#imo it is so much harder to be bad at words in a virtual community than an irl one

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today one of my favorite coworkers ever almost called us friends and then at the last second walked it back (i think, obvs i can't be sure but it really seemed that way) and i was like "oh no wait what if they dont know how much i value our friendship (?) and they were trying to not make it weird because of me" and now i want to say something but i'm not going to see them for a few weeks 😩

#i so badly just want to say 'hey dude i already think we are friends so you can say we are friends it's cool and not weird' #but what if im misreading and actually it was just a 'putting sentences together is hard' day or something?!?! #which i know that's just me falling into the same trap but still. #im probably just going to casually express my appreciation for them the next time we talk and try not to stew about it in the meantime #part of why this is bothering me extra is bc this is symptomatic of a larger problem ive been running into the last few years #of Words Of Affirmation not being a strong suit of mine when it comes to showing people i appreciate them and care about them #imo it is so much harder to be bad at words in a virtual community than an irl one #i feel like quality time and gifts and acts of service are all way easier to do irl #like i can't just pick up a coffee for someone when we live 10+ hours apart...