#im so confined to a tight schedule that its insane wtv

[leonsmain]

been thinking a lot about what i’d do with the rest of my life if money wasn’t an object

#cuz on one hand my family wants me to go to med school and become a doctor or a surgeon and thats the life ive been planning for for 16 yrs #with that life id probably retire around 40 and write a novel or two?? #but entrepreneurship has always intrigued me ??? so much to the point that i looked into the possibility of creating-mass.prod. something - #-medically beneficial?? that way its still semi related to what ive been preparing for alr?? but that life is either completely pass or fail #qnd honestly??? i say i wanna make a difference so much but being a doctor only goes so far #introducing something new to the medical community sounds enticing but am i ip for the risk?? lmao ofc not #what sucks is that at the end of the day im like everyone else?? i just want to be financially stable and secure forever #i was to create something bigger than be and contribute something to the world but at the end of the day i probably wont? #does that make sense #and if im being so for real with myself i HATE medical studies??? lmao im only interested in it for the money :/ #and yeah i guess no one ever ends up doing what they love #but if i had complete fucking freedom id play keyboard or guitar for some nobody ass band and be happy #i think id just want to spend time with friends and make music for the rest of my life but thats just. impossible in this world isnt it #leo talks [🦔] #im so confined to a tight schedule that its insane wtv #ignore my screaming into the void i just needed to type out my thoughts 😍