE who adores us because we ‘’don’t want to seem to needy or interested about love and that’s another topic i want to write about) but now i ask myself why? why has it come to this? i really feel like i’m in a maze and i can’t find a way to get out.. i want to scream and shout, literally i want to SCREAM to the top of my lungs ‘’FUCK YOU ALL’’, fuck this stupid ass system, fuck the rules, fuck humanity, fuck their opinion, fuck you,fuck him, fuck them, fuck being like everyone else, fuck bullys, FUCK SARCASM, fuck pain, fuck anger and FUCK EGO, i’m better than this, i can’t stop thinking about what other people think about me, i want to post some deep shit but i’m afraid of what people will say, but, when have i ever really cared about one opinion? as ive been growing up, small things and opinions just seem so ‘‘important’‘ to everyone that it makes me feel like they have to be ‘‘important’‘ to me too.. but the real me does not care, is that bad tho? is it okay for me to feel selfish for that? is it okay? i feel like it’s not okay, i had a war world 3 with myself, ive battled myself, it’s been so hard for me to get to where i am right now, the system has FUCKED ME UP TREMENDOUSLY, i don’t really know my biological daddy, had a step dad since i have use of awareness, we left my state when i was 3, been to miami, calii, newyork, peru, all diff schools, my parents got divorced, i got prego in a party at 16 and my step dad did not let me abort, after pregnancy i went insane, went thru two diff rehabs, step dad left, mom left, i was left alone now i meditate, i do yoga, i train my ass off, i work 8 hours, i ride bike, i eat healthy, i live with my sister, my son is in good hands, i try to keep my mind off things but it’s so hard to ignore the system and the people in it, ive been here for to long, i need to leave this place, go far away where nobody knows me, i’m really going crazy and i feel like everything is just falling apart so that i can realize that HERE is not where i need to be, i need new oxygen, new encounters, new situations, new humans, new streets, new vibes, i can’t stay here, it’s eating me alive and i can feel it each time a day goes by, i’m too into my comfort zone but i don’t feel comfortable anymore, ive started feeling this way after i met this person who made me feel LOVE for one week than left me in the air after some negative thing someone told him about me, i realized DAMN, i need to write this all down, i’m feeling to much when love goes away and i already been to a physiologist, psychiatrist, it’s ‘’been there, done that’’ for me, i’m tired of it all, i just want to be myself and live and learn more and LOVE, i want to love and feel loved, i want to express EVERYTHING, i don’t want to express hate even tho it’s a part of me i just wish i could disappear all the hate and keep all the love and spread it around to the people i really love, and right now i’m just thinking about so much tihngs i want to write about but it’s all so disperse in my head, i feel like a STORM of thoughts and feelings and it just keeps eating me alive, i’m done with this post, thank you.

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