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kimmkitsuragi · 8 months

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okay one final succession post here before i pack it up and take it to my sideblog for good

I FINISHED IT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

farewell my mentally unstable fucked up siblings (jk, im not letting them go for some time. rotating them in my brain and such)

im proud to announce im a roman girl now ✌ he's literally the most special boy in the universe, i dont fucking care how weird or delusional that sounds, yes he's a piece of shit, yes he's an unbearable person, yes he's so fucking emotionally stunted that he would rather die than be vulnerable and sincere with anyone, which leads him to act like a heartless psychopath (for lack of a better word, sorry) when he actually feels soooooo much and sooooo deeply. so much that it fucks him up and drowns him out. so yes he's so hungry for love and acceptance, and he doesnt even know what to do any of his emotions!!! yes, he's daddy's little boy, yes he hates daddy and anyone who tells him what to do, but yes, he will do it anyway. because he's hungry for approval. and it fucks him up because no one in this fucking family is operating on emotions!!! and then he gets ridiculed for crying at his father's fucking funeral, and then he's the one who fucks it up all the time. and yes he will tear himself apart for any small mistake, but also yes, he has such an unfounded confidence that makes him think he can do fucking anything and will be fine. which he does, he fucking does anything, just because it will give him a rush, or just because he can, just to see how much he will be kicked around for it, beaten down because he wants it. he's so sick in the head he will get off to it. cant even accept love or any other emotion in a normal way, no, he has to turn it into a violent shitshow. kicked around by daddy, only to be beckoned back to run the next errand, and he will come wagging his tail, and then he will go and fuck it up again, kicked around again etc etc... and all this results in him constructing his life and personality around Doing Good (in dad's books), which he cant achieve no matter what. because he never put any real effort into learning the ropes. because he's a privileged fuck who is just living in the shadow of his father. and he will never be his father. he cant ever be his father. yet he acts like he can be. "daddy did it like that so why cant i too?" fuck you, you're not as competent and not as emotionally strong. and he hates himself for it. why cant it be me? why is it not me? god i love this shitshow of a human so much im sorry but. he <3. he's also adhd af. queer af. childhood trauma af. possibly borderline? af. i love him.

oops. literally went ahead and wrote the whole thing abt roman. sorry :^) i started doing a roman playlist, dont know if i will finish it. i also started a kendall playlist emmsmsjdjfjf because yes there are loads of them but yes i need a personal one too. anyway THIS SHOW

kendall, özür dilerim eski bir kendall girl olarak bunu dediğim için, ama gerçekten bu sonu haketti 😭😭 hala istemsizce biraz kendall girl sayılırım. ama bro.... u fucked it. ne diyeyim cidden. evet kötü bir babasın, evet it runs in the family, ve evet dünyanın en loser kişisisin. ayrıca şunu da demek istiyorum, harika bir bipolar karakter yazmışlar. cidden eating him up with spoon çok güzel karakter ya. karakterin inişleri ve çıkışları, delusions of grandeur anlarından birden kendi içine çöküşleri... princess mental illness <3 kendall hakkında şimdiye kadar o kadar çok şey yazdım ki bilmiyorum daha ne yazabilirim şu an

SHIV..... one cold bitch cidden ya. gerçekten en duygusuz ve çıkarcı karakter sensin ve bu yüzden seni çok seviyorum dndjdjfh god forbid women do anything 🙄 ama bi yandan da (özellikle son sezon) çok fazla duygusal çöküş yaşadı cidden. ve oyuncu gerçekten o kadar iyi kiiii (hepsi için geçerli tbh). tom ile yaşadıkları toksiklik dibi ilişki o kadar leziz ki. ve her şeye rağmen çıkarları için yine birlikte olmuş olmaları. ikisi de iğrenç insanlar awwww <3 ve tom jsjdhdhufuf abi tom o kadar değişik bi karakterdi ki obsessed with him ya. özellikle de shiv ile olan dinamikleri çok iyiydi, ama bundan daha iyisi ne biliyor musunuz? gregle olan dinamiği <333 aslında shive en çıkarcı karakter demek yanlış, grege çok büyük haksızlık oluyor lmaooooo greg en sonunda gerçekten de masanın kendisi oldu. her masada olup da hepsini bu kadar iyi handle etmek ama hala awkward cousin greg olmak 😭😭 tom'un en sevdiği (???) iki insanın dünyanın en çıkarcı insanları olması skjsjdd king of toxic relationships

bro şu an daha fazla yazacak beynim yok ve şu an bunları akraba ziyaretinde konuşmalar arasında yazıyorum sjsjdhd very fitting atmosphere tbh. so i cant really elaborate more rn but rotating them all in my brain and such... now i will be rbing content to my sideblog bye

oh edit: aklima yeni geldi şunu da demek istiyorum ummm fucked up üçlümüzün çok kısa süreler boyunca gerçekten kardeşler gibi interact etmelerini izlemek çok eğlenceliydi. yine diyorum daha az iyi bi dizi olsa bu sahneleri çok daha değişik yapardı ve ayrıca fanservice gibi önümüze sürerlerdi sanırım. bu kadar kısıtlı süre boyunca team up olmaları ve sonra kavga etmeleri ve sonra yine kısa süre team up olmaları o kadar zevkliydi ki djdjdhhf daha uzun süre team up olsalar kesinlikle bu kadar zevkli olmazdi. something something the thing about desire is that it's stronger when it's not totally satisfied

#my commentary #🗒

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heeliopheelia · 10 months

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U DID!! U DID U CRAZY SON OF A BITCH!!🤩🤩🤩🤩 SHE UFUEDHUDJE OMG WAIT SHE SAID THE L WORD AND IT DOES NOT STAND FOR LOSER omg we've come so far 🤭🤭

FR. THO, THE GROUP CHAT was a messy 💀💀💀 dude if yn ever ask hee to fuck her.. the dude is literally going 🚑🚑🚑🚑🚑🚑

✨daddy✨ i mean who hasn't called heeseung that... right?... right? hello? please....daddy seung has a ring to it... yes I know where the door is.. okay

also im a strong believer in heeseung's big dick conspiracy theory btw I JUST KNOWWWW

that's jake roast WELL ILL BE DAMNED, it was fire

heeseung going through his 69 mental breakdown on the tl so nothing new YN HOWEVER.. she is just like me fr 🙏🙏

ah, nothing quite like another high class chapter thank ma'am for the bottom of my fat ass this was To me what shakespeares work were to every English teacher I've ever had 😌😌😌 ily

ps. i so happy for u and ur guy friend.. hope the date goes well 🤥🤥🤥🤥

im wishing u all the best!!! stay safe tho bae!! im super happy for u 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 xoxo ofc ure still my wifey on here!!

The L will always stand for loser in yn's case 🙏 I was feeling quite chaotic today so I poured it into the chat 💀💀 WIFEY there's nothing better than seeing you in my inbox is2g 🥺💘

PLS THE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVENESS FOR MY NEW DUDE (i love it tho 🥴) yall will forever be my 1st choice 🫡🩷

PS PS imma drop the drabble you requested for the event tonight babe!! 🩷💖

#–wifey 💍.#a little dramatic: asks ✉

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fangirl-hell · 3 years

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🔅 all the fandoms I’m in + the ships I ship 🔅

MARVEL

~ probably my main fandom and the fandom I spend the most time in and have been in the longest

~ by far my favourite fandom

~ joined the fandom before I really knew what a fandom was

Ships MCU:

~ Stucky ( slightly ship it, used to be my OTP BEFORE STEVE WENT AND-)

~ Ironstrange ( I used to ship it more but people move on yk )

~ Thorbruce/gammahammer ( love it. So much chemistry in Thor Ragnorok! )

~ ThorQuill ( it’s cute )

~ Scarletwidow ( I think they would be a cute couple if gay relationships were normalised and they were a bit closer age-wise )

~ Blackhill ( it’s cute. I wrote a Blackhill oneshot once. They would be cute shield-wives <3 )

~ Blackpepper ( Natasha deserves a strong independent woman like Pepper! )

~ Frosthawk ( not proud of this one- but it is one of my OTP’s and first ever ships )

~ Winterhawk ( it’s cute )

~ Hawkdevil ( god bless shipping wiki for introducing this to me. I love the deaf/Blind dynamic there )

~ Hawkant ( the family men <3 )

~ Lokius ( they r so gay- )

~ Frostmaster ( don’t really ship it I just think they did it )

~ sambucky/winterfalcon ( rollin’ in a field of flowers~~ )

~ Hawksilver ( HOW COULD I ALMOST FORGET THE ONE I SPENT HOURS LOOKING AT TUMBLR POSTS ABOUT- )

~ Parley/Parkner ( it could be romantic or brotherly- I know that sounds weird but it’s like how Hawksilver could be father and son or romantic and I don’t mind it either way )

~ Shuri/MJ ( I swear it was one fic- )

~ Valcarol ( still have hope for my gay space girls <3 )

~ Drax/Mantis ( AHA!! A STRAIGHT ONE! I ship this one on a strict platonically romantic basis tho- )

X-Men:

~ Cherik ( 😫 CuBa BeAcH dIvOrCe || PaRiS cHeSs PrOpOsAl 😫 )

~ Scogan ( in the original universe, alt reality Scott is 2 young )

~ Kurt/Peter

~ Scott/Peter

~ Bobby/Pyro ( gay )

The Gifted:

Lorna/Marcus ( THE CHERIK PARALLELS ARE INTENSE )

Runaways:

Gert/Karolina ( ik….I’m being selfish. I can’t be happy with Karolina and Nico being gay 4 eachother )

Alex/Darius’s sister in-law

MCYT FANDOM:

~ been in it for the second least amount of time

~ I like it but not unconditionally

Ships:

~Dreamnotfound ( a classic- can u blame me? )

~Dreamnap ( aNd ThEy WeRe RoOmMaTeS )

~ Sapnotfound

~ Sapnottaken?

~ Karlnapity ( OT3 )

~ Sapity/Quacknap ( adorable. )

~ Karlnap

MHA:

~ Totally forgot I was ever in this one

~ quite watching it when it made me watch it in Japanese

~ in and out

Ships:

~ BakuDeku ( classic! Only one-sided though or one side w/ acceptance and the other with strong denial )

MAZE RUNNER:

~ loosely in the fandom

~ mostly there for one ship

Ships:

~ Newtmas ( god bless my random YouTube recommendations )

SOUTH PARK:

~ admittedly I was kinda obsessed with this one for a while!

~ Kenny

~ I was 11 when I got into the fandom so this is worrying

Ships:

~ Crenny ( adorable dumbasses. Limited fics though…)

~ Style ( they were gay. Gay in a slightly homophobic but also anti-homophobic way )

~ Tyde ( cute. They obviously had their gay awakening when Craig started dating guys. They were like: “oh shit- if our mutual bestie is gay- are we gay?” And then: “are we gay 4 eachother?? )

~ Butters/Scott Malkinson ( the badass softies <3 )

~ Christopher/Gregory ( don’t question me )

~ Michael/Pete ( gay, goth and gender-non-conforming )

~ Bendy ( they’re both basic bitches ofc they deserve eachother )

~ Cryde ( cute )

~ Stylenny

~ Creek ( I don’t really ship this one but it’s not bad. They are a cute couple and they’re canon! )

IT:

~ almost forgot this one aaahahaha

~ luv it

~ make horror gay 🌈

Ships:

~ Reddie ( YESSSS YESSS YESSS I MEAN JUST YESSS- SHIPPING WIKI SAID SEMI-CANON )

~ Stenbrough ( they would be cute lol )

~ Benverly ( get outta here with that Billverly crap- I mean....Bev is pretty but she was a bit annoying. She depended on a man all the time it was infuriating)

STRANGER THINGS:

~ again! Forgot this one!

~ i didn’t know what the hype was about till I watched it

Ships:

~Max/El ( gay girls go shopping 🛍)

~ Mike/Will ( I mean they’re a little eh but it’s a good ship! )

~ Dustin/That Girl from Utah ( they were kind of cute yk )

~ Steve/Jonathan ( jk jk jk....unless? )

~ Nancy/Jonathan

BONUS FOR THAT ONE IT/STRANGER THINGS CROSSOVER FIC IM READING:

~Max/Bev

~ El/Bev

~ Stan & El are siblings

That fic is called “The Losers Party” it’s on ao3

It’s by: WhelmedBirdie_319 and it’s fvcking awesome

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snow-wind-and-all-we-will-find · 3 years

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Hi! My names arthur and im working on improving my word and building my story, which currently has no name haha! I have a myriad of characters who ill try to list out and give brief descriptions of, aether is technically my main character and some of the characters who are up for question are dead in canon. But you can still ask them stuff, itll just be set before death.

When asking characters questions, rememeber to include the name, their age if theres diffrent ages, i dont mind repeated questions, but if you see the question try not to ask it again lol. If you cant find it with a quick scroll just ask it, although i dont know if this blog will even get that big.

Aether

He comes in three evolutions lol, technically, theres four but idk if i would count 7 year old aether.

Ages: 13 yo - colder, hasnt gotten used to emotions, there are two to this as well, pre-rev and then post-rev 13 yo aether, remember to specify lol.

16 yo- a bit more out there, still kinda disconnected and figuring things out, a bit more defensive

22 yo- lax, hes sorta figured shit out, hes not going to go grazy, hes just gonna be chill lol.

!The gaggle Ghosts!

Yurei

Her personality is very, ehhh, becuase i havnt done work with her, and i havnt completly figured out who she is fully yet, shes 18 yo when aether is 22 yo

18 yo- pretty oblivious, somehow still a bit cynical, very nice and sometimes motherly

Kakoku

Few thousand- mean, likes to bully yurei as he huants her, lowkey a simp for yurei but he wont admit that. Kinda cynical and likes to bring others down, generally a bully

Tamashi

19- emotionless, has to be a really strong emotion to make her emote, tends to stray away from other people, likes to be alone, blunt

Gunnar

A few thousand- sweet, warm and welcoming, tries to be very fatherly and a trusted figure, is very busy most of the tiime unfortunatly though.

!The greek gang!

Argus agapov

16- unstable, pretty baby, protective over friends and family

Mythos agapov

23- whore. He also loves his family, lowkey, hes a trad wife

Perceus

15/16- timid, intrested in posiosn and acids, generally quiet, likes to eat leaves, scaredy cat

Diogenes

14- germ of phobe, kind of a brat, more just a bitch, will yell at you if he sees your hands were dirty from gardening or something while you’re walking to the sink, other than that hes fine, picky eater

Herodotus

15- disorginized, trys his best, likes to write stuff down, helps plato with his writing and grammar in general, gullible, likes record data, has a nice typewriter with tha good clicky clack

Plato

8- sweet baby boi, loves his older brother (socrates), idolizes him even, not a good idea though. He writes down everything socrates does, sometimes he imitates his brother as well.

Socrates

17- dumb of ass, also just dumb, held back a grade, feral child, bites alot of people, soft aestechic but hed stab as a warning

Heracles

30- also dumb of ass, loves cars in that ‘mah babeh’ kinda way. Hates motorcycles, he thinks they’re ugly. Chaotic but he utilizes it to be the weird and cool uncle/cousin thing

Zeus

46- too tired for this shit, is a dad, went out to get milk, jk jk, dissapeared for a hot few years, probably got captured by some gang dunno, it happens. Very serious, would make the dumbest jokes with his brothers with a straight face

Hades

50- lowkey the neglected middle child, soft goth lookin ass, loves his kid, tries his best to raise his kid, sometimes gets help from esme

Poseidon

57- proud stay at home dad, buff but does the typically wifely duties, makes sure his children get enough love, nutrience and care

Lillith

54- very active, the money maker, kinda soft, both her and her husband poseidon are so just in love with their kids, dote on them constantly, very extroverted, always makes time for her kids

Esme

51- tired of zeus’ shit, does her best to make sure no one dies, still treats mythos as her ‘little baby boy, tired mom vibes.

!the Eden gang!

Eden is a fictional country that i slapped onto the globe. It is where aether is from, technically aether is apart of the eden gang as well. Everyone here, if they have an age option, the first age option is the age they are when aether is 13, and the second will be when aether is 16 unless stated otherwise

General kyelli

49- fatherly, thinks of most of the gang as his children, calls everyone ‘son’, as a general rule. If you ask for another nickname, he will do his best. Has a bad knee, and is kinda of bad at existing physically

52+- fatherly still, loves almonds, always has a bag of almonds, dont test him. Enjoys travel, might adopt people he meets along the way, still has pains but now he sees doctors, wants to stay active

Indigo

13- sweet, optimistic, always looks on the brightside and tries to see the good in others. Little heater, understands that sometimes fighting is the only option

Akrano

16- lively, very loose and relax, can get serious when needed though, always making jokes and trying to lighten up the mood

19- a bit more, mellow. Still quite lively and childish, but with two signifigant-others you have to settle down sometimes

Ekrano

16- lively, more stern than akrano and kinda worried, but ultimatly also very loose and bright

Lilliana

16- serious, seemingly colder towards everyone, gets along great with psycho-lops, makes him new eye-patches to pass time, actually just very monotone and blank most of the time, although she does care

19- she doesnt change much, she got a bit more expressive, likes babysitting howl

Psycho-lops

16 1/2- always looks determined, actually kinda scared of conflict, likes to help out with healing though, very proficient in it as well, sounds intimidating while talking about how cute puppies and kittens are

19/20- still the same, is considering studying medicine and medical practices to become a doctor.

Bark

17- bright, incredibly lively, loves to joke around and tease and sometimes bully the others, targets aether primarily, hangs out with his brother most of the time, he can fight for himself but he likes the backup, especcially since he is kinda glass-jawed, being that hes a twig

Bite

17- quiet, intense eyes, always sounds vaugly confused when he speaks, deep voice lol, likes to train, doesnt understand barks need to tease others, likes to read to the children

20- quiet, intense eyes still, more so nervous sounding, slightly paranoid, cluastrophobic and cant stand dusty places, usually in his house or at the docks, doesnt really go anywhere else

Hanelle

17- loud, headstrong, adamant about her opinions, gets along well with bark, she tries alot to be intimidating, not a twig, but not very big, pretty friendly and sociable

!the band of pirates!

Aklea

A few hundreds of years- kinda bored seeming, loves blood, technically cannibal, but not really since he isnt human, to an extent. Despite being fine on the ocean, he gets very car sick very easily. Actually quite nice, very easily triggerd into violence, especcially by something that could be used as a good murder weapon, blood makes him jittery and more lively

Nerone

21- calm, too calm, deals with akleas bullshit wonerfully, he just stands there, blank smile on his face as aklea beats the shit outta someone, unintrested in most anything, likes to draw, but hes a much better pastry chef.

!the shakespears!

Midem(pink boi)

33- lively, loves to work with kids, very creative, likes to make things, mainly art, mainly carvings. Often make little minitures of scenes from midens writing, loves his twin, does anything it takes to fund midens intrests. Very loving to those hes close to

Miden

33- calmer by alot lmao, pretty introverted but he can hold a long conversation without becoming too drained, enjoys writing and making stories, also makes plays for fun, runs off little sleep cuase he stays up so late to write, and gets up early to write.

!gods!

Gideon

9 billion- confused boomer, loves his ‘children’, hates to be hated, always tries to help in anyway he can, despite making them, always curious into what mortals are doing, loves the universe he created and does anything he can to protect it

Merik

7 million- sore loser, does get a little salty, ultimatly bounces back and becomes a very good sport, always will adopt tactics, whatever it takes to win within the rules, keeps most all of his trophies from random feats hes done

Ventus

5 billion - calm, straightforward, tends to disregard others and do things himself, likes to sit on cliffs and watch the ocean

Kyle

Hes been around since 776 bc- very loud, lively, bright, tries his best to educate people on proper form, workout regime i intesne, doesnt allow others to take it, makes custom workout regimes for free, owns a gym, dude bro but hes nice, baby

Horo-sha

Her age technicaly is not accurate, shes like, 2 billion? Since dima was made right after her death. But since her history still lives, ima count it

5 billion but older than ventus- bitter, violent, former god of justice, fucking dead haha, hates mortals, primarily humans

Dima

Also not super accurate, hed only be a few centuries of being an active god before being sealed, but since hes technically, concious and has cognitive function hes counted

3 billion- mean lol, likes blood and gets even more violent when it starts getting messy, ‘new’ god of justice, uh, pretty bad at it like the last one, but worse, will kill over slight misdeameanors, everythings a crime smh

!misc!

Ivan

24- softspoken, from imperial russia, died young, he no longer feels his face is his own, has a mask that he likes better, has the sickness, but since he was human it killed him, can control it post mortem, is strong enough to be seen, but weak enough he can go invisible and go through solid objects.

More ocs will be added when i remember them, or create new ones, characters i dont really have built at all are not included

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stillwooozy · 3 years

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well my mom is having heart surgery, or idk a stent put in her heart - isnt that heart survery? Anyways shes getting better so thats good.

Ive been playing chess w/ my dad but my 10 yr old brother can beat us both so my dad isnt pissed at me anymore. He lost to my brother so he yelled at HIM for “having an attitude” and i felt bad. sore loser much? I’m competitive as hell, but only for things i know im objectively good at. He admits he isnt good at chess. I’m kinda surprised cuz ngl my dad is smart and my 10 yr old brother is..... 10. But i guess my dads intellect manifests as writing ability and my brother is advanced in math sooo... maybe chess = math? Idk. They are still forced to quaratine cuz they have covid, i doubt i’ll get it but i’ll get tested when they do again. My dogs are going crazy cuz i cant take them to the park.

My mom will come home in a few days. I’m actually excited/relieved. Usually i dread seeing her cuz she always finds something to critize me about but now im just happy she isnt dead. Haha hashtag-compassion. Shes on a bunch of drugs but shes off a venilator and sounds okay. she tested negative for covid so shes done with that im pretty sure. Shes getting a stent put in. I tried to talk to a doctor cuz she was being vague but he wouldnt tell me anything and im like :/ i get it but... i wish they would make my life easier, im the last person who should act as a husband/parent figure but here i am. My dad is pissing me off - if he cant control a situation he gets angry & ignores it. Straight up. I WISH i could do that but i have a guilty complex instilled by my very own mother.

One of my brothers i watching attack on titan so thats pretty interesting. he’s 12 and i was like... um isnt that too young? But i was 13 when i watched it so i guess not

My mom told me if i picked up her meds after i pick her up from the hospital she’ll give me half her painkillers and was like “but dont OD”. I mean im not going to turn them down. Me - turning down tramadol? What reality would that be. she’s a weird woman. I feel bad for her, she blames everyone else for her problems including me but ik she loves me. even if she hates part of me at the same time. A part of me is convinced that ill die by drugs if i never manage to kick the habit but i’d also feel really bad knowing she’d blame herself. I mean its almost comedic how dysfunctional my family is. She goes full Karen begging for opioids, then gives her mentally ill son half the pills as a reward. hey - positive reinforcement i guess? Good for her. Dont hit ur kids - just give them drugs when they are being a good little boy.

I think i’ll watch AoT w/ my brother. Hes the sibling i probably ignore most. him and my 10 yr old brother. I like my 6 yr old brother and my 19 yr old sister. I mean i love all my siblings but come on..... 9-15 yr old boys are batshit. i say this from personal experience.

I asked him if he liked Eren x Mikasa cuz idk. Isnt that what most basic shonen preteen boys are into? I forced myself to read eremika hentai when i was about his age. He’s a nice jewish boy too, so 50/50 chance he has an east asian fetish. You want to know his reply??? “No I don’t see anyone as a couple they all seem gay to me - no offense”. None taken brother ... i have to agree

i was flirting w/ 2 girls on tinder - no worries im not going to spread covid i promise - and i’ve come to the realization that....... why do most “alt” girls SAY they want a bi boy to “peg” but...... get uncomfortable when that bi twink actually gets fucked by men. like what??????? they just want a boy who wears flowery blouses and eyeshadow. sorry hun i’m not that person. I look like mac demarco if he was a twink in the worst way possible. I hate this trend cuz its insincere or maybe im just self concious cuz im gross. its just....... u cant ask for a bi bf...... but not really want them to ever have fucked a man????????? Grindr is disgusting but damn tinder girls are judgemental. I look like david dobrick if he was gay & mentally ill - what do u expect of me? I just miss my ex. She was unusal and im just fully appreciating that. She was the only person (beside my ex who pulled a lil peep before it was cool) who matched my type of crazy. Unfortunately 2 crazy ppl can’t last long.

To clarify i dont tell ppl, i never will, that she was “my crazy gf” or “crazy ex”. I dont mean it as a fully bad thing - i mean im the one on antipsychs (she was on lithium.. what a romance amiright). I miss her so badly. I think about texting or calling her everyday. Honestly idk if she would answer. Maybe she has moved on. We both have a minimal (public) social media presence so i cant stalk her online. she just posts memes & social justice stuff on her sc. she didnt block me from any platform. I pretend she found this blog and can stalk me & i hope she feels bad for me - pathetic right? It wasnt even a bad breakup. We were never on the “same page”, not that type of couple or chemistry, but we enjoyed being together and i miss that cuz atm i have no one but my mentally ill family. jk my siblings are surprisingly sane. I mean the younger ones have time.

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rcbcstxn · 5 years

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𝕒 𝕣𝕒𝕓𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟 𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖 𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕠 𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕥

* ╰ ( ANSEL ELGORT )┋have you met ( RABASTAN LESTRANGE ) ? ( he ) reminds me of ( shifting shadows ; of thick clouds of fog from stewing cauldrons ; half-hearted laughter ; of red wine tipped precariously in a careless grip ; a book set on a shelf only to be forgotten ; heated side glances with unreadable expressions ; of an ominous pause in a concerto, hall caught in a joint hush of silence ; of an uncomfortable lump lodged in a dry throat ; of a dog panting on a frigid morning walk ; of a warm hand clinging to slumped shoulder-- comforting and steady ; pursed lips--- silenced thoughts ; of wind whipping at ruddy cheeks ; building music heard in the next room ; of traversing a field-- dry grass swiping at outstretched fingers and of long ignored resentments ). a ( twenty ) year old ( tenth ) year ( slytherin ), the ( vagrant ) is known to be ( + shrewd & + blithe ), yet ( — capricious & — dismissive ). that explains why they’re majoring in ( alchemy ). rumour has it, ( rabastan ) is siding with ( the death eaters ) in the solemn war that blazes just beyond the horizon. ( alex, 26, pst, she/her )

oh wow aNOTHER ONE, yes it’s me alex again and this is rab

check out his pinterest board

character inspo: lit every sad boi character you ever saw

im jk jk

perfect quote(!!!): “he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise. “ --isabel allende

loveable asshole. irresponsibly charming. i hate HIM

an exercise in wasted potential

does not care about anything

actually the worst™

so sad but so much fun

probably in severe need of a nap at all times

find him sippin that tea ya’ll

living meme. actually the most dramatic piece of shit. LITERALLY??? he wants and loves attention he’s great at monopolizing a room and putting himself in the center of things. pretty upfront only because he doesnt care

is he good? is he bad? who knows? definitely not RAB

rab has been?? extremely well off his whole life. things were given to him v easily . he's the second son with zero responsibility or pressure. but then he also gets to be handsome and charming it’s??? a problem. but on the other hand he has a lot of confidence and his heart is in the right place. life’s just not fair. rISE ABOVE THE GENES MY SON PLS

boi smart as hell. he keeps that to himself though. any sort of potential he learned to squash down since it’s not really needed for this life he’s got! he doesn’t need to be the one that’s good at things, he’s the second son. a spare. extraaaaa

it gets to him sometimes but who wouldn’t be a little resentful?? idk maybe that’s why he’s extra and annoying sometimes.

pls don’t feel sorry for him though ew. chew him out so he can change his ways lol

but fuck if he doesn’t love rod. rod is like?? his role model, v important to him. hero worship. the greatest love story ever told. his man. the coolest bro ever. everyone else sit down. it’s a big reason that a lot of what goes down with pureblood nonsense goes unquestioned. like rod is not just a person? he’s family

v directionless. wouldn’t know what to do with himself if his life wasn’t planned out for him anyways

speaking offffff someone help this loser.

i have one lose here, in need of friends, all the slytherin buddies and maybe precarious alliances he’s made outside of slytherin, he’ll probably like someone ?? idk, i need him to suffer, also someone should bring a rodolphus!

#im so lazy akdjf love him anyway <33 #solemnly:intro #* / nothing feels better than this : ( about )#solemnly:intros

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green-has-moved-to-another-blog · 6 years

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i just came back from bmc

- jeremy's computer has a steven universe sticker

- jEREMY CANONLY WATCHES SU

- wHAT A WEEB I LOVE HIM

- jeremy actually put lotion on his hand when he says "im waitin for my porno to load"

- mICHAEL HAS A PRIDE PATCH

- hE ALSO SAYS "MY MOMS WOULD BE SO PROUD" CKDNCJDMJGVHCDN WHAT AN ICON

- Chloe's little "haha i like gay ppl" in more than survive mcndncbsjgjcbch

- jEREMY LOOKS SO SAD NEAR THE END OF MORE THAN SURVIVE JCNDNCNDJCJDG BBY LEMME GIVE YOU A HUG

- cHRISTINE IS ME IM KIN VCJDCHDHTGJ WE BOTH LOVE THEATRE, WE BOTH HAVE AD(H)D, AND SHE EVEN HAS MY PERSONALITY!!!

- PLUS HER NAME IS ONE LETTER AWAY FROM MY NAME IRL!!!

- not actually part of the musical but rich was spitting everywhere in the squip song jvjdjcjsjvorhcjdg ur doing amazing sweetie

- apparently the squip song jumps dIRECTLY INTO two player game???

- the way michael and jeremy say "is it really true,,,,, im your faaaaavorite person???" "yEAH!! :DDD we're neeever not gonna be a team" is so cute cjcncjdjvucbf idek why?? it just is and it can't really be explained through text im sorry!!!

- "what does it even taste like???" "G H O S T S"

- i ALMOST SCREAMED WHEN SQUIP APPEARED CBNSHXSKJVBCD MY FRIEND AND I HAD TO HOLD ONTO EACH OTHER FOR SUPPORT

- hE'S SO HOT I NUTTED ON THE SPOT

- also squip's outfits are all white vhjfjcsjlcdng that man is really out here lookin like rk900

- tbh i like jeremy's eminem shirt in this version better than in the og

- jEREMY DOES THE BEST FUCKIN POSE WHEN SQUIP TELLS HIM "no, stop" IN BE MORE CHILL PART 1 VHDHHCJSJCJG WHAT A MODEL

- squip looks so disappointed when jeremy tells brooke he has to meet up with michael

- ngl brooke is kinda,,,,, hOT when she dances in do you wanna ride cjcghcslchrhcb my bi ass was sweating the whole time

- i expected the beginning of be more chill part 2 to be more angsty but jeremy just sounded so confused ckjcjrghckeixehb me too jeremy

- "ohhhhhhh everything abt you is so terrible" "everything abt me is so terrible???"

- jeremy tucking himself into bed with his school clothes still on is a mood

- "jeremy are you talking to yourself???" "i,,,,,,, guess i am"

- squip kills eminem what the fukc

- SQUIP'S FACE WHEN CHRISTINE SAYS SHE'S INTO JAKE GJHOSBCKEBCGNCJ

- "wE GOTTA!!! GET STONED IN MY BASEMENT!!! :DDD!!!"

- i love my son michael sm

- LOSER GEEK WHATEVER IS THE NEW SONG THEY ADDED!!! IT COMES AFTER UPGRADE AND IT'S SO GOOD CJDBCSJCNSJCG IT GIVES YOU MORE INSIGHT AS TO WHY JEREMY WANTS TO BE POPULAR AND GJCHSCJRJCHSJF I NEED THIS SONG ON THE OFFICIAL SOUNDTRACK RN

- sO MUCH SHIT HAPPENS IN HALLOWEEN

- i want jeremy's halloween costume

- jAKE DRESSES UP AS THOMAS JEFFERSON FROM HAMILTON GJCJDKXBSJCGNX

- I FELT PHYSICAL PAIN WHEN CHRISTINE WHEN UP TO JAKE BUT HE BRUSHES HER OFF AND DOESNT EVEN RECOGNIZE HER COSTUME FJCJDJVJDJCSLNG MY DAUGHTER DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER

- rICH FUCKING FLEXING ON THE DANCE FLOOR

- rICH HIGH FIVED EVERYONE IN THE FRONT ROW SEAT CJDBCJEJVTHCGM MY FRIEND AND I WERE IN THE SECOND TO FRONT ROW AND IM SO JEALOUS BC GOD WE WISH THAT WAS US VJFJCJFJGKVJD

- jAKE DABS

- jeremy and christine making sounds at each other on the couch is a big mood and also thats something i have done irl

- JEREMY AND MICHAEL ARGUING IN THE BATHROOM BREAKS MY HEART

- MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM SHATTERS MY SOUL GHWHDJEHCJENFJ BBY LEMME HUG YOU

- rich having actual s l o b b e r coming out of his mouth while screaming abt mountain dew red

- iN THE SMARTPHONE HOUR LITERALLY EVERYONE IN THE CAST DRESSED AS FEMALES CMGJCJFJCJRJGH HOLY SHIT IM DECEASED

- "i know abt everyone but no one knows abt me,,,," "cool drink this!!"

- jeremy yelling at his dad makes me go :(((

- jEREMY'S DAD FINDING MICHAEL DOING DRUGS AND TELLING HIM TO STOP BURNING INSENCSE JCJDJFJEJVJTCJH

- "MICHAEL MAKES AN ENTRANCE!!!" I LOST IT CJDNJCDJHCHDFJ I LOVE MY SON SM

- jeremy's fight with michael (while he tries to get the mountain dew red) looks so fake cncjdhcjdbgbcfg thanks i love it

- "oh my god im totally bi" RICH YOU BICON I FUKCING LOVE YOU BBY

- rICH ASKS JEREMY IF MICHAEL IS SINGLE JFJCJJDJVJDBCHD RICH X MICHAEL IS CANON

- squip dying is just,,,,,, top 10 saddest amine deaths

- vOICES IN MY HEAD IS GOOD SHIT I LOVE MY CHILDREN (and squip,,,, my husband) SM!!!

- iN CONCLUSION IM GONNA DIE AND BMC KILLED ME BCBSHCJFJVHXHGHG

bonus:

- my friend and i got to sit in the second to first row so we had the Full Experience™

- that included watching everyone on stage sweat and spit everywhere jgjchsclwhcrbcgh

- iN LOSER GEEK WHATEVER, WILL R (jeremy's actor) LOOKED DIRECTLY AT ME AS I STRAIGHT UP CLUTCHED MY HEART AND WENT INTO CARDIAC ARREST VJFBCJDJHCKDBG

- jeremy doesnt say kinky vjdbcjdgkchf this is so sad squip play michael in the bathroom

- ok this wasnt a script change or anything bUT SQUIP TRIPS ON JAKE'S CRUTCHES AND FALLS ON HIS ASS BHCGBHGFHGFXDSDF I LOVE HIM

- my playbill was signed by everyone except christine and rich aND IM RIOTING

- jk pranked vjxghcgdhfgit it isnt their fault or anything!!! i just couldnt get to them in time

#greeny stop talking #be more chill #bmc #bmc nyc #bmc new york #also none of these quotes are accurate ghgfhgfhdfnhcd im just trying to remember what they said

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todokori-kun · 7 years

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No. NO.

DON’T FEEL DEPRESSED. YOU’RE A QUEEN, OK, YOU’RE AWESOME. tbh the real problem here is probably me, I’m such an anxious loser XD

Awww I’m gonna miss you ;-; but enjoy your trip, that sounds so fun! Is it ok if I ask where you’re going? :D

(also new icon omg it’s so pretty)

You’re welcome! AND YES I relate to the 6 pics thing so much. I can never get to 8 pictures. (Currently trying to make an Illumi aesthetic and dying inside because…um…what is Illumi’s aesthetic again? Lots of needles, mind control, yandere-ness…dead fish eyeballs…nice hair…and…uh…)

They’re beautiful eyes. Endless swirling pools of silent screams and blank despair.

“Look into your eyes and the sky’s the limit~”

(tbh if I ever met Illumi those would be my first and last words to him lol)

DO YOU KNOW WHAT ILLUMI WOULD DO

HE’D STAB A MIND-CONTROL NEEDLE IN ARMIN’S HEAD

SO EVERY TIME ARMIN LOOKS AT THE WALLS ALL HE CAN THINK IS

“wow must be dangerous out there I better stay put right here in this exact spot so I don’t get eaten. ocean? what ocean? I’m perfectly happy with my current life”

But he would eventually get dragged along to the military because Illumi would have to join the MP to do his murdery assassin work and he absolutely refuses to leave Armin behind (also y'know, the titans will never get near Armin when they’re in the MP so win-win…for Illumi)

(I’ll find some good ones and send them in a seperate submission :D along with a few more HxH characters, if that’s ok?)

(Yeah. But tbh Angelica is too fab for TJeffs)

It’s amazing. Just…I feel a strange urge to draw Jefferson’s face at that moment

She’s the purest cinnamon roll in Helpless! But for people who have a harder time getting into Hamilton, That Would Be Enough is probaby where they get to see more of her actual personality…maybe? That’s what I meant ^^;;

I KNOW. Like, I think it’s impossible to be a female member of the Schuyler family and not be a total queen.

Everyone must bow before Angelica’s rapping skills

And every day, while slaves were slaughtered and carted

Away across the waves, he struggled and kept his guard up

Inside, he was longing for something to be a part of

The brother was willing to beg, steal, borrow, or barter

Can’t wait to see it :D

Yay I guessed right! As for how I knew…a fandom troll never reveals their secrets (jk, jk, I actually used to hang around on the edges of the Fairy Tail fandom for a while and I know a few tiny things. Like, if there’s a popular fandom on tumblr, I probably know a few basic facts about it even if I have no intention to ever watch/read/listen to it ^^;;)

*insert infinite Schwings here*

Yep.

Like I said though, he is DEFINITELY not dead. Character reasons and Ishida reasons (because tbh I hate to say this but TG’s writing style has gotten a bit predictable lately). Probably gonna cut his way out of there…or maybe he’ll frame out all the way

Oh no, that sounds frustrating ;-; *hugs* I’m sure it’ll still turn out amazing though! <3 Luna is the queen after all :D

Gon is the purest child. He’s right up there with Eliza and Armin.

(so it’s confusing how his dad, Ging, is such a trashcan.

Cousin: Ging, I don’t think you should do it

Ging: Imma go and become a hunter anyway

*promptly disappears for a few years and then suddenly returns with a tiny baby*

Ging: so yeah this is my son, his mom left, could you take care of him for, like, the next 12 to 13 years while I go and do mysterious hunter stuff and let him think I died in a car crash, leaving behind only a tiny locked box containing a recording of my voice, a weird ring and a game as a clue for him about who I am

Seriously, I found a pic on google that’s like

*Ging stares tenderly at his baby boy’s face*

Ging: “You’re gonna be Gon.

And I’m gonna be gone”)

Leorio is my absolute fav. I love him so much. (and yes he is very extra)

‘Sweet Sunshine Child’ might not be 100% correct but Killua is still cute. I think everyone in the fandom wants to adopt him and Gon lol (and Queen Luna would certainly be a much, MUCH better mom than Kikyo Zoldyck)

yeah, a lot of people mistake Pika for a girl, and a lot of people headcanon him as nonbinary too :) Yes, TRAGEDY. I think the main problem with Kurapika is that he isn’t able to let go of the anger inside him or express it in a healthy way, so his hatred for Chrollo and the rest of the Phantom Troupe is just destroying him.

Chrollo is also my problematic fav XD he does look really nice with his hair down. (And he is SUCH a Magnificent Bastard. I’ll send you another surprise pic of him soon)

I’ll give you updates on her reactions to major events :D

…I think you won’t be surprised to hear that my eyes stayed completely dry throughout the entire episode *troll face*

As for YoI…you’ll probably be seeing my reaction to that in the other submission :)

(but also I actually went back and read some of our older messages on there a while back and they’re hilarious.

Like, I’m really awkward in the older convos so it’s sorta cringe-y, but still. I sorta laughed when I read the convos where you weren’t quite into Hamilton yet and you were telling me that you didn’t really listen to musicals that much (LITTLE DID YOU KNOW I WOUD DRAG YOU INTO HAMILTRSH HELL))

DON’T LET ME EVER HEAR (read?) YOU CALL YOURSELF A LOSER, OK?? BECAUSE IF YOU DO, ILL BREAK SOMETHING =3= It’s my fault, really. I should’ve written the answer and then copy-pasted it when I had net.

We’re going to Norway! It’s gonna be so much fun :3 My sister is also going, so I’m very very excited about that ^^

I love my new icon *^* There’s a whole set of them, so chances are I’ll rotate them ^^;;;

Ahahahah good luck with that! I’d love to see it when it’s done, if you do manage to get it done XD Any ideas on which colours you want?

Welp, I’d say those would be pretty nice last words, especially considering the situation. Ahem.

But when I fantsize at night, it’s Illumi’s eyes

FOR FUCK’S SAKE ILLUMI YOU CAN’T JUST STAB A MIND CONTROL NEEDLE INTO SOMEONE AND DO THAT. THAT’S WRONG!

Well, uh, I mean, good for Armin? But, then again, how would he get Armin into the MP?

Oh joy more character reviews XD I’ll get to those at the end of the post ^^

Not a drawing but;

Replace Jackson with Jefferson and we have his thought process.

I bet he’d run away screaming. I know I would if I was him XDD

Ah, true... Still, Eliza is impressive no matter the song! She’s just too cinnamo roll-y not to be impressive. I love her T^T

Schuyler family in general is amazing. Even the generation after the sisters. Like PHILIP.

I’ve only managed to do Satisfied a few times, and her rapping skills are godly. Not that mine are very good XD

Then a hurricane came, and devastation reigned Our man saw his future drip, dripping down the drain Put a pencil to his temple, connected it to his brain And he wrote his first refrain, a testament to his pain

Oh, I should do that XD

Aah, that makes sense... I mean, I knew tons about BnHA before watching and I still now about Joker Game despite not even being interested in it XD It’s just unavoidable on Tumblr :P

S C H W I N G

Well, I read your update and... KUROIWA IS DEAD??? WHY?? W H Y

Just.

This is why I gave up on TG.

Hnngh no one from here like anime =3=

Wow. Just wow. HxH seriously seems like an emotional ride. I’ll have to think about it XDDD

Also you’ll be Gon and I’ll be Gone is just...

Yay for magnificent bastards!! I like the last one you sent me the most, I think it had all hair down and no headband?

Yeah, Im not surprised. Tell me, did you cry during Hughes’ death? Or during hs funeral?

I got your submission XD I’ll answer it here so I don’t bother the people there but it’s magnificent! So. Many. Puns.

Ahahah. If only I’d known... I also went and rewatched The One Thing You Can’t replace. And I’m amazed again XD

AND WOW THE HAM/ELIZA FEELS. WOW. THERe GOES MY HEART.

Shaiapouf reminds me of Shuu... All those butterflies...

Tbh Ging (?) sounds like me as a parent XD Well, at least he tries?

#evans #submission

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therealgerm-blog1 · 7 years

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Come back is real guys! Well yeah here to express my angriness again. Tbh im now having a very unstable emotion. Thank you mom, you again, successfully piss me off again. And I wouldn’t even install back tumblr because of you because as you know I don’t want interrupt my friends and stop them from their work or way progressing for some sort of assignment shit.

So here we go.

So I was actually planning of going to broga hill with my teacher and few of my Malay friends tomorrow. So I told my mom that I will be home late tomorrow because we wants to view the sunset but she straight away ask me to cancel my plan after knowing that I’m going there with Malays . *Racism does exist* . So I tried to convince her to let me hike broga Hill tomorrow even though I went there before but it’s really been a long time since I last went to broga , in addition, I think that hiking is a very productive activity, it’s not like staying at home. Like, come on! Dude! I am a teenager. I want to explore the world , i love extreme sports, i love adventures( who does like it right?) Im not a child anymore , im 18, I need freedom. Ok to be honest, if I don’t go there by myself. Would you even think of bringing me to ? Obviously, your answer will be a NO . All you ever know is just shopping/ grocery shopping, stay at home (being lifeless af) and go to places that you want to go. I know you are worried about my safety, YOU DONT TRUST THEM JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE MALAYS! YOU ARE RACIST, YES YOU ARE. DONT TRYNA DENY IT! you think all malays are bad . You prejudice / discriminate them. I can see it on your face and base on your attitude towards malays that you don’t like them. And yes mom, I know SOME Malays are real bad, but not ALL. Think about it dude, SOME of the Chinese are bad too ! Doesn’t mean that we are same as them. We are different. People are influenced by the environment (surrounding lifestyle, family and etc…) Well maybe race does effect the way they act, the way they.. In some different way. But good Malays are exist, not everyone is bad just bcs you think that they are. I know you might think they are bad bcs of some of them did smtg wrong.

Mom, please. I studied sejarah islam and u have lots of Malay friends and teachers. They are not like how you think. Most of the time, they are just way more friendly than the Chinese people and way more nicer. They are creations from God too. So do I. We have feelings. Would you feel being look down and angry while someone discriminate you? I bet you will ! Like why did you give me a response like “ where the hell you get that baju kurung frm? ” “oh I bought it” “ God sake why you go and buy something like this and even wear it” . You don’t even feel proud of your daughter as she really slays with that dress haha jk perasan dah la ni. Mom I want you to know that i just like their culture doesn’t mean I will join Islam and learn bad habits from them. I have self esteem too. I don’t like the way you insult me. I just want a Mom that is really care for me , gives me love, time, support. But you are just way too much of comparing yourself with others. You never ever admit that you we’re wrong even you really did something wrong. You will blame on someone else and tell everyone that how innocent are you. “Remember it takes two to make a quarrel” so sometimes can you just figure ? Do the right things and do right things. Not just bragging around. You always have a mind of thought that you are always the right , the best. You never listen to others, you were just too busy making excuses for your own self , protecting/covering yourself from reality and the truth. Everyone is loser include your daughter me. Where are you when I need you? Where are you when Im having my saddest time? Where are you when I want to share my happiness ? You are never with me. Even if your body is with me, your soul will flew a mile away eventually. Thinking about your son, thinking about your career, thinking about your boyfriend, etc. Why cant you just show me some love sometimes? You never hug me even when i was a kid , you never kiss me. You just never show it out. Well, I’ve been always telling my self that you really do love me but you just show it in a differently. Idk I frankly barely feel your love. Or maybe you don’t even love me? You hate me? Nah. I’m just a nobody to you. I will never make you feel proud like how bro did . I’m a disgrace, a failure , a trouble maker in your eyes. You will never see the good in me. In the past, I really did try hard to win your heart. Guess what? Im just not qualified enough to. I actually wanted to list out incidents tat happened between us that make me feel unfair and unhappy about my mom. Hmmm but I guess it was enough for today :) don’t want to be a grandma nag too much haha . Thank God , i feel much more better after expressing out. I actually should have an attitude of grattitude.THUS, IM GONNA BE POSITIVE AND BELIEVE THAT MY MOM LOVES ME .OK.

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