#im frustratinf and agonizing to be around and an overall unlikable person but people stick with me anywah . for whatever reason .

[ennuidays]

soooorrryyyyyyyy

#i feel like this very very rarely . i feel anything very rarely #i dont rven know how to describe this . #i think i need somone to be mad at me for being like this i cant keep getting coddled #im frustratinf and agonizing to be around and an overall unlikable person but people stick with me anywah . for whatever reason . #so i think ayone whos ever had the displeasure of interactinf with me has every right to be angry and yell at me #i think thays whag i need . i need to be told im an idiot and to get my shit together before it ends worse than its going #idont want anuone to worry about me or be sad because of me or have me on their mind hoping i get better when im going thru it #i need someone angry to tell me i cant keep acting like this . because i kno i cant but i dont wsnt to listen to myself . #i dont trust expressions of love or affection at all . i can only tell when its genuine anger #i dontnknow iodnt knoooiwwwwww iiiiii dont knowwwwwwwwww #im tirrd . sorry.goofnight