#im also so tired like how am i alive rn. its friday after finals week fjasdlkfjasdf

[lovinbeats]

        what’s  up .  it’s  ur  girl  sunny (she/they) !!   i  am  a  complete  disaster  most  of  the  time  but  here  i  am !!   i  LOVE  red  velvet  and  just  yeri  in  general  tbh  ...  she’s  my  babie .  i’m  excited  to  get  things  started  on  here  so  feel  free  to  message  me  here  or  on  line  for  plotting !!

dani’s  stats  can  be  found  here ,   but  i’m  still  working  on  a  biography  for  her   ( that  will  come  one  day  i  promise ) .   she  loves  books  and  coffee  and  can  typically  be  found  at  grindr  either  working  or  not     ---     perhaps  she  has  an  addiction  to  coffee .

dani's  life  was  typical  of  any  other  middle - class  family's .   the  youngest  of  two  ;  parents  who  were  too  busy  to  pay  any  attention  to  their  child  and  an  older  brother  who ,   at  six  years  older  than  herself ,  had  no  interest  in  the  young  girl .

her  first  year  of  education  was  less  than  desirable .   she  acted  out ,   threw  fits  beyond  belief ,   screamed  for  attention  that  she  was  never  given  at  home .   diagnoses  were  thrown  in  her  direction ,   medication  pumped  into  her  like  her  life  depended  on  it .   she  became  a  lifeless  mass ,   a  child  without  a  personality .   it  was  decided  that  she  would  finish  out  her  education  in  a  private  school ,   starting  from  the  age  of  six .

she  spent  years  in  this  setting ,   class  sizes  so  small  she  never  did  learn  how  to  interact  with  others .   she  became  a  hermit ,   shying  away  from  interactions  and  always  having  a  nose  in  a  book .    she  still  yearned  for  the  attention  that  her  parents  gave  her  brother ,   the  beloved  son  they'd  always  wanted .   she  lived  out  lives  she  could  never  dream  up  on  her  own  in  the  pages  sewn  into  bindings  that  fell  apart  at  her  fingertips .  

she'll  never  forget  the  night  her  brother  answered  the  phone ,   voice  cracking  like  he'd  just  woken  up .   maybe  he  had ,   it  was  two  in  the  morning  after  all .   she'd  been  invited  out ,   a  young  fifteen  year  old  girl  who  just  wanted  to  fit  in .   and  after  hours  of  pretending  to  be  someone  she  wasn't ,   she  called  the  only  person  she  knew  wouldn't  scream  in  her  face  for  all  the  horrible  decisions  she'd  made .

he  never  did  show  up .   she'd  walked  home  that  night ,   confusion  and  anger  heavy  on  her  heart .   she  thought  of  all  the  things  she'd  say  to  him  when  she  saw  him  next    ;    she  didn't  know  she'd  never  see  him  again .  

it  was  hard  on  the  entire  family ,   on  the  entire  town .   star  football  player  who  had  gotten  himself  a  full - ride  scholarship  to  harvard  .    he  was  destined  to  do  so  many  things .   after  his  death ,  everything  changed .

her  family  was  no  longer  typical ,   her  mother  became  addicted  to  presecription  painkillers  and  she   wasn't  even  sure  her  father  was  the  same  person  anymore - everything  made  him  so  angry .   they  blamed  her  of  course ,   for  dragging  him  out  that  night  when  he'd  been  far  too  tired  to  drive .   she  blamed  herself  more  than  anyone ,   hated  herself  every  minute  she  was  alive  and  he  wasn't .  

she  was  angry .   she  was  angry  at  her  mother  and  father  for  losing  themselves ,   she  was  angry  at  the  town  for  painting  the  dead  boy  into  a  spectacle  to  be  gawked  at ,   she  was  angry  at  her  parents  for  never  giving  her  the  comfort  she  needed  -  for  always  blaming  her  with  such  hatred .   she'd  killed  their  precious  boy .   she  was  mostly  angry  at  herself ,   for  never  missing  him .

all  she  knew  was  anger .   soon  enough ,  she  was  kicked  out  of  her  academy  -  fighting  on  school  grounds .   dani's  anger  found  itself  manifested  in  her  songs  -  songwriting  always  her  best  outlet  even  as  a  child .   she  met  cole  in  the  midst  of  her  rage ,   and  found  herself  enjoying  his  company  more  than  she'd  like  to  admit .   something  about  him  seemed  to  calm  it  all  a  bit .   joining  his  band  was  the  last  puzzle  piece  she   knew  she'd  been  missing .

adulthood  came  in  a  flash  and  she  knew  it  before  her  18th  birthday  even  arrived  -  she'd  not  be  welcome  for  as  long  as  she  was  a  legal  adult .  there  were  too  many  painful  memories  there .   no  parent  wants  to  see  their  child's  killer  every  day .

wanted connections

roommate  -  just  as  it  sounds .  dani  placed  an  ad  to  find  a  place  to  crash  for  a  while  but  it  turned  out  to  be  better  than  she’d  thought !! 

older  brother’s  best  friend  -  dani’s  older  brother  was  a  social  butterfly ,  known  as  one  of  the  town’s  nicest .   after  his  death  everything  was  so  awkward  and  the  town  began  to  separate  themselves  from  the  family  -  his  best  friend  was  one  of  them ,   but  never  lost  touch  with  dani .

like  two  peas  in  a  pod  -  dani  spends  so  much  of  her  time  at  grindr ,  she  forgets  that  she  should  probably  be  a  decent  human  being  and  talk  to  her  friends .   this  muse  doesn’t  seem  to  mind  though  and  often  joins  her  in  her  unproductive  daydreaming  escapades

no  ‘ miss  proper ’  -  don’t  be  fooled .  the  private  school  life  in  stone  harbor  was ,  if  anything ,  a  way  for  parents  to  just  say  they  were  trying  new  methods  for  their  children  who  ‘ couldn’t  succeed  in  a  traditional  environment ’ .  code  for  :  ‘ i  have  a  ton  of  money  and  a  child  who  won’t  stop  screaming  at  the  teachers ’.  once  dani  was  kicked  out ,  there  were  no  other  options  -  she  was  forced  to  attend  the  high  school  she  so  dreaded .  nothing  was  worse  than  hearing  the  pitiful  sorry  after  sorry  when  they’d  come  to  find  out  who  she  was  (  more  like  whose  sister  she  was  ) .   this  muse  didn’t  seem  to  notice  at  all ,   and  also  happened  to  be  one  of  the  only  people  who  didn’t  mock  her  for  her  previous  education ,  assuming  her  to  be   ‘ miss proper ’

#stone:intro #im sorry this is literally such a mess i did not ... proofread . fjasdlfjasf #im also so tired like how am i alive rn. its friday after finals week fjasdlkfjasdf #will go through opens tomorrow and maybe write my own tomorrow ?

[survivor-tierradelfuego]

Ep. 8: “The leftovers. The unchosen ones. The losers.” - Najwah

Cody A. 

https://youtu.be/OSh0mvYBSwo

James Hayden

We just got back from tribal and Ryan was blindsided 3-1. I feel bad for the guy because he had no idea this was going to happen, but that' Survivor for you. I thought there'd be a merge at 13, but Jay's questions at tribal put some doubt in my mind. If it's not a merge, then I think I'm an ok spot if my tribe has to go back to tribal. I'm just praying to the Survivor ORG gods for a merge today or tomorrow.

Cody A. 

https://youtu.be/sg4qe6MUjJU

James Hayden

https://youtu.be/oGcQdHpBzhY

Zack M

i don't know how they did it but let's take a moment to shout out james and najwah making it through tribal! no idol needed. im so proud of them. i feel like james will gladly come back to our original alliance once we merge but najwah's commentary always leaves me feeling uneasy. no offense but like do you want to play with anyone, najwah? lol. you have to somewhat trust someone at some point in this game. i would love to work with najwah for as long as possible if she is still around after the merge but unfortunately all of the comments that have been made throughout the game will keep me from promising her anything longterm out of fear that she will run around like a crazy person at merge. also, i believe that she will be the first person to mention my name from hanuha in hopes of it becoming a big move that she could put on her resume. maola doesn't know me yet. i guess they could see me as a threat because of being picked as a captain but like i don't consider maddison a threat. lol. pedro and kalle seem to want revenge. i think it would be fun to get her out first at merge. i'm just rambling now. i'm hungry. we got the new challenge. it's some mini online games or something like that. idk. i'm not a gamer so i was like i have therapy and can't do this bye. i wonder if they think i'm making up my therapy sometimes but like if you guys have ever questioned it i promise i'm not. i have it monday, wednesday, and fridays lol. anyways, cody pedro and kalle are playing. i really only trust me and ben so like fml. hopefully pedro and kalle understand that they are playing for their lives and we win again. fingers crossed. ok i'm going to get chicken tenders. bye. 

James Hayden

Things post tribal did not go according to plan. I would've put money on us merging tonight, but instead we have another tribe challenge. There's a small part of me that thinks Edge of Extinction is play in this season. After this challenge, we will be down to 12 people and seasons post 30 that have a 20 person cast merge at 13. I think there's a chance we do merge at 13, but the 13th person is the Edge returnee. 

As far as this challenge is concerned, video games aren't my strong point. I'm not a gamer, but these games are pretty straight forward. If we have to go back to tribal I'm voting Amy. Voting out Najwah would hurt my game because it would show the rest of Hanuha that I'm not #Hanuhastrong and it would tie us back up at 6 original Hanuha and 6 original Maola. Voting out Amy gives us a 7-5 advantage heading into a potential merge, shows I'm #Hanuhastrong, and weakens Maddison who I think was the ringleader of Maola 1.0. 

Najwah

Last night's tribal was interesting and actually the hardest tribal council. Ryan started a group with James and I 7 minutes after Palena was formed which already made us weary of him. He then tried to blindside me and made me believe he's blindsiding Amy and asked me about James and his previous alliance and it was just a mess. He's an awesome person and great team player but it was just too much scrambling and we all feared he'd flip flop throughout the game, which is dangerous. I'm trying not to use this space as therapy sessions lmao so I'll keep it short. Uhm, I think i have a good thing going with Amy and James. I just really hope we win this challenge, or rather, don't come last so that I can work with them going forward. Amy let me know she has a steal a vote and I told her about my fake idol and we'd like to work together. I really like these two people. A LOT. I lied in tribal when I said I didn't want to keep things Hanúha strong going forward. I can't believe I have to lie and blindside now lmao its becoming HECTIC. I'm really hoping we did enough to at least place second in this challenge. 🤞🏽🤞🏽

Olivia A

I’m doing so bad at all of these games rn and I feel so bad bc I asked specifically to not sit out of this challenge. I play little phone games and stuff literally all the time and am really good at them and for some reason am just doing so so bad today. If we lose then it’s probably my fault but also my alliance of 3 is really solid rn so I’m not actually worried about getting voted off. I still feel so bad I hate this so much.

Cody A. 

https://youtu.be/8QZTwYzVqVI

Pedro A

if tomorrow is the merge IMMM GONNA DIEEEEE...we won once again..cause we the baddest.....honestly how am i still alive?...LIKE HOW??....chilllleeee

Olivia A.

Okay woah I’m so happy about this win I was so nervous. I feel like we’re in a really good place going into the merge I’m excited :)

Pedro A

i was about to write my pled for help to the 3 hanuha original members..so they could keep me over kalle...but now who cares...i will throw anyone hunder the bus ....to get to that final

Cody A.

Coming into this game being the competitor that I am, I never imagined even entertaining the idea of throwing a challenge.... BUT when Ben came to me with the idea of making a big move on Zack, I’d be lying If I said I didn’t think about it.. That being said however, I didn’t throw it, but I also did not try as hard as I could have.... I’m very surprised we are not talking to Jay at tribal right now.. Moving forward though, we need Zack.. I need Zack.. If we are merging tonight it is strictly a numbers game from here. I am ready to get my hands dirty, make big moves, and WIN THIS DAMN GAME!!!

James Hayden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXbaQPdhQw0&feature=youtu.be

Najwah

After that whole challenge experience and this entire week, I don't even know what to say. It's been a tiring experience. Being on a tribe where no one really connects is the worst. I tried telling James that the other tribes were highly competitive but for some reason he was okay with his scores? This entire week I've barely had any sleep. Even now, it's almost 5am and people are just on our tribe, OKAY with low scores? We were doomed from the beginning. The leftovers. The unchosen ones. The losers. Honestly, it messes with you psychologically too. I'm tired of scrambling and relying on tribemates to make an effort. I wanted to work with Amy but she's so difficult to get hold of/unresponsive even though we are on similar timezones. James is hellbent on keeping it Hanúha strong and really, hope he isn't playing me. My heart honestly cannot deal any betrayal so close to merge, I'd also like to just enjoy my Saturday. I deserve to be on the merge tribe. Will most likely be at the bottom ass of the tribe but I want to be in it, nonetheless. I worked for it. And right now, I'm exhausted. Annoyed. Frustrated. Fucking mad. This tribe swap has honestly been DRAINING. Everyone is too nice and meek and people just don't care about winning lol.  I hate the anxiety and sleeplessness of these past few days. I forgot what life was like before this ORG lol what did I do? I miss Leanne, still. The best person in this game. I hate it here. I just want to get to merge and be able to breathe again. 

Sarah

Ahhhhh I can’t believe our tribe, Maola, won the challenge by so much. I legit thought we were going to lose and didn’t have high enough scores. Aimee freaking killed it on her scores, wow. I have been telling Aimee how to buy the small perfume bottles that give you advantages and where to get coins to buy them. She used FIVE on that challenge yesterday (I wouldn’t have used all five butttt). Part of my strategy during this tribe swap has been buying/playing advantages so we don’t have to go to tribal because I still don’t know who is close to who, and the more I’m with this tribe the more I feel like they really just don’t talk to each other and there’s not much gameplay happening. Part of my strategy with convincing Aimee to buy and use advantages was also so I know how many coins she has because that can come in handy at Merge. I also wanted to give her information about the idol hunt (which I got from others— I’ve never actually idol hunted not knowing where or what I was getting) so she could trust me. I FREAKING hope tomorrow is the Merge! How awesome would it be for our original tribe to have the majority and for me to still have an idol. I feel like after this tribe swap, Cody and I will be in the best position in the game when it comes to all of our connections with people. We have our group with Zack and Ben, I feel close with James and now Aimee, and Cody feels close with Najwah. So we really are kind of in the middle and as long as people don’t find out about how close we are, we can just get all the information from others and share with each other. I guess I won’t stop posting a brick.... sorry. 

James Hayden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjWjJwew7rc

Zack M

welp. i think this is it. could we finally be merging tonight after tribal? or are we swapping to two tribes of 6? that would be super lame. all i know is something is happening and i'm glad because i've been so bored in this tribe. we keep winning. there's no reason to play. i need action. the third tribe that starts with a p is going to tribal again. i don't remember the name. hopefully james and najwah stay hanuha strong so we can go into the merge 7 / 5. if najwah turns she will be my #1 target. she's too dangerous for my game to allow her to run around. other than that ... we came in second during the last competition. we were so lucky. the maola tribe killed it. i wish i would have played because our teams scores were low key pathetic. the p tribe could have beat us if all their players had participated. like is kalle even playing the game? is she here? i talked to her once. i know i should reach out in case it is the merge but it almost feels pointless. i'm sure she will run back to the 3 girls in maola. pedro seems to legit want revenge for john and is open to work together. i hope he isn't lying because i truly do want to take him as far as i can. look, i know i'm talking kind of cocky but i believe in acting in the way you want things to go. i'll be a clown if i'm blindsided. i don't mind. i like clowns. however, this is the way i see it going down in my head ... - we stay hanuha strong - we get out the 3 girls from maola - we get out kalle - we take out aimee and kalle - we take out pedro and james - we then take out sarah - then we have ben cody and i at finale 3 just how we planned it it could honestly work. we just have to figure out idols and make sure no one plays them correctly. and that's where i'm at right now. wish me luck. 

Aimee

http://rebloggy.com/post/gif-pokemon-cute-anime-kawaii-charmander-s01e01/106470386286 Happy dance! I’m all for keeping this tribe together. Haha I may have gone a little over board on making sure I did my best on the flash games, but you really never know what the other tribe is going to be doing or getting on these challenges. I hope this doesn’t make me look like a challenge threat if I make it to merge. Sarah has really helped me with idol hunting and finding coins and where to find the advantages. This is great trust building! Thanks Hanuha for the free coins I yoinked from one of your bags at your camp.😏 After everything that happened in the last tribe and despite me voting for her, Sarah and I have really come a long way! I truly had the wrong read on her before. She is actually now someone I am very close with and get along well! Last night after we won immunity she told me she really wants to work with me moving forward in the game! Let’s do it girl! I really enjoy talking to Grae. They seem really genuine and such a kind-hearted person. They keep giving me little messages that seem to hint at wanting to work together. I think at this point it’s unspoken but we both know we would love to. We just get along so well. I also vibe really well with Maddison and I know she could be a very good ally in the future in this game. Olivia proved she is a total team player on this tribe and listened to our advice during the immunity challenge and really stepped up her scores! I am having such a much better time on this tribe and am really enjoying myself. These relationships feel WAY more organic. I will do what I can to help keep this going! I would love to see all of us make it to merge. I’m also so so happy Najwah is still in the game after her last tribal and hopes she makes it through the next tribal!

James Hayden

We are 45 minutes away from tribal and Najwah messaged me saying Amy is ok. We were worried about her because she's been MIA over the past couple days. Per Najwah, Amy will not play her vote steal. It sounds like Amy wants out of the game and if this is what she wants, I will oblige. There's a small part of me that thinks Amy is playing us, but I don't think that's the case. 

Maddison

Everyone is expecting a merge tonight, and original Maola is down in numbers. Hoping I can find cracks and worm my way in. 

Pedro A

SO i told everything to zack......he seems to rule that allience....so he will 100% tell the others....and will try to take grae and maddison out...

Pedro A

Grae and Maddison just create fake alliences.so people dont write their name down....and make people feel safe... AND im here to make justice for john PERIODTTTT.... #justiceforjohn

Ben Kessler

I hope we are merging. Pedro is out for revenge against his former alliance. Zack is a threat and I need it to be known. Cody and I are hopefully solidified. If we merge, grae and maddison are apparently big threats according to Pedro. So that is fine with me. Just gotta keep making sure the people I'm closest with stay in.

Kalle N

hey I'm super high rn and I don't remember if I did this already or not so her I go. I hope we merge soon so I can vote people out that have wronged me. can't believe we won the last challenge even after I did basically nothing. ok gtg ily bye

Amy A

So this round has been tough. My Internet issues were definitely the reason my tribe lost and I wanted to quit cos I felt so terrible but I think Najwah and I can do something with my steal a vote. I’ll steal hers and vote James so no one will suspect we’re working together and then go into the merge with our little secret alliance. Bliss 

Olivia A

I’m excited for merge but not sure if we’ll able to get numbers together and have a majority.

Najwah

All I know is that shit is going to hit the fan at this tribal and I'm scared as hell. Only three of us. You'd think it would be easier but it's terrifying. 

Cody A

https://youtu.be/QM4CiTbrjgw

Pedro A

im scared of the merge...scared of the girls allience...scared of me being a target...for being a wild card ...and scared of maddison and graeee.....kill me at this point

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