#ik this isnt like coherent bc im having such a hard time like articulating exactly what i mean

[saprophetic]

i have a lot of thoughts about how like invisible i feel in fandom as a trans mlm who is visibly disabled but unfortunately i dont think i have coherent words for it that wouldnt be like twisted beyond what i meant in the hellscape that is this website

#mine #it just would be nice to see more queer physically disabled men #theres a lot (...respectively speaking) of art of queer disabled women and its always gorgeous #and im always like. so happy when i see it!! like i love to see stuff of disabled queer ppl it makes be. so happy #but i feel like i never really see queer disabled men. like i never get to see. myself #like even scrolling thru pinterest (i know) a lot of the stuff in the like #gay and disabled sections or whatever are wlw. like a majority #i just. :( wanna see myself sometimes #and ik that like as much as it stings me as a white twink it must be even worse for fat moc and i just!!! #i wish there was more diversity in like. circles for queer men???? #im just tired of how overwhelmingly exhaustingly abled everything is all the time #ik this isnt like coherent bc im having such a hard time like articulating exactly what i mean #it just sucks ig. more disabled queer men please. #(also bc this is tumblr pleaseeeee note that im not saying less disabled queer women because there should be more of them too)