#im slowly learning my friendships are full of my fawn responses and it just feels so fake and im disgusted with myself

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starting to realize my only authentic relationship is with my cat

#i luv u kitty cat #im slowly learning my friendships are full of my fawn responses and it just feels so fake and im disgusted with myself #i love my friends who i dont talk to regularly but i know if i got any closer id ruin it and repeat the cycle #i just want a genuine affectionate experience i want to be able to have friends to have sex and be alive but it hurts too much im too broken #i can't even notice until i have a breakdown i don't even know who i am and i never have. how am i going to learn to be human