#ik i wouldnt be able to handle it but people who easily become the core part of groups and are missed when not around are so so cool

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drew this at 3am in pitch black

#ugly scribbly drawing with big animu eyes = vent art usually so ignore the rest #it hurts being pushed to the back and treated as filler space and not someone who is worth knowing #ik sometimes ppl forget but then i see them putting in the effort to remember things abt other friends and recall them easily #and u kno all those small actions ppl give that show u arent a part of the /main/ group add up over time and wears u down #it all just means im not important enough #it makes me not wanna say anything abt myself bc i know ppl will just disregard it #ik i wouldnt be able to handle it but people who easily become the core part of groups and are missed when not around are so so cool #i dont need that necessarily but if i want to exist beyond a name and a face i need to earn it through constant draining effort #and it often feels easier to just not try bc most ppl will still see me as a background character #im done being annoying now have a nice timezone #my art