#im thinking about my little boy raider again tonight and i miss him so much...

[britneyshakespeare]

i always think about the most cold heartless thing a teacher ever said in one of my high school classes like it was an uncontestable truth, that the only real reason we have dogs and cats is cuz they’re cute. like what. this was years ago and i didn’t know how to respond to it at the time bc i was 14 but like. what. do we not as humans need something to love? something to love us? pets wouldn’t be worth all the work if they were just cute

#this teacher was a pretty shitty guy for other reasons but i feel like #ok you know what not everyone has to like animals #(altho he DID OWN animals from his own personal anecdotes!! so!!! huh????!) #i feel like you have to understand that the relationship ppl form w their non-human friends is NOT just superficial? #there can be so much love and healing across species #im thinking about my little boy raider again tonight and i miss him so much... #ive kinda been reliving the trauma of his death #which i didnt talk about on here but it was very violent and hard to witness so :/ #ive had dogs die before but this was different #and also raider was THE number one dog ive ever had. maybe that ill ever have. my animal soul mate #my little black dog #it's just flat out wrong to say ppl only have dogs and cats bc theyre cute alright. alright. that's not just offensive but it's inaccurate #tales from diana #text post #im watching critter fixers on disney plus bc i heard of it a few days ago and i was like 'i... have... to watch that...' #but some of these things are reminding me of... yeah #that and i also did a final project in my drawing class that was basically a memorial to him #it included his urn and his bed and his food bowl and his puppy leash #i tied the leash around the urn like a bow #i figured it was darkly humorous. he was my precious little thing you know. still is #that and his dog bowl. well. his dog bowl was from LIFE IS GOOD so i figured i didn't have any choice but to embrace the macabre of that #the bowl was a coincidence bc he had been eating out of that little ceramic since the day we brought that puppy home #so i figured the bow was my own little statement and commentary on that #life is good. life is gone.